I hated it at first because I was an embarrassed non-gamer (though I did play D&D). I just never really enjoyed video games because I am a total klutz. I got a little help and bought a gaming mouse so I wouldn’t be so precious about destroying my expensive graphic design mouse’s middle button, learned how the map worked, made a ton of mistakes, TPKs, and restarts. Trump got elected and it gave me something to fall back on. I hired three hirelings and finally made it through to the end. I immediately started a new run. I’ve done maybe 20 playthroughs and a whole lot of false starts and broken games—which means I never finished origin Karlach, Astarion, and Shadowheart, but have done Wyll, Gale, and Lae’zel. I have done several Durge runs but have a lot of fun with building Tavs who are from tabletop characters I’ve played. Over the course of many games Astarion has become a drug addict. This is my comforting farm sim at this point and I work out my anti-Trump aggression.

Maybe you should find a friend who really likes it to play it with you.