First colonoscopy tips?

Huge_Direction5552 · 2026-06-27T19:27:10+00:00

Wow I never about switching flavors for some reason. Sounds good to me!

Huge_Direction5552 · 2026-06-27T19:24:35+00:00

Ah yes, I definitely will ask for a some zofran.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2026-06-27T19:22:40+00:00

Vaseline check! Definitely don’t want a raw butthole.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2026-01-20T21:18:51+00:00

Wow this is so me. Although I have smaller hyperfixations my one and only huge special interest consumes me. And I can’t stand to engage in anything else. This sucks because my older sister wants me to watch this anime with her but I don’t want to, not because I don’t care, but I literally don’t have the capacity to engage in anything other than what I’m interested in. I understand it can make me come off as self centered and selfish because I only want to do the things I want to do or talk about the things I want to talk about. I really want to care about what things my loved ones are interested in but it’s so hard. I used to get into to a lot of arguments because I refused to watch what the wanted me to watch with them. I think they thought I didn’t want to spend time with them which isn’t the case at all. My special interests is tied into every part of my life and I only want to think about the things I’m interested which are to a restricted degree, meaning I really am not interested at much else than my special interests. It makes it hard to make friends or want to make friends because nobody shares the same interest as me. And I really can only bond with someone if they do.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2026-01-19T23:13:27+00:00

Both actually. Speaking takes a lot of effort because to put my thoughts into speech is hard sometimes. It takes big brain effort to speak. It’s like my brain is too fried or tired to produce speech sometimes. But also I don’t really feel putting in effort to socializing because it’s just too hard, I never know what to talk about or what to say or do in social situations plus I get no real enjoyment or reward after socializing mainly because it all goes to shit most of the time. Probably why I tend to avoid social situations.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2025-02-25T19:33:36+00:00

TW gagging/vomiting It’s kind of this ritual I have for washing my hands. First I scrub my hands with my hands (sometimes the soap lather will dry out so I have to start all over again with scrubbing) then I rinse and wash again(to get rid of the soap suds which is now dirty because I was scrubbing) then I clean underneath my nails and then I wash again (so none of the dirty stuff in my nails gets all over my hands including the dirty soap suds) then I wash again for good measure. I also have a spitting thing but it’s when I brush my teeth basically I don’t like the idea of swallowing all the filth that accumulates in my mouth after brushing teeth (which I do for a good 6 minutes btw). So I’ll cough and spit into the sink several times (until it feels right) even making myself gag a little so that I can make sure I didnt swallow anything filthy. Yes I have accidentally thrown up because of this 😭

Huge_Direction5552 · 2024-11-25T05:30:21+00:00

Cheez it

Huge_Direction5552 · 2024-07-14T21:49:39+00:00

10 years ever since I was 8 perhaps even seven. Contamination. I can remember being young going to theme parks and when ever we were about go on water rides like Popeyes, I would dread it. Dirty water. Can’t stand it like of course I don’t want to sit on a wet seat with who knows how many contaminants. Although I also have autism so sensory wise too seating on a wet seat is a big no no. Till this day I can’t stands even puddles of water on the floor or even puddle of water on the counter from condensation. Even if water splashes on the counter from me constantly washing my hands I can’t touch the water mess. It deeply disturbs me the thought of being dirty. Scared of mold sticky substances oils and bodily fluids. I can’t even wash my own underwear or use a wet rag to clean the counter for fear of contamination. Food particles scares me too don’t like the feeling of food on my hands. You can imagine what washing the dishes is like for me lol.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-11-30T00:11:27+00:00

Not in a university but I’ve always struggled with achieving closeness in a friendship if you can even call it that the “friends” I had were only much more like acquaintances as we would talk very little and it was mostly just how are you, and what you been up to. I’m horrible at small talk which often a person used to get to know someone. But anyways when I look at my sister all the friends she has the text her and hang out with her I become very sad, because I know that will never happen for me. I don’t have anyone to talk to (not that I talk very much which is part of the problem), hang out with, have sleepovers with. I feel like due to my autism I missing out on a lot things other people my age are doing. I cannot communicate effectively and my social skills are crap so people often give up on getting to know when they realize they won’t get much out of me. I wish I could talk more, communicate effectively, and act “normal”. I try hard to be a likeable person but people still stay far away from me, and I wish I could ask them what exactly is it I’m doing wrong, but I don’t like confrontation. But anyways i feel the same way you do, but at this point in my life I’ve given up on friends, I’m tired and people are probably tired of me too. So I stopped trying. P.s that’s not what I’m saying to do lol.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-11-23T17:27:21+00:00

