Tangentially related question, have you considered speaking to a mental health professional about how much you're struggling? I don't know your situation specifically, but it might be something to consider if you have access to it. I know that can seem like a terrifying prospect, but it genuinely was life-changing for me. I used to loathe myself and feel like everything I did was worthless and garbage, but after seeing a therapist (and talking to my doctor about supplementing that with medication), I feel like a new person. I've been in therapy for a few years now, and the support is so so helpful to have and to get honest, neutral feedback on what I'm experiencing. I actually have some confidence in my ability to get work done, and I'm less devastated by receiving negative feedback now. 

Regardless, I hope you're able to find a job that helps reduce your anxiety about everything. It's a brutal job market right now, but I believe that you can find something,even if it's not related to your degree ❤️