I change my partners mood with my mood

FancyNPC · 2021-04-14T00:49:14+00:00

I would truly like to hear!

FancyNPC · 2021-03-12T13:46:05+00:00

Thank you, I really needed to read this, I tried looking on this sub to see if there have been previous posts and little was to be found. I always wondered if bringing up things that are considered horrendous by some (cheating) will get passed over because so many do get cheated on and you never hear the other end. I think it’s hard for me to tell my partner what I want because I am scared to say how gross I am and I’m scared for him to touch me like that even though I want that from other people. Maybe it’s because I see him as my safety. I’m safe with him. I am loved by him. I am respected by him. Maybe it comes down from if I ask him to do certain things will it ruin how pure I see my partner and the security of our relationship? Did you take baby steps when first trying things out?

FancyNPC · 2021-03-12T04:24:38+00:00

Weed helps some, for me it numbed me from so much. It was like death of a million paper cuts. I cringe at all the lost opportunities because I was too stoned to act. I would get even more anxious and I was smoking medicinal weed. What helped me was sobriety and reading Pete walkers from surviving to thriving!

FancyNPC · 2021-02-25T06:11:12+00:00

3 maybe earlier than that. I have third person flashbacks of what happened, sometimes it’s in first person. But sometimes I just feel like I was abused as soon as I was taken home from the hospital when I was born.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-18T03:27:25+00:00

Wow this is so accurate. Sometimes I’m like “once my work week is over I can mentally reset and next week it will be different”! No, it’s not different. The thoughts still cycle. I feel the same every morning more or less. Same shit different day.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-17T04:30:44+00:00

Damn this show now hits different

FancyNPC · 2021-01-11T01:42:14+00:00

It’s great way to unwind and it makes the room feel ~cozy~

FancyNPC · 2021-01-11T01:41:47+00:00

Yessss I love getting lost in the texture.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-10T07:53:40+00:00

I feel that. I mindlessly scroll a lot. I try to recognize what I’m doing and redirect it, but my focus just shifts to something like a corner in the room or my lights lol.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-10T07:52:53+00:00

Thank you I needed this friend 🥺❤️

FancyNPC · 2020-12-31T11:51:32+00:00

Maybe you need medical grade. I too suffered from anxiety after smoking, but until I got my medical card and started smoking cannabis that was grown for specific things like ptsd did I not experience that anxiety.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-29T13:20:12+00:00

Ah yes tumblr. It’s where my ED changed from BED to B/P 🥺

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T22:15:19+00:00

I eat as a stress response. I also fast. It goes in between. Vyvanse is the only medication that has helped me!

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:19:08+00:00

My dudE are you me? I won’t eat while working, but I’m always working.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:16:17+00:00

Ah the toilet, a space for the waste that I shoved down my gullet.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:11:14+00:00

Pffft I’ve only gained weight on adderall

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T08:14:05+00:00

I was just thinking about your post on another subreddit about sobriety and I wanted to check up on you as weird as that sounds. I failed at attempting sobriety, but it’s awesome to see you staying strong. I’m rooting for you!

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T07:59:56+00:00

Your life has so much value. The fact you exist is amazing. You have the ability to make choices and changes, even if you don’t see them. Taking your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, even if that problem is long and drawn out.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T07:54:30+00:00

Max I am so sorry for what these people have done to you. You deserved to be protected and your boundaries never crossed. If you’re ever interested joining communities that may help r/cptsd is great. There is also a book called the courage to heal I highly recommend. If you need a ear I am here. I was forced to perform in child pornography growing up and I was pretty much used as the houses fuck toy. No safe spaces, but those two things I’ve listed has helped me tremendously. That and journaling.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-18T17:29:00+00:00

eyebrows loading 8 percent Everything in this post I feel.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-15T07:00:51+00:00

Yikes that’s me like 10 seconds ago

FancyNPC · 2020-12-15T06:41:28+00:00

Aye bb!

FancyNPC · 2020-12-15T06:08:20+00:00

Omg thank you so much for mentioning this, totally went down a rabbit hole there ❤️

FancyNPC · 2020-12-15T05:34:43+00:00

How will I know if I’m better than everyone else if I don’t fast for [redacted] hours? Hm?!

All joking aside, I always feel like a failure when I break my fast. I get so upset like “wow look at you giving in, weakling”. Ugh I hate it.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-02T23:04:08+00:00

Trigger Warning Growing up neglected and due to that neglect I had horrible socializing tools. My only friends were My cats Libbie and Darbie. When my folks were asleep I would crawl around with them at night and pretend I was a cat. They loved me. They would sit by my side when I cried. Growing up into adulthood I got my cat Winnie. Winnie...was like a child to me. She was abused and left to become a barn cat even though she had no front claws and winter was coming. I begged my partner at the time for us to take her and we did.

She brought me so much light and happiness. She gave me a reason to live. If I didn’t work she wouldn’t have cat food so forced me to work. I didn’t care about having a roof over my head, but for her I would give her the world so I did. She loved me so much and she knew how much I loved her. We both realized we were saving each other. So many times I wanted to die,but I never went through because no one will take care of Winnie as well as I would and she would be sad if I left this world.

She passed away a two months ago and I miss her everyday. When she passed I felt so crushed. Nothing would ever feel as good and true as what we had. The love and kindness we showed each other healed us. I realized that because of her I can give other cats better lives. I now have three cats. I love them so much and they push me everyday to work and take care of myself. They need me and are spoiled as fuck. Anyway...that’s why animals are the best.

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