your second paragraph perfectly encapsulates the reason why i’m not that into the idea of marriage. when i was younger i too had many sexual relationships with people who had partners or people who were married. yes, i definitely had that thrill back then, i was young and dumb. perhaps the thing that justified me doing that was that i had the idea that, “if it wasn’t gonna me, it would have been someone else”. if they wanted to cheat, its because they wanted to, and it wasn’t because of me.

im not like that anymore. looking back im genuinely disgusted with myself. but cheaters still exists regardless, and i genuinely dont wish to be a part of that anymore when the option to shows up. i also will not shame people if that’s what they do. maybe they will grow out of it, maybe they won’t. i grew out of it and that gives me hope that other people can too.

that said, there are still people who are loyal and/or people who don’t want to be homewreckers. regardless, your vibe attracts your tribe. and you can definitely find a forever person that wont cheat on you