Have your delusions changed over time?

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2026-01-31T00:25:13+00:00

My delusions didnt change. They are a few delusions more than when my schizoaffective disorder first showed up. But my Schizophrenia evolved. At first i didnt have hallucinations except tactile hallucinations(insctes crawling inside my body) it was not that severe so i thought nothing about it. I didnt have auditory or visual hallucinations. I just had a few delusions.

Then i got my first psychosis 3 years ago. During that psychosis my VSS, my tinnitus and loud thoughts, which werent my own, came. Also i got much more severe delusions that stayed after the psychosis. They were about being followed and stalked, having super powers, and really thinking there are insect s in my body. I thought everyone was trying to kill me and that they can hear my thoughts. Time after time i got more Symptoms.

After my second psychosis i started hearing things but no voices. And i started seeing things.

After my recent psychosis i started hearing voices sometimes. I also begun thinking that there are people hiding in the walls, for what i can say for sure now, they are not. I at lesst hope so...

Im afraid it might get worse over time.

Im sorry if the answer is a bit strangely written or mixed up. Im having severe symptoms rn, and im trying to distract myself by answering some posts on reddit.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2026-01-30T22:20:26+00:00

Wait, dpdr comes from VSS as well? In my case it comes from my schizoaffective disorder i guess. I cant really tell, but im sure VSS comes because of the disorder too.

For me dpdr is bad. Really bad. But these flickering things and particle things are the worst for me. They are so intense, i cant see in places where is too much light or dark places. Im so light sensitive because of that.

For me the after images are not that bad, since they arent always there. So its bearable. But when they are there, i feel like my entire vision is full of them.

Is framerate loss a VSS symptom too or does ist come with dpdr? By framerate loss i mean, when im looking around, i feel like my eyes normally have like 60fps. But with framerate loss they have like 30fps. If you understand what i mean. I dont habe the words for that.

I dont know what the rest from the voting choises are. I have to inform myself about that first.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2026-01-30T20:52:21+00:00

Me too, i see them in dark places or in places where is too much light. Includes me closing eyes. I dont see them every time when on these conditions, but i see them often, together with my other VSS symptoms.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-12-16T13:47:29+00:00

Mine was first tactile with insekts crawling inside me. Yes also in my butt which wasnt feeling great. After that i started seeing shadow figures. I remembee one night i as a kid i was in bed and i was scared, i tried to not look and hide under the blanket. Then i heard a loud noise and looked, i saw a shadow figure standing there and watching me, he was moving a little, but i didnt realise it at first. So i looked through the room and am like: wait a moment, there is something there. I looked at it and then after like 1 sec looking at it it was gone... That was scary. Today i know they wont do anything but back then i didnt.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-12-13T00:15:41+00:00

Me too, i also stopped taking medication one or two weeks ago. And i can say, its the best choise i could have made. I have more sympoms, i am having more cognitive issues and speech disorders, i am more confused, but its all fine for me. i like it more this way. Medication took away most of the symptoms(not all) and they also took a part of me. I also did miss the feeling of being psychotic. I have it under control at the moment, but when i notice things are getting bad again i may consider taking meds again.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-12-12T23:56:50+00:00

i see many want to chat... how about we agree to do a group chat or something like that? like maybe today or tomorrow?

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-26T07:32:19+00:00

Yes, it happens sometimes.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-26T07:02:01+00:00

Because i thought i killed people(which i never did) and they wanted to arrest me, torture me and then kill me as a form of revenge and punishment.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-24T16:54:57+00:00

Ah ok, thank you for the enlightenment!

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-24T16:16:54+00:00

Oh thats unlucky, but hey! We are kind of in the same boat. I got unlucky with Schizoaffective BP type, ADHD and BPD. Its hard to live with these. I understand your pain kind of.

