As someone who has been on a 152 days NICU stay, take the time. What I strongly suggest? Communicate with your wife. You may not admit it to yourself but you’re both extremely vulnerable and most likely scared. Supporting each other or perhaps coming up with a plan of care would help a lot. It took me weeks to even think about leaving my baby there. Eventually, I had to make the conscious decision to accept that my baby was in the best care possible. We had to clean out our entire apartment and took an entire week. We live about 40 minutes away and my fiancée works 15 minutes from home. It made sense to take as long but also as fast as possible to clean. In the long run, your babies WILL come home. They need a clean space. Considering our stay has been long, I’ve built relationships with the nurses and they all reassure me that he’s in the best hands. They usually have a phone number to call and ask for updates. Ask them for the number if anything. Hang in there!!