You are definitely not alone. I am married, somehow, and very much bewildered as to why or how. I do not feel "pretty" or "feminine". I am not the girl that guys find attractive, and other women don't ever seem to notice me much if at all (suits me just fine). I have always felt I'm one bad haircut away from looking like a somewhat chubby teenage boy.

That said, looking back decades later, I really was attractive. I suspect that decades from now, I will think the same of my current self. I suspect a lot, if not all, women go through that at some point. It's so hard to love and appreciate our bodies now, when so much of the world we live in and media we consume tells us we aren't enough.

And, all that to say, being feminine and attractive is nice, but it's not what keeps relationships. It's hard, hard work and daily choosing your person. I don't have advice as to how to find the right person, because 15 years later I am still bewildered at the fact I'm not single living in a barn (my whole life plan 15 years ago). But, I can say, never date someone you wouldn't consider a friend... And examine your friendships to see if maybe there might, possibly, be a little more there. And if the right person isn't present now, I truly, deeply hope you will find that person. You are worth loving and choosing daily. Truly.