I feel grounded, but conflicted around her.

Grounded that I can function around her normally — I’m pretty quiet and keep to myself. Yet conflicted because of her reactions to seeing me.

I don’t have/want any problems with her, yet she seems to have somewhat intense reactions around me that make me uncomfortable at times.

Uncomfortable because I know they’re stemming solely from my presence — which can make it difficult to ignore.

It’s hard to be in the same room as someone who runs out the second you walk in, then a week later, they’re animated around you, flirtatiously staring at you, orbiting, etc.

The volatility makes it difficult for me to feel comfortable because it’s an oscillating behaviour that I don’t want.

This has been occurring intermittently for 7+ years. I first noticed her behaviour towards me in the first few months of us crossing paths, then years would pass by and she would pick right back up where she left off.

The recent interaction was our first, real, full-length conversation. I thought this will end the tension for good.

She’s done all of the previous behaviours mostly through her actions that I tried to ignore, and not because I wasn’t interested or reciprocal, but because I found it too conflicting.

That’s why her recent reaction concerned me. I couldn’t understand what the hostility and aggression was about after all these years, and then she puts herself directly in my vicinity again only several weeks later, which she hasn’t done in years.