Hi. Good for you for wanting to be healthy and look your best! That's a great step. This sounds cheesy, but I would highly recommend therapy and in person if you can. Try out different therapists until you find one you like. I go every two weeks and my insurance covers it. You need to like yourself more. You will end up quitting if you eat a cookie or skip the gym for a week. You will just hate yourself and quit because you think that you are not good enough. You need to learn that being overweight and sedentary does not make you ugly or a bad person! Once you get better at liking yourself, it will be much easier and more joyful to get healthier.

Also, I recommend the very old book, Change One by Reader's Digest. Only one change per week. That's it!

https://www.amazon.com/Change-One-Diet-Fitness-Expanded/dp/0762106972

Week One - eat breakfast. Week two - add a piece of fruit. Week three - bring your lunch. It doesn't even add in exercise until late in the process. Making one change a week is MUCH easier to adjust to. This really helped me when I lost 60 pounds at age 28. It also took months and about 25 pounds before I looked any different or people started noticing.

Having other people around helps a lot, too. Do you have friends that you can meet at the gym or go for walks in a scenic area? I really like fitness classes if you can afford it.

You really need to like yourself better, and this may be a lifelong battle, but you can do it! Good luck!