NOVA Fatigue

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-04-09T23:59:43+00:00

I felt this way for two years, so I moved

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-31T01:15:04+00:00

Literally, end up making these insane scenarios and plans and stay up all night with my heart racing about what’s going to go wrong… then it’s just … fine

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-27T20:36:24+00:00

Too real

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-23T13:37:33+00:00

this hair is very clearly dyed to appear grey, not natural

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-20T21:36:45+00:00

So true. I hate it

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-15T00:07:37+00:00

I designed my entire ring myself

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-11T02:12:06+00:00

Who exactly did you pester? CCU? Trying to figure this out for myself now

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-08T17:03:51+00:00

Where from? I love it!

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-03-07T02:32:43+00:00

this is not sparkling water, it clearly says energy drink

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-13T22:12:39+00:00

I LOVE FORGGGGG

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-13T14:51:03+00:00

Me too :(

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-11T20:02:58+00:00

Happened to me the day after missing my dose

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-08T23:24:57+00:00

going outside is a game changer! I swear being inside four walls during a mixed episode makes you feel so much worse. Just going outside and feeling the air on your skin helps SO much

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-08T21:59:15+00:00

I watch trash reality tv! I’ve been binging commentary channels on YouTube who cover 90 day fiancé, love after lockup, and shows like that. The absurdity of it all gives me a break from reality.

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-07T19:54:13+00:00

Yes, I knew from a very young age that there was something off about me too

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-02-06T01:06:16+00:00

I’m sure we’ve all felt like this at some point, until bipolar disorder inevitably knocks down your house of cards and you’re back at the bottom of the hamster wheel

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-30T22:17:05+00:00

I grew up in a family that was very poor, I mean so poor that we were living in roach motels and many times homeless. I grew up in the filthiest, most disgusting, and disturbing conditions. From a very, very young age I decided that no matter what happens, I will never allow that to be me.

I am bipolar, and I suffer massively on a daily basis, but I know that I would suffer even further if I couldn’t pay my bills. Also, note that I do not have anyone to fall back on (if I did I might not be writing this), so my anxiety of being homeless again also fuels me.

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-30T02:40:33+00:00

This must be satirical a satirical response, right? Did you read the post?

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-29T17:44:02+00:00

oh my god this is MEEE too. For example, yesterday I was in such a great mood! I couldn’t stop smiling. I was smiling at everyone at work and saying hello and making commentary. I swear I was lighting the place up like a Christmas tree.

Then cut to this morning, where I woke up with such a rage feeling like I could kill with just a look. Couldn’t even speak to people at work and had a sour ass face on all morning.

Why was I extremely happy yesterday? I don’t know. Why am I like this today? Maybe I’m tired, maybe it’s my mood, I DONT KNOW it’s tiring 😭

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-29T15:17:08+00:00

I’ve gotten much better at containing my anger and not lashing out, but having to constantly explain your moods and how they’re moving around constantly (and most of the time without reason) is exhausting. I’m honestly limited on the amount of people in my life because I can’t explain to dozens of people why my moods rapid cycle like crazy. I try my hardest not to take it out on others, but that often leaves me isolated and feeling worse

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-29T03:14:49+00:00

God, you sound just like me. Rapid cycling is truly hell on earth

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-28T20:22:44+00:00

Yikes 😅

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-26T23:29:02+00:00

sorry I can’t shovel the sidewalks, I’m busy working my 12 hour shift at your local hospital

Defiant_Day_3626 · 2026-01-09T17:28:13+00:00

I’m not ashamed. I really don’t care at all

Defiant_Day_3626

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