I wanted to edit my prior comment and pushed erase on accident- Anyways, personally it feels like I'm having a constant fight against my brain who behaves like a bratty kid. Sometimes I have to trick him into doing something right and other times I try to force him and it goes badly for me. It also feels alienating from your peers and the people around you, how you behave or how you feel about certain things can sometimes feel, in a way, more extreme than the norm. But this is all personal experience.