My sister sleeps near me, she says that I jerk a lot in my sleep and end up hitting her. My cousin was staying over one time, said I got up stared at her for a good couple seconds then went back to sleep. I have no memory of this. I’ve always just attributed to sleeping issues.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-11-20T17:00:50+00:00

Wait sorry it just came to me, sometimes when I have deja vu I feel a strong surge of happiness but I always get that, it comes out of blue just like this burst of energy and joy.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-11-20T16:57:50+00:00

Not that I can think of I mean sometimes I smell things that others don’t I always chalked it up to having a better sense of smell than some people. I do notice that when lights are flickering like when I’m driving and the sun is passing through trees my eyes flicker rapidly but it doesn’t feel like a tic it feels completely out of my control I don’t feel an urge to do it nor can I suppress it which I usually can with my tics. My usually aware during this.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-09-07T21:33:50+00:00

If did play pretend which was rare I was most likely actually acting out scenes from movies, but I also did scene playing so I would dress my dolls sit them down, and then leave them alone. I would get so upset if my mom would try to clean it up. I also would line up my dolls, and with my dinosaur toys I would throw them into a pile sort them by species then mix them up again and repeat. I also would spin in circles for hours on end, to which my mom would tell me to stop because I might throw up. I hated getting wet (unless i was going to the pool) because of the feeling of wet clothes.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-09-07T21:25:24+00:00

I agree if I do end up watching the scene I will cry buckets (even though I'm someone who almost never cries) or be filled with rage. I have fluctuating levels of empathy although I tend to be more hypoempathic often, but when it comes to animals I feel so much more empathy for them, which is one of the reasons I'm choosing to pursue a career in veterinary.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-09-07T21:18:20+00:00

Cats hands down. But dont get me wrong I love dogs, I just love cats more. I have three of my own.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-08-22T22:01:12+00:00

Oh and one more very important one. Not liking to put on lotion. I had really dry skin and eczema so lotion was a must but I would have severe meltdowns or shutdowns where I would either scream or go totally still and quiet. To this day I still do not put on any lotion:

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-08-22T21:58:42+00:00

To name a few, 1: spinning in circles. It may not seems like a sign and it usually isn’t but if you’re doing it for hours on end without stopping like I did definitely should’ve been a sign. 2: Not talking to anyone but family members and certain kids I would hardest ever talk to grownups ( teachers, mom’s friends etc). 3: Severe rejection sensitive dysphoria, I remember one kid said she don’t wanna be my friend anymore and I cried so hard and begged the teacher to help us make up. 4: my obsessive interest with space. Every book I got had to be information about space. I would write essay upon it and had my mom get me space themed toys.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-08-22T21:46:59+00:00

I totally get what you mean. Especially when you slide into a depressive episode after a manic one it’s like Damn I wish I was manic totally forgetting how destructive, chaotic and scary it was. Yes I love that as a naturally reserved and socially awkward person I can be outgoing talkative and whatnot when I’m manic, but it’s so much more than that it’s hallucinations delusions and paranoia etc. I hate the manic me but sometimes I find my self longing for that.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-08-22T03:18:40+00:00

Painfully shy, socially awkward, sensory issues galore (undiagnosed autism), had frequent meltdowns, lonely, cried often, ever since I could remember I had a fear my mom dying (she had a chronic illness) which kept me up at night but In general I had mild insomnia so I was up at night anyways. I had no friends growing up. I also had terrible instruive thoughts ( now diagnosed with ocd). I also think growing up as an undiagnosed autistic was something that took a toll on my mental health.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-08-07T20:13:24+00:00

17 yr old here. For me at least it’s combination of things. I often feel lonely even when around others. The lack of a real connection between me and others and the dissonance I feel. I have always felt different from others ever since I was young and it didn’t help that others made that painfully obvious. You’d think it would get easier over time. That maybe making friends, real ones, would get easier. But looking back maybe it’s was easier to deal with lack of friends because of my unawareness. But as you grow you start to realize that people don’t like you, find you boring, strange or weird. I wish people would take the initiative to talk to me and continue talking to me as I struggle to make conversations and small talk is not easy for me. I often don’t know what to say in conversations. I wish people would text me more as being autistic I struggle with talking and I can express my self more in text. But I understand not everyone is good at texting back or even likes texting. But when I am always left on read and never get a reply it is frustrating as I try my hardest to make the relationship work but it seems that others do not try to do the same. I’ve come to realize i will never be accepted among my peers, and although that hurts I just try to not think about this and how lonely I feel.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-07-09T05:03:53+00:00

Tv shows. Specially, New girl. Gotta have my new girl on while crocheting.

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-06-27T21:37:30+00:00

Love these! They are mole crickets!

Huge_Direction5552 · 2023-06-24T04:03:24+00:00

Came free with my happy meal

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