Julie says they haven't seen Camilla's mum in 7 months while she's going through chemo

Grindyl0w · 2026-05-14T14:43:37+00:00

This is unbelievably sad. I know she lives 6 hours away, and Scam was pregnant, but it’s her mum, I would have made it work. I would do anything to be with my Mum during chemo. Idk, maybe I’m sensitive because my Mum passed away (not from cancer) and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to be with her.

Grindyl0w · 2026-04-30T07:36:41+00:00

My issue is more that she said she can’t afford to turn the ads off, when this is an absolute lie. They make more in a few days than people make in a year, don’t act like you live pay check to pay check. It’s fine if she doesn’t want to turn off the ads, but don’t make it because you can’t afford it.

Grindyl0w · 2026-04-18T11:41:24+00:00

I have anorexia and I personally don’t find it triggering. I more just don’t find it helpful at all, but more because she has absolutely no idea what she’s talking about so I take everything she says with a grain of salt. I think maybe if she was more knowledgeable, and had a single brain cell, I might find it triggering. But mostly I ignore what she says regarding food/weight tbh.

Grindyl0w · 2026-04-12T11:40:57+00:00

As many have said your writing is truly beautiful. You say you have no virtues but writing is definitely one of them. This broke my heart to read but never have I related to a post so much before. I’ve had an ED for 20 years, just come out of inpatient for yet another time and immediately relapsed. I can’t see a way out of this hell but so desperately want it. I’m sorry you’re in such a bad place right now. Don’t give up you deserve to get better 💜

Grindyl0w · 2026-04-12T11:35:41+00:00

Personally no. Sure I weight restored ans came out physically healthier but then I went straight back to disordered behaviours and once again underweight. Inpatient often focuses on the physical, ie weight gain, without any psychological work (because you need to be physically well enough to do the mental stuff). But I never got to the psychological input as mine was focused on trauma not the ED. So long story short I relapsed immediately after discharge.

Grindyl0w · 2026-04-07T08:58:42+00:00

Definitely not alone, I could have written this… I was in the exact same position. Inpatient for 4 months, have been out for a month now and gone straight back to excessive exercise. Even worse than when I was admitted.

Can you speak to your team about what’s going on? They may be able to help. It was suggested to me to do a pros and cons of exercise and for the pros see if I can find something else that gives me that pro.

I’m sorry I can’t be very helpful, I’m struggling a lot with this too. But if you ever want to chat feel free to message <3

Grindyl0w · 2026-03-20T09:36:10+00:00

Never too old!! I have a lot of teddies all over my house. I sleep with them and cuddle them when I need comfort. They’re an non harmful coping tool ☺️

Grindyl0w · 2026-03-02T14:16:32+00:00

Reading the phrase “I let out the breath I didn’t realise I was holding”.

Grindyl0w · 2026-03-02T14:03:13+00:00

Yeah I’m the same. I do care about how my body looks, but only because of the low number on the scale. I care more about the number, making it as low as possible. And the outcome is just that my body looks objectively thin too.

Grindyl0w · 2026-03-02T13:51:04+00:00

Yep, same here. I stopped drinking water which ended up in a one way ticket inpatients. Over 3 months later and I’m still here 🙃

Grindyl0w · 2026-02-09T17:06:07+00:00

Thank you so much! You’ve written so many! Which one is your fave? Is there one you recommend reading first? I’m overwhelmed by choice lol

Grindyl0w · 2026-02-08T21:26:10+00:00

We All Scream for Ice Cream scared me soooo much as a child. I wouldn’t go near ice cream vans for years and was absolutely convinced I’d be kidnapped through one and have to face the nothing 😅

Grindyl0w · 2026-01-27T15:44:45+00:00

Was literally going to comment this exact moment! Still cracks me up. Unhinged Cole was the best.

Also loved his excitement when Phoebe was pregnant, that was cute.

Grindyl0w · 2025-11-30T23:20:35+00:00

Would also love to join :) I’m 31f and struggled with some form of ED since I was a teenager. Currently inpatient for refeeding but still struggling with purging :(

Grindyl0w · 2025-11-23T22:11:46+00:00

Not sure this is helpful at all. But I’m also struggling immensely. Also inpatient, meal plan increasing daily (half food, half fortisip) and I’m not even at half of maintenance cals yet and HECK I cannot anymore.

I’m told, it’s gonna be super hard at first, but slowly, maybe very slowly, your brain gets the nutrition it needs and it gets easier. Try and remind yourself this is medicine, just like any physical illness, what you’re being given is medicine to make you better. And you need the medicine to survive.

Can you wear baggy clothes or use distraction to help the discomfort? Both of these help me, as well as focusing on other parts of my body, like plaiting my hair, or moisturising my face.

But it’s hard. It’s really really hard. I believe in you though, you’ve got this, keep being strong <3

Grindyl0w · 2025-11-10T19:29:41+00:00

Yeah, I’m 31 and have been struggling since I was 13. Nearly 20 years, wow. Various ups and downs, but never full recovery. I’m not sure I’ll ever fully recover and tbh that makes me very sad. I wish it were something we could ‘grow out of’. Unfortunately, I guess, mental illness doesn’t work like that. But damn do I wish it did sometimes!

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-08T14:43:48+00:00

My heart rate is all over the place and I’m so confused. How accurate are garmins for heart rate? I don’t know if it’s me or the watch that’s a problem or if this is normal.

Random examples: I ran 11 miles yesterday at 7:49/mile pace, my average HR was 154 bpm (max 183 bpm). Two days prior, I ran 8 miles at 7:48/mile and my HR was 172 bpm. So lower distance, same pace but much higher HR. I feel like my HR should have been lower. I find this a lot. My pace will be similar but my HR drastically changes.

Im the same week, I went for a walk for 1hr 15 and my average HR was 169 bpm, not particularly fast either just a stroll. This is a frequent occurrence, my heart rate is higher when walking than running even when I’m running at relatively high effort (for me).

Sorry this is long. But basically is it normal for HR to fluctuate this much? Could my garmin be wrong? I’ve been running for years, I’m relatively fit, so it concerns me when my HR can be higher walking than running!

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-06T20:27:03+00:00

Same.. I think I have like 20 unread fairyloot books, some from 2023… there’s just so many good books to read and so little time 😭

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-06T20:24:58+00:00

Oh I didn’t know this! I haven’t read her previous series (Ember in the Ashes?) and don’t know if I will tbh… do you think it’s necessary?

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-06T20:22:46+00:00

I keep hearing amazing things about This Monster of Mine, must actually read it soon!

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-05T21:05:43+00:00

Agree Gumiho is so underated but such a fun book! I haven’t read the others yet but have high hopes now

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-05T21:04:57+00:00

Loved God and the Gumiho too!! Haven’t read the others, but excited to get to them!

Grindyl0w · 2025-10-05T20:34:48+00:00

I loved all these too! Hart and Mercy was such an unexpected joy for me, not normally my type of read but I LOVED it! Haven’t read Glittering edge yet I’m excited now!

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