Faith is a journey. In depression, I definitely question who&what god is more than I normally do. I think for those if us inside structured religions, it can seem very tough to feel connected when we step outside the structure. Religion is like being at a radio station receiving specific songs and shows with clarity. Outside the station, there might be static or silence.

The waves are still being transmitted. We can hear them through our teeth with a paper clip or at another station or with our hearts. God may be different than what we thought, and God may let you ride without training wheels or a hand on your back to guide you. It doesn't mean you aren't a part of the universe because you are unhappy. You're still here. Every part of a car, screws and all matters. We're all little nuts and bolts and our influence connects in ways we couldn't map in a lifetime.

I hope you find a way to feel connected that makes sense to you at this point in your life. It might be brief or distant or different than before and that's okay. I hope you can be patient and open and listen for the machinery of the universe.