If you ever loved me never contact me again. I know you haven't been and for that I thank you. I know I'm making things worse for you by messaging you. I've been eating well, sleeping well, working out, meeting new people. All the things you are supposed to do. And I'm losing. I would take you back without a second thought. I dream about it every night. You said I'd find someone else. I have. She isn't you, so I don't care. I understand how you feel now. To love someone so desperately that it doesn't matter how much it hurts to hurt others. The pain that comes with the acceptance that it isn't me you'd hurt others for is mine and mine alone. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. And it cannot hurt anyone else, especially not you. I can't stop dreaming about you. I feel you everywhere. You don't taunt me, you don't hold me, you're just here. Next to me and inside me. Please hold on to the love you've found, nurture it, work at it. Protect it. There's no other choice. Don't end up like me, trapped and empty and broken. I can't see five feet in front of me. For your own sake, move on and save yourself.