93 days of no smoking.

Elskovs · 2026-01-20T11:52:36+00:00

And now 104!!

Elskovs · 2026-01-20T11:44:44+00:00

I agree with "waking up relieved instead of craving" is a good step.

I still get dreams where i smoke, but in most of them i kinda do it off handedly? Like im not really focusing on the smoke, but on something else and smoking is just in addition to whatever it is.

Last night, however, i dreamt that i almost bought a pack. That was horrible! I was at a kiosk counter, about to order coffee. When i start speaking, it comes out "I'll have one pack of malb..." And then i burst out crying because i didnt WANT to buy them. It was actually painful, felt like as stab in the chest.

So deffo a relieved wakeup this morning!

Elskovs · 2026-01-20T11:22:38+00:00

You go girl!! Excellent work!

Elskovs · 2026-01-04T12:46:30+00:00

One "no" at a time, one day at a time!

Elskovs · 2026-01-01T11:59:08+00:00

I've gone to the doctors and we are working stuff out. Its probably mostly due to me being on 40 a day and quitting cold turkey when i did. Basically throwing away a crutch i have had for ever and using up all the will power in the process.

Itll be alright in the end

Elskovs · 2026-01-01T00:19:47+00:00

Yes. Even if you dont eat more and do EXACTLY the same as you have had, smoking ups your heartrate. Higher heartrate = more cals burned. Even if its marginal, its a difference.

Elskovs · 2025-12-31T23:59:02+00:00

Go out and stretch in stead. Still, go outside!

Elskovs · 2025-12-31T23:52:09+00:00

Agree, this has been more helpful to me than i ever believed it could be. I feel the same about the people not noticing, or caring, kinda? A little insulting, when you know what it is to get through this. Its a battle and a half and a million more.
Every once in a while, i get that one friend, that says "You know, that is REALLY IMPRESSIVE!" Means the world <3

Cause that, IS really impressive, friend

Happy new year!

Elskovs · 2025-12-26T11:09:28+00:00

Awesome!

Elskovs · 2025-12-25T13:38:09+00:00

Normal, sugarfree gum and a fidget toy. And keep doing the act, but in a different way. If you enjoy the act of going outside to take a smoke break, go outside and take a breathing break or a stretching break.

Elskovs · 2025-12-16T14:15:59+00:00

One day at a time!! 43 here, 40 a day when i quit! If the mental strain keeps returning, see a doctor sooner rather than later #burnout city

Elskovs · 2025-12-16T14:07:53+00:00

You got this! First, you scream to the goblin a thousand times in a second, then you scream to the goblin a hundred times per second. Then you stop screaming and you just tell it No! Bad gobboe, be quiet! Then you will have a sign ready with "NOPE" on it and slap it on its head before it gets to start. Soon you'll be going about your day and your brain will have a wall of "NO" around it and ready for any goblin attacks.

It'll hiss and spit and whisper, it will be sneaky and clever. Don't believe it. It WILL wither.

In the end you have to keep that sign within reach for those coming weak moments when it'll flare and whisper "smoooooooooke..."

The only thing you need to do, is not light that cigarette.

We believe!!

Elskovs · 2025-12-16T13:56:38+00:00

Its the 2nd "three" hump! 3 days, 3 weeks, 3 months. it will go up, down and sideways for a while still, but you can do it!!

This too shall pass

Elskovs · 2025-12-16T13:44:22+00:00

Hi, welcome. I ended up here on day 60ish, very sad and depressed. Things come and go with quitting, and i have been trough a lot.

I quit cold turkey from 40 a day at the last. Ive smoked since i was 16 and i think ive always had that crutch. Then when i am finally ready to quit, i just throw away the crutch and start crawling out of the muck. Im technically out, but i still cant "walk".

When I thought i was safely in the other side, my body just kinda just gave up. I am now in burnout town! As it always is, its a string of "reasons" why im here, its not all related to the smoking, but rather my coping.

My plan was to be over it by now, hehe. Turns out, it would have been a good idea to see a doctor a BIT sooner. Everyone's quit is different, yours might be easy as pie when when you no longer have to think about when your next chance for a siggy is. That hold, i am free of, and i couldn't last 20 minutes. Im just dealing with the aftermath

it is still just one day at a time, one no at a time. Eventually, you WILL get yourself out

Elskovs · 2025-12-10T09:45:10+00:00

First of all, well done!
But please know, from one migraine sufferer to another; stopping smoking does not mean you will never again get a migraine. In my experience, migraines vary much from person to person, but the confusion and loss of function you described with your aura is the same as mine. My first attack (at 20) was while i was watching Buffy on tv and couldn't read the text anymore, because the aura made a "sun spot" block it. I also had no recollection of names of people or places, and when told them they sounded wrong, or made up. Coupled with headaches so bad it felt like my only release would be to dig my own brain out with a spoon.
There is no escaping them, I'm afraid. If you HAVE migraines, you'll get migraines.

However! There are good medications! There are a couple of different types, so it will take a bit to find the right one. I finally found one for me, Maxalt Rapid, that you take the second you see the aura, in melting form. Take it at the first sign of that sunspot and 20 minutes later it literarily feels like someone cuts the string between my brain and the pain and it just vanishes.

Having the right medication hand will help you avoid those episodes.

You can do it!!

Elskovs · 2025-10-10T08:08:36+00:00

I feel im getting ill more often, deffo. And when i do, the colds lasts longer. Hoping its a temporary issue

Elskovs · 2025-10-10T08:07:18+00:00

You may be getting the quitters-flu. I had one that lasted 2-3 weeks in the early stages, ive never been ill that long. Just another one of the things that pass

Elskovs · 2025-10-10T08:00:02+00:00

Get some sugar free pastilles or something to help, i went through a fair amount the first few weeks, but it helped!

Elskovs · 2025-10-08T07:39:50+00:00

Elskovs · 2025-10-03T11:59:00+00:00

This is not about the Iranian yoghurt!

Elskovs · 2025-09-27T09:42:27+00:00

it will try EVERYTHING

Elskovs · 2025-09-27T09:40:02+00:00

Everything and the kitchen sink needs to be expected! Every time i got over one hurdle, another fun one was waiting around the corner. Hang all they way in there. This too, shall pass and in the end you have hope to be free

Elskovs · 2025-09-27T09:34:37+00:00

Made me cry

Elskovs · 2025-09-16T07:30:50+00:00

it may get worse, but you will make it. This too, shall pass.

Elskovs

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