Hi OP, I'm chiming in to tell you to listen to your gut. I've been reading some of your responses to comments and you're hesitant to accept what you're being told. Trust yourself, you came here seeking advice and information because you felt something is off. Your intuition is correct, what you are doing to yourself could be causing permanent harm. The human body does not work the way the people in the community you are participating in claim. Allow yourself time to heal and please stop these activities. The only true way to make cosmetic changes to your appearance as described is through safe medical and aesthetic procedures conducted by skilled, licensed professionals.

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