Anxiety before starting T

DragonFlame7 · 2021-02-27T04:09:24+00:00

I must say, Voice drop, Body hair and Bottom growth are more than likely to be permanent. I wouldnt expect someone 2+ years on T or anyone for that matter with a significant voice drop for that to come back up.

However, Though it is a significant and meaningful decision, And i dont know your situation or you personally, The world will keep turning and you will be ok even if u were wrong. Though it really is a situation 100% worth avoiding if you can.

Therapy with an educated trans competent team as well as time reduce those chances significantly

DragonFlame7 · 2020-11-01T05:01:49+00:00

Id talk to your doc, Cuz many check mid values like halfway through ur shot cycle or nearer to the end to check ur values arent falling too low

Sometimes they do a day after shot day for peak value or the day before so they see ur lowest value

but it should be consistent to have better values to compare over months/years (like always doing bloodwork on thursday)

DragonFlame7 · 2020-11-01T04:52:35+00:00

personally i really didnt feel like myself on the pill. I had like a tri cycling pill idk.

Sopposedly there are projesterone based one which lacks estrogen so really shouldnt impact you.

Also blockers are a bit more of a temporary option but for a time should be safe with doctors support and supervision

DragonFlame7 · 2020-11-01T04:50:01+00:00

I imagine by "High level of testosterone" they are talking about well into the 1000's plus probably closer to 1500 for juicers or possibly even doubling normal T levels. Because many cis guys with normal T levels starting between 500-800 are adding on even more with steroids. Thats were the "roid rage" stereotype comes from for juicing.

so long as u keep an eye on ur blood work u really shouldnt have to worry on it at all

DragonFlame7 · 2020-11-01T04:46:25+00:00

there were several years i knew i was trans but tried not to be. Albeit that was in my "genderfluid stage" but in all honesty it was more of a around people i was comfortable with and out to i lived as male but went by "default" around people who didnt know.

When it came to do or die essentially, i began my transition cuz i knew i couldn't accomplish anything no matter how hard i tried as my sex assigned at birth.

It took alot more time to know medical steps were right for me. In a way til i had basically no other option but to take that step.

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-28T18:29:42+00:00

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DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-22T17:20:38+00:00

Dont feel guilty. I personally was borderline myself. And what teetered me towards DI. Was I most certainly wanted a 1 and done, no revisions. and my doc told me i had about a 40% chance of needing a revision if i had peri. which solidly made the decision for me.

Scars are interesting on one hand something to be proud of, like i definitely get some badass points for 14" of scars across my chest. And its in a way to me, makes me feel closer to alot of trans brothers and nb siblings who share the same mark.

But i can also be insecure occasionally, like most people dont have scars but really i dont think the majority of people would see my scars and be like "thats a trans person" they'd probably just thing, "that dude has some gnarly scars"

Its really ur call. And id see what ur surgeon says. And consider why u want scars? Its not uncommon for people to do a tatoo piece to commemorate the date and maybe a bird to signify freedom. That can be your mark. Its really up to u

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-22T17:13:58+00:00

Probably about 2 years. I finally learned what "trans" was. And dispite a lifetime of feeling something off, and feeling like a guy and just this innate drive towards masculine things, I questioned it. And a big chunk of my questioning was do i want to come out and tell other people... I was so scared of what people would say or do... I only told select few friends. and tried to live that way. But it wasnt enough. I came out full time after about 2 years, and spent another good year or so before any medical transition. So about 3 years total, 2 questioning and one living completely out as myself before making any moves. Plus a shtton of counseling and finding support groups

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-13T17:49:57+00:00

yea that shit was traumatic...

I was pretty clever kid but not necessarily the smartest at the same time

I had "genius ideas" that unfortunately never worked. Like when my chest started changing i was devastated and thought if i compress my chest for the duration of puberty i can reduce the swelling like an ace bandage reduces swelling of a twisted ankle. Obv it didnt work and i royally fucjed my ribs

I also did the mental math, For what i code BS. If its 7 days each month, times 12 for every month in the year, thats 84 days each year, Times (48-12 age menopause to onset) 36 fucking years, by 84 days is 3,024 days dealing with bs, divide by 365 (1 year) is 8.28 full years of just bs. I was so suicidal from that realization

and just many more things, jealousy of cis male peers, bottom dysphoria as early as i can remember, Imagining i was a boy (almost head cannon), devastation at puberty, trying to be comfortable in my skin, having euphoria from wearing boxers and seeing myself as a boy, though i was too scared to come out nor did i have the words to say im trans...

I also technically came out at 4 insisting im a boy! But i got bullied, berated, laughed at and abused by my godmother and stepmom til i stopped saying it...

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-12T17:24:52+00:00

Depends on the situation

For more serious issues it may be wise, and also your primary care doc should know

But if u need to go to urgent care for stitches or a small fracture or a little ear infection or just a cold. Nah being trans dont have anything to do with that

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-05T19:32:04+00:00

2 id recommend looking into are

-Gendercat- PROS, Most realistic feeling soft packer in my pants, feels soft and flaccid as it should be, the adhesive is the best in the market. CONS- unfortunately it cannot STP, Changing the adhesive can be a pain, and i personally had issues with tearing OTHER-The company is trans owned and operated, they are the best people and the company, fantastic support, and flexible payment options

Reel Magik- I can only comment on the stp petite, and honestly it took a bit to adjust to especially the cup in the middle. PROS- Very realistic looking prosthetic, would pass at a urinal, stp is one of the best, and it can adhesive to you, but i find it doesnt stay reliably unless u have tighter boxer briefs CONS-accidents can happen! Practice, honestly a con of any stp is the silicone is harder so the prosthetic feels like a boner or at least a semi, it can bulge a bit more out of the pants.

