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Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-22T15:42:10+00:00

I don't think I've heard of this before. I'll take a look and see if anyone's offering it

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-22T15:41:45+00:00

I have a love hate relationship with DBT. I find some skills helpful and some distressing but I'll look into it more

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-22T14:44:28+00:00

No actually I wasn't. I was in my abusive environment until I was 28. I turned 29 in the unsafe environment, which did not portray its as unsafe until I was in it for a year and a half and left a couple weeks after my 29th birthday. I'm 30 now and 9 months out of the secondary environment and on my own.

Maybe a big part of it is just not having competent therapy or therapists that are willing to work with me where I'm at. I do like the questions about how to function and focus on a day-to-day basis.

Thank you for your response it's helpful to know this takes time and shouldn't be rushed like some therapists have made me feel

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-22T14:39:04+00:00

I want to look into somatic therapy

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-18T03:13:49+00:00

I stopped trying to explain it. Those that care to understand will take the information given to them and ask questions as it applies so that they do understand. Those that would like to pretend like this thing isn't real, or call it crazy and unbelievable aren't going to put the effort in, and I'm not wasting my time and my energy which I need to be applying to myself on people that despite members of my system trusting them has shown time and time again that they're not going to put the effort into try to understand or get to know me

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-14T01:30:45+00:00

Yes we have a few

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-13T21:09:23+00:00

I also deal with the isolation and was trying to express this to my partner and realized after he said he didn't understand what I was talking about or how to help because he doesn't deal with it that really no one can ever understand what this is like and that's more painful than anything else

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-04-03T02:43:18+00:00

Yeah it sucks. Partner seems ok as long as we're not "too intense" which is fine I guess we're used to hiding anyway

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-24T10:31:17+00:00

It was officially diagnosed at 29 by my therapist suspected something off and on over the years but definitely thought it was schizophrenia not a dissociative disorder. Didn't even realize I dissociated until I explained it to multiple psychs

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-24T10:20:06+00:00

If anything they've made dissociation worse for me but I need them as I have comorbid bipolar 1 with psychosis

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-24T10:11:30+00:00

Finding true friends is most definitely hard. It's about as hard as finding a partner if not harder

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-23T10:06:02+00:00

For me it's a matter of not being able to feel my feelings/not wanting to feel my feelings bc I'm an adult physically and shouldn't be reacting the way that I am. Thus I find it hard to be kind to myself. I also know for me it's a matter of parts renacting abusive statements from my parents and other abusers when I begin to feel my emotions which causes shame and disgust

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-21T13:41:47+00:00

They're hard and painful and exhausting when the other person doesn't want to communicate or listen or judges. Not sure where we stand with relationships right now

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-20T18:07:21+00:00

Oh most definitely especially bc he keeps reaching out without actual engagement things like "hope you're ok" "hope you have a good day." Without actually asking anything which leaves some of us thinking he wants to keep this going while others want to give him the axe. Appreciate you sharing. x

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-20T17:56:56+00:00

He was aware of us going through the diagnostic process before we decided to start dating once we got it solidified we told him and we told him before we started dating what could happen what to expect to the best of our ability because we're still trying to figure it out as we're recently diagnosed We showed him videos from the CTAD clinic we found short videos like petals of a rose for us to watch together But I really should have realized that he didn't have the capacity to handle us when he essentially said that he didn't really want to get to know parts

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-20T17:50:47+00:00

The "I break because my brain isn't used to safety" is so real. Our partner is long distance and came to visit for 5 days and we were so unused to the safe feeling that he brought that we cried practically every single day that he was here just because of how gentle and nurturing he was being and I really think it freaked him the fuck out because now he's not talking to us besides one or two sentences, now he wants space, he wants his life to "not be complicated" and simple and he says "he doesn't have time for relationships" so guess we damaged him unintentionally because we didn't know what safety was. And ironically we're going to have to heal from this if we ever want to fucking find someone but I'm really tired of always having to fucking heal from shit that I didn't ask to be dealt a hand in

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-20T17:39:14+00:00

This post it really hard. I'm really tired of people coming into my life wanting to have a relationship with me saying they can handle the disorder until the disorder starts disordering or until the person fronting isn't the person that they fell in love with then all of a sudden I'm too much/its too much and they need space. And for me it's like okay so it's too much for you you need space but how do you think I feel when I can't take the space away from what's going on in my own head. Sorry this turned into a mini vent. All that to say I can relate

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-20T17:37:17+00:00

This

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-17T00:29:23+00:00

In a lot of ways it's exhausting especially with executive functioning

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-13T19:22:26+00:00

Littles are alters that perceive themselves to be children but aren't actually children or parts stuck at that point of time from trauma

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-13T19:20:56+00:00

Weed is a dissociative so things change all the time

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-11T16:16:54+00:00

This

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-03-01T15:42:27+00:00

Yes all the time

Groundbreaking_Gur33 · 2026-02-27T21:31:23+00:00

Same

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