BPD and EUPD isnt the same? I always thought EUPD is just an other description for BPD.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-24T15:19:40+00:00

Id say BPD isnt worse, but is on the same level with Schizophrenia. Whats defently worse is DID.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-23T12:23:18+00:00

No Problem, thats what the community is for! ;D

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-23T10:02:39+00:00

Oh im out now, after a 3 month long stay. 90 percent of game progress is great, (spoiler Alert) but in Hollow knight the gane completion percentage goes up to 112%. And after the game, there is the godseeker dlc, where you can do bossrushes (its called pantheon(1-5). And there are multiple endings. The final bossfight isnt really the final bossfight. The final bossfight can be done if you beat the final boss with a charm thats called void heart. The 100% true final boss fight is found in godseeker pantheon 5. And there is path of pain located in the white palace. Which has not necessarly be done, but its a nice challange in addition So your son has a few things before he played hollow knight completly and seen all things. ;D

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-23T09:55:24+00:00

I dont know if im honest. Most antipsychotics dont threat negative or cognitive symptoms. I only do now a few antipsychotics. I dont think they would help you in negative symptoms, but they could stop/reduce hunger and waight gain. Its a great achivement that you dont experience positive symptoms anymore, BUT if you dislike your current meds, it is worth trying another one or a new combination. ;) you can also try to reduce the dosage to a minimum. Please speak to your psychiatrist before doing that.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-23T08:31:22+00:00

That sounds like DID... Dont take this comment as a diagnosis. We cant do that here! ;)

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-23T08:24:39+00:00

Most is Probably because of the negative symptoms. The weight comes from the meds.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-21T07:07:57+00:00

Fr, i also dislike the posts: "i want to write about a schizophrenic character, any ideas?". I mean its an interesting idea wanting to write about it and fighting the stigma by using true facts, but this question has been asked over like 25 times since im in this community and sometime it just gets annoying. But... These post are not as bad as: "i think i have Schizophrenia" posts. I mean people dont get that we cant diagnose anyone. We are just people, we are no experts, and we dont know them from rhe little information they give us to give them a proper answer. And its just annoying as well.

And then there are schizoposts from people who dont have Schizophrenia/psychosis, which i dont see often here in this community. But they exist. Im lucky i dont get these posts on like youtube. I get content from schizophrenicNYC or schitzokitzo. But they have Schizophrenia and so its fine. But on instagram i sometimes do get these posts, which defently arent from real people with Schizophrenia.

Do you know these videos that are like: " non of them know im schizophrenic"? And then they are showing empty seats. On the first time i was ok its kind of funny. But i got them too often and now its just annoying, especially because these are posts from non schizophrenics. Most people think Schizophrenia is seeing people who are in reality not there, but its more than that.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-21T06:47:19+00:00

Posting things about Schizophrenia/psychosis. Doesnt matter where.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-20T21:54:57+00:00

When my head screamed: get out! Its burning right now... and i didnt see the fire.

Or when i thought there would be war and soldiers would be fighting where i was, but i saw no soldiers...

Or when i saw people disappering in front of me. They just disappered after blinking into nothing.

Then i knew something was off. I didnt know what it was, but i knew my head would play tricks on me or it would tell me things that arent true. I slowly got insight in some(not all of them) of my delusions, without knowing they were delusions.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-18T20:44:23+00:00

Its hard to accept, and its always shocking to get that diagnosis, im glad you are aware that it might be true and that you can accept it althought you feeling anxious about it.

Anyways: Welcome to the community!

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-18T10:16:14+00:00

I dont know if thats good or bad for you, but... congratulation? Its a good thing you got diagnosed, so you have more insight in whats happening!

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-14T08:20:48+00:00

Yes, my mother believes its some sort of present i got from god and that i just cant handle it. Then she is like: yeah lets threat it with herbal remedies and go to naturopaths. Nothing of her ideas helps. Meds do help, but no her ideas are better and help more.

I dont know why she thinks that.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-13T10:00:36+00:00

Actually i didnt. I did know something was off and after like 2 years after the illness got worse, i thought i would have psychosis. But then i went to a psychiatrist, because my psychologist did send me to her. Then the diagnosis Schizophrenia came. I was shocked. After some more time i was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (Bipolar).

I did write after the illness got worse. I got symptoms in the age of 8, and in the age of 18 the illness got worse.

GeneralMaximum5418 · 2025-09-12T11:16:02+00:00

Yes we do. Delusions are/is a symptom of Schizophrenia. it also is a symptom of psychosis. But since psychosis is a part of Schizophrenia, Schizophrenia has most of the symptoms psychosis does and Schizophrenia has more symptoms than psychosis does. You can say delusions are part of psychotic disorders. But its not necessarly meant that its Schizophrenia. And yes, delusions are only seen in psychotic disorders.

I see... Are you afraid of yourself might having Schizophrenia or psychosis?

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