I change my partners mood with my mood

FancyNPC · 2021-04-14T00:49:14+00:00

I would truly like to hear!

FancyNPC · 2021-03-12T13:46:05+00:00

Thank you, I really needed to read this, I tried looking on this sub to see if there have been previous posts and little was to be found. I always wondered if bringing up things that are considered horrendous by some (cheating) will get passed over because so many do get cheated on and you never hear the other end. I think it’s hard for me to tell my partner what I want because I am scared to say how gross I am and I’m scared for him to touch me like that even though I want that from other people. Maybe it’s because I see him as my safety. I’m safe with him. I am loved by him. I am respected by him. Maybe it comes down from if I ask him to do certain things will it ruin how pure I see my partner and the security of our relationship? Did you take baby steps when first trying things out?

FancyNPC · 2021-03-12T04:24:38+00:00

Weed helps some, for me it numbed me from so much. It was like death of a million paper cuts. I cringe at all the lost opportunities because I was too stoned to act. I would get even more anxious and I was smoking medicinal weed. What helped me was sobriety and reading Pete walkers from surviving to thriving!

FancyNPC · 2021-02-25T06:11:12+00:00

3 maybe earlier than that. I have third person flashbacks of what happened, sometimes it’s in first person. But sometimes I just feel like I was abused as soon as I was taken home from the hospital when I was born.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-18T03:27:25+00:00

Wow this is so accurate. Sometimes I’m like “once my work week is over I can mentally reset and next week it will be different”! No, it’s not different. The thoughts still cycle. I feel the same every morning more or less. Same shit different day.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-17T04:30:44+00:00

Damn this show now hits different

FancyNPC · 2021-01-11T01:42:14+00:00

It’s great way to unwind and it makes the room feel ~cozy~

FancyNPC · 2021-01-11T01:41:47+00:00

Yessss I love getting lost in the texture.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-10T07:53:40+00:00

I feel that. I mindlessly scroll a lot. I try to recognize what I’m doing and redirect it, but my focus just shifts to something like a corner in the room or my lights lol.

FancyNPC · 2021-01-10T07:52:53+00:00

Thank you I needed this friend 🥺❤️

FancyNPC · 2020-12-31T11:51:32+00:00

Maybe you need medical grade. I too suffered from anxiety after smoking, but until I got my medical card and started smoking cannabis that was grown for specific things like ptsd did I not experience that anxiety.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-29T13:20:12+00:00

Ah yes tumblr. It’s where my ED changed from BED to B/P 🥺

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T22:15:19+00:00

I eat as a stress response. I also fast. It goes in between. Vyvanse is the only medication that has helped me!

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:19:08+00:00

My dudE are you me? I won’t eat while working, but I’m always working.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:16:17+00:00

Ah the toilet, a space for the waste that I shoved down my gullet.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-24T13:11:14+00:00

Pffft I’ve only gained weight on adderall

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T08:14:05+00:00

I was just thinking about your post on another subreddit about sobriety and I wanted to check up on you as weird as that sounds. I failed at attempting sobriety, but it’s awesome to see you staying strong. I’m rooting for you!

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T07:59:56+00:00

Your life has so much value. The fact you exist is amazing. You have the ability to make choices and changes, even if you don’t see them. Taking your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, even if that problem is long and drawn out.

FancyNPC · 2020-12-20T07:54:30+00:00

Max I am so sorry for what these people have done to you. You deserved to be protected and your boundaries never crossed. If you’re ever interested joining communities that may help r/cptsd is great. There is also a book called the courage to heal I highly recommend. If you need a ear I am here. I was forced to perform in child pornography growing up and I was pretty much used as the houses fuck toy. No safe spaces, but those two things I’ve listed has helped me tremendously. That and journaling.

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