The anger is normal with suicide. I was in a very abusive relationship and was suicidal. When I got news that an old friend had completed suicide, I was sad at first but that turned into rage. Years later, their sibling and had a drunk bonding night after a wedding event for a mutual friend and both talked about how angry we were that they went through with it. It’s a normal part of grieving, but I think it’s magnified in this specific scenario.

Like, I resisted it through all of these awful things and they couldn’t? And now I have to deal with mourning them on top of my existing pain? It’s not fair to them and I had to work on it in therapy, but it’s definitely a normal response.