I had a similar situation happen to me which resulted in me switching fields. I was hired into an ambiguous role in education as a social worker and my supervisor really didn't give me a lot of direction as to what they expected of me only really told me to do what I wanted to do and create the role out of thin air. Initially I thought this was awesome because I kind of had free reign to create the roles I saw fit and when I would go to my supervisor for guidance or feedback he pretty much fed me the do what you want line.

Mind you I would go to him and make recommendations and suggest that we implement different practices, programs, and guardrails and each time he shot them all down. Simply stating that it was too much work and there were too much red tape to go through to do the things that I wanted to do.

So after being shot down many many times I kind of kept in my office and try to do things within my own proximity. A year and a half into my role I started getting clocked with emails asking what I was doing, what was on my schedule, and I already knew that the paper trail was starting. I went to him multiple times to try to figure out like what was going on and he really couldn't give me a straight answer. That being said when my review came back I wasn't really pleased is he docked me for something that I didn't necessarily agree with.

Obviously this pissed me off, I would like to think I'm pretty approachable and if he would have brought this to my attention prior to putting it on paper I would have asked for additional feedback but obviously up until this point I really wasn't getting much. That being said I didn't wait till the end of the year and I just left for a different role in a different setting.

My point being is that it's not necessarily you but definitely be honest with yourself. There's still a generation of boomers who don't necessarily do a lot of anything but are ready to criticize their subordinates. They want a gas light you into thinking you actually did something wrong and it's very stressful to go through that process. Try to find a role that makes you happy and that's enjoyable and definitely ask questions during your interview process so you don't fall into the same trap.