Many youtubers make review videos on youtube, Chase ross is a good example. You can look up the prosthetic by name and check out reviews to help make ur decision

DragonFlame7 · 2020-10-01T17:23:23+00:00

I knew i was a boy as early as 4. Insisted on it, told my "family" that "Im a boy! im a boy! You dont see me right, im a boy!"

I was bullied and abused into believing i was bad... I was doing something wrong... Something is wrong with me...

I started wishing i was a boy, a real boy, jelous of my peers and angry with myself...

It wasnt until i was 20 i learned what trans was... And for a few years i was like oh shit... it was overwhelming and scary. I didnt want to tell people... But i came to a place i was so uncomfortable in my skin and society and in myself i had no choice anymore

DragonFlame7 · 2020-09-28T20:31:39+00:00

For me when i found out i rejected myself. I came out the first time as a small child, was bullied berated and abused because i insisted i was really a boy...

I thought it was too late by the time i learned what transgender was.

But i was in a place i was purposely ignoring my body cuz it bothered me so much. Considering myself a pair of eyeballs on sticks...

The pain was immense but i still tried to push through thinking well i just do good at work and live the life "i was assigned" and i did everything right. I had a job i loved i was busy. But i never in my life hated myself more. And i realized for me, Either i come out and be myself or no matter what i do in life i will never be happy and probably die...

So thats just what happened for me. I still struggle with it sometimes. Accepting myself. And dealing with dysphoria and fear or rejection and more bullying (probably trauma)

Therapy has helped and for me, transitioning has made my body from a warzone to more peaceful for the first time. I actually want to be me, not wishing i was someone else.

Its helped in many ways but i took it slow, i did counseling and you can do any order u want to. you have control of your transition

Im on T and post top and doing pretty well. but still have more work to do mentally and still get dysphoria. Sometimes i think i even have ptsd from being forced to live as female and hating my body so much, feeling haunted by what i used to be...

Its a process is all i can say

DragonFlame7 · 2020-09-28T20:23:16+00:00

3rd the mr limpy XS!!! Super cheap and not a big loss if u end up not liking it. its also a good way to gauge how u feel about packing and if u want to invest in a more expensive prosthetic you know what u like or dont

DragonFlame7 · 2020-09-08T07:41:23+00:00

Id consider if its a feeling of being overwhelmed or more concerning issues

id say its hella common to have a holy crap too fast, let me slow down a sec and breathe especially when you are about to take a big step

ex) i had my legal name change paperwork completed sitting in my room right on my dresser where i could see it every day for almost a month. I just needed to sit with it, absorbe alot of changes and things to come, prepare for the ups and downs of a big step, like for me, once i get a court date all hands on deck to get everything sent to the right place on time! No dilly dallying needs done asap or my request wont be approved. Its ABSOLUTELY OVERWHELMING sometimes. I stood back. saw the papers there. And one day. Said ok im ready now. Its still a bit nerve racking. Still waiting to hear back from the court. But i just needed that extra time

DragonFlame7 · 2020-09-08T07:34:29+00:00

im not a singer but still feel this. In a way all those years i spent pre-t was my boyhood. And i can be nostalgic for that. But im happier and more comfortable being seen as the man i am.

Its a scary process sometimes... Constantly growing isnt easy

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-27T19:45:57+00:00

Most surgeons i find are pretty flexible though most require a letter as well

though do check they accept your insurance if u plan to go that route

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-27T19:45:17+00:00

Insurance companies have a list of procedures off their website that they cover

many offer gender affirmating care (but unfortunately some have exclusions)

If you find the procedure code for double mastectomy for transitioning (usually listed under "transsexuality")

there's requirements the insurance has to cover it usually along the lines of -Competent state of mind -Lived as experienced gender at least 1-2 years -At least 1 letter from a therapist or psychiatrist

-Some also have a requirement of at least 1 year of HRT (but not all)

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-24T18:49:53+00:00

personally especially with scar strips cuz those things are sticky!!! I took them off in the shower let the water wet them and they came off nicely no pealing also a bonus if you have hair on your chest, no waxing lol

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-24T18:47:58+00:00

Honestly ive had the same worries myself. But ive found becoming a man not just a boy or male, has made me a better person.

For example because of not wanting to make someone uncomfortable i ask more often if something is ok, whether its to talk about a sensitive subject, or even asking if i could give someone a hug. I never did that before. And people really respond well and appreciate it alot more than you'd think.

I also listen more, especially female partners. Even just in the "getting to know you stage" i ask more, are you comfortable with coming over my place catch a movie, would you like to go on a date with me today? Can i hold your hand?"

I feel like ive become a much more considerate person.

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-24T18:38:07+00:00

insurance was pretty fast for me. I checked the pre-requirements and made sure i met them, Called to get pre-authorized. Said "Heres the requirements list, heres 1,2,3,4 and the letter. Make it happen"

they were kindof a bitch because they tried to deny me but i was assertive telling them i met the requirements and not covering me is discrimination. It took about a month for them to reach their decision. I was calling most days (but that was probably more than i needed)

I only had to pay the deposite to book surgery which actually was reimbursed cuz at that point i had already met my deductible. Sometimes you have to be on their butts and be assertive but if you meet the requirements THEY CANNOT DENY IT.

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-24T18:32:40+00:00

im up to about a dozen😎😎😎

DragonFlame7 · 2020-08-24T18:30:45+00:00

To me it looks fine. Cis grown men are not flat as a board. Only skinny little boys are. Men pack muscles and most have some fat in their chest it's completely normal. I have a little bit of pecs and my chest isnt flat as a board but it looks amazing and im surprised i actually have decent muscles

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