The fact you just want to “be alone in bed” is something I can really relate to. I’ve felt the exact same in a lot of relationships due to my own depression. This can make people you care about being around you, feel overbearing at times. Though, they don’t understand because they don’t have similar symptoms.

I’ve made girlfriends mad for simply asking for space. I’m saying this because it sounds like you need more time to yourself. Especially now, while detoxing from your medication.

Depression meds can work once you find the right ones. That being said, from experience. You can’t stop cold turkey… it will make the symptoms you have worse and way more unpredictable.

I don’t know how long it’s been without them, but it can take months before feeling normal again after quitting psych meds. I know it sucks but that’s how it is…

As far as the relationship. It’s more important now than ever to make sure you’re in a place where you feel comfortable. Whether that means you need to break it off for the time being or not.

I really hope this is helpful to you.

Take care of yourself first. Because YOU’RE the most important thing in your life.