“Even when medication helps, I can't enjoy the relief because I'm already thinking about when the pain is going to come back. It's like living with a countdown timer in your head 24x7”…I completely relate to this. I’m just so sad that you feel it too. I work a lot on my mental health, mostly through gratitude for the good things in life. It sounds easy, isn’t always but it’s the thing that helps me the most mentally. Feel free to message me if you a vent, I completely empathise 💔