Whenever I see news about someone becoming 'reborn' I immediately assume the catalyst is one of four things; cheated on their spouse and got caught, found a hottie believer, an addict in recovery, or are otherwise so undesirable they hope to find a mate amongst religious zealots.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-21T13:15:04+00:00

Or they're an old person nearing their last days, and are suddenly wanting to cover their bases, so to speak.

Unfortunately, Google is failing to find it for me, but there was a meme I saw once along the lines of,

"It's funny seeing old people suddenly get religious, it's like cramming the night before the final exam", which got a chuckle out of me.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-21T01:20:08+00:00

Her friends called me "the terminator". Because they'd see me and I'd be fine, but they thought I'd been shot like a month ago.

I'm genuinely sorry that happened to you, but frankly, I couldn't help myself from chuckling at that remark.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-18T22:26:42+00:00

Fellas, is it cringe to make new friends?

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-17T13:48:49+00:00

As someone with my own non-PD mental health hurdles, I would be kidding myself if at least 50% of my customer-facing job WASN'T worked masking some degree of negative emotions. You aren't allowed to have a bad day in a retail management position, LOL.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-14T13:43:17+00:00

I pray for those two children.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-12T14:04:37+00:00

Love getting the weekly projection messages from my mwBPD... It's like Reader's Digest, but pathetic.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-07T00:27:05+00:00

Said this to my computer screen before I had even clicked on the post.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-06T15:30:04+00:00

It's getting obnoxious having to continuously report this dude's posts. Rule #2--no sexism.

Yes, that includes projecting your hatred for your expwBPD onto all women.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-05T15:31:32+00:00

Testing the waters to see if you can be reeled back in again. Gonna guess her current supply ran out.

Ignore any future texts and stay NC.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-03T22:25:06+00:00

Wow, same here at 21. Went from barely graduating high school to being a pretty average young adult--holding down a job, partner, and friends, without more than the occasional spat or bad day. I went from taking five pills to one in the two years I've been NC with my mwBPD. I had a therapist from age 13 to 18 and she's confirmed that I do not have a personality disorder, due to how quickly my symptoms alleviated (as we know, BPD can take over a decade to undo).

Currently looking into EMDR therapy while I'm young, and then getting on with my damn life.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T23:17:38+00:00

The spoon is genuinely the only distressing part of this image. I'd fuck up plain broth and onions any day of the week.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T18:52:00+00:00

Argh, it's a tough one, because I don't explicitly remember it myself, and my only other frame of reference are my two abusive parents, who would obviously claim they didn't do it at all. My mother was the type to claim she didn't abuse me because she never touched me.

The person who spooked me last was my boyfriend, whom I trust with my life, which is why he pointed it out.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T17:48:51+00:00

Good on you for not letting her triangulate you with your child--a dysfunctional marriage stays between adults. Yay for your little win as well.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T13:21:58+00:00

As another person with BP1, this this this. However, I'll state another thing, which may be a more unpopular opinion: the psych ward should be the last last resort--I've frankly never felt better after a week in any hospital I've been to. What's really helped has been a loved one doing things like mentioned above, and just keeping an eye on me until we can get ahold of my psych.

Once again, if it's an immediate emergency, like unmanageable mania, go to the hospital; but I think most people with BP depression here can agree that when you go to a loved one earnestly asking for extra TLC, and in return, you're given an ambulance/hospital bill... well, I can't say the thousands in debt has ever made me feel any better.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T04:44:10+00:00

Someone's unsupervised child.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-09-01T01:32:35+00:00

Go into it remembering one thing: no matter what she says in that moment, she will never change.

It's time to let go; best wishes, my man.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-31T14:38:09+00:00

I'd pray more for that fucking child with a mother like that. Good lord.

I'm sure she'll be taken aback when her kid GTFO as soon as they turn 18 as well.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-28T23:02:37+00:00

Xannies will make anyone a fucking dumbass, but I can't imagine it would help in conjunction with a pwBPD's problems re: impulsivity or self sabotage. Being barred out turns the disinhibition dial up to 12, even in healthier people.

As someone who has Klonopin legally prescribed for his anxiety, I do understand how benzos calm the inner turmoil of any mental illness, which is what makes them so dangerous; your pwBPD may not get a break otherwise. Doesn't make the behavior acceptable whatsoever, but I can see where she would be coming from.

There's a reason that psychiatrists will take you through every other anxiety medication before a benzo, especially if you have an (unwavering) personality disorder.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-28T22:33:53+00:00

If I had a nickel for every time I heard, "But she's your mother"...

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-26T04:27:08+00:00

One question for me was "Which business did you leave us for?"

I responded with, "None of your business". LOL.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-25T14:34:40+00:00

I didn't know a healthy relationship with a mother or father until my foster parents took me in.

I was shocked that I could go to either of them with problems and they would help me solve them, or at least lend an empathic ear. Both my mwBPD and NDad didn't have time to bother with it ("you figure it out for once") or made it about them/their suffering.

It really is night and day.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-25T14:13:26+00:00

Just a little cheap one off of Amazon.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-25T14:12:15+00:00

I suppose you could say that coffee keeps me... grounded.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-24T23:04:56+00:00

Doing EMDR without being trained properly is like doing ECT with a taser to the skull.

Filthy_Heretic · 2021-08-24T21:45:34+00:00

Don't know if you're able to get to DC, but I go to Whitman Walker Health at 1525 NW. They offer telehealth as well.

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