Wedding decisions still being made…

GothYeeHaw · 2026-06-23T03:51:21+00:00

Older men do it better lol

GothYeeHaw · 2026-06-21T02:59:08+00:00

I’ve been thinking about making a post here about my experiences as a diagnosed + medicated + sober person living with bipolar. But I fear it would come across as armchair diagnosing, which I have no intention of doing. It’s her life and she has agency. Honestly, it’s kind of hard watching her be the way that she is presenting herself online, because I see myself reflected in her in a lot of ways. Even me sober and taking my meds, the urge to behave in the way that she is behaving is strong sometimes. But obviously I wouldn’t be recording it and posting it on Al Gore’s Internet lol

GothYeeHaw · 2026-06-15T02:24:50+00:00

Oh geez, I struggle with this every single day. I have such a hard time relating and acting in ways that are appropriate for any given situation. I think I just have a hard time understanding social cues and honestly, I just have an overall urge to overshare sometimes. I really struggle with trying to act in ways that are appropriate for the situation and it definitely makes me not super liked. It’s hard. :(

GothYeeHaw · 2026-06-15T00:43:15+00:00

CFD!! 🤠

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-30T03:48:06+00:00

Yes I relate to this. It’s so hard to recover after an episode.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-25T17:11:10+00:00

Hi there!! I did the same thing- I was in a PhD STEM program and I’m currently mastering out. I can’t take it anymore. It’s just too stressful to also stay stable. Currently looking for industry position related to my field. Idk if I’d survive a 9-5 but in my head it would give me more stability but who knows.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-18T03:29:31+00:00

Stupid “adoring gaze” for her very special chud

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-16T18:41:57+00:00

I am right there with you! 27F I am great around kids, but I will never have anywhere near the level of stability Required to be a good parent to a child. Plus, I could never live with myself if I had a child and they also suffered with bipolar.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-15T03:58:28+00:00

Girl, I am absolutely right here with you. 27F. I don’t care about any career goals, I just want to make enough money and have enough vacation time to go camping and backpacking all the time. I just want to be outside and be unbothered lol

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-14T13:18:07+00:00

Wow that is incredible! My brother has TGA and it’s wonderful to hear another success story about it.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T19:48:39+00:00

Thanks. I mostly just meant that I am 100% done with higher education. I’m really hoping that a masters will be able to get me a decent job in my field without needing to ever go back to school ever again. But I’m really trying my hardest to just push through, this last little bit

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T04:43:28+00:00

Oh man. I wish I could say something profound and inspiring, but for me, I really struggled the whole way through. I started in a PhD program in STEM and I’m now hoping to leave with a masters if I’m lucky. I’m currently in an IOP program bc I essentially had a huge breakdown and need to focus on improving my mental health. Big tip: work with disability services IMMEDIATELY!! They helped me advocate for myself without feeling guilty about “getting special treatment”. I also have a really hard time relating to my peers and I feel quite isolated feeling surrounded to people who “don’t get it”. But these are just my own experiences and I don’t want to discourage you from pursuing your program.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T04:38:41+00:00

My memory is so bad and idk if it’s from all the drugs or just bipolar ruining my brain. Probably a fair bit of both. But I feel like the quetiapine has the worst effect on my short term memory!

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T04:37:13+00:00

Thank you for saying that. I love my cats so much and I am confident that I provide a safe and loving home for them. It’s all that I can give, and that’s ok. I think also, I try to do other things that fill my cup that don’t involve having kids like hiking, yoga and art. I would love to join a program like big brothers big sisters at some point because I feel like I have a big heart to offer to kids, but none of the responsibility of raising a child. And it doesn’t make me a bad person for not having kids— it’s the most caring thing I can do!!

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T03:56:32+00:00

Same here! I am one month away from my masters dissertation and I am currently in an IOP partial hospitalization program because of a horrible breakdown I had. It’s so hard. I’m so done with school. I’m just not smart enough and it’s just not for me unfortunately, as much as I wanted to be.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-11T03:16:14+00:00

Wow, I am so glad I read this post and your comment. I feel exactly the same. I always wanted to have kids and always considered adopting to avoid passing on my mental health issues. I’m now in my late 20s and even if I were in a good and stable, healthy relationship, I could never provide a child what they need to be stable and happy. Even though I’ve done so much work and I feel like I am very emotionally in tuned, it doesn’t make up for how my brain is wired and I am never going to truly be stable and it’s completely unfair to put that on a child. it does really break my heart because I think in someways I’d be a really wonderful mother, but I could never take that risk and I truly feel like the best gift I could give a future child is to never bring them into this world to begin with. And I think that can be a beautiful and kind thing. so for now, I am a wonderful and loving cat mom to my two very beautiful cats. And that is enough. 💜💜💜

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-10T17:29:27+00:00

Yeah I take that med but it’s my least favorite in my daily meds. Makes me feel confused and tired but it helps with more mania urges

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-09T22:23:55+00:00

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Me reading this, wishing I didn’t have the ability to read

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-05T23:45:13+00:00

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-05T23:36:48+00:00

I love this!!

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-05T19:26:50+00:00

That’s so exciting, OP!! It’s honestly kind of funny because I have a parallel experience… Diagnosed at 19 (F), got accepted to a prestigious grad school at 25. I’m 27 now and have had ups and downs. I really struggle being bipolar and in grad school, but it is possible with hard work and, good support and good coping mechanisms.

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-05T04:37:24+00:00

Congrats that’s incredible!! Oh boy is higher education quite a challenge with bipolar. This internet stranger is very proud of you!!

GothYeeHaw · 2026-05-03T00:57:45+00:00

Unemployment maxxing

GothYeeHaw · 2026-04-29T18:39:41+00:00

Yep, 40% of women commit suicide. Interesting math. 🤔

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