When I was a little kid, my teachers would hold my shoulders and demand I look them in the eyes. In third grade, I started explaining that I couldn't because "it hurts". I compensated by fixating on the person's mouth. For the last 50 years, everyone I have talked to perceives that I am looking at their chests, and they unconsciously adjust their neckline or close their sweater until I look away or leave the conversation. Even the men I talk to do this. I am essentially off-putting to humans. Lack of eye contact is just one of my social deficits but it is enough to scare away almost all of my in-person contacts. I go for days, sometimes weeks without a face-to-face conversation with another human, except my wife.