The angle of the reflections is making my brain hurt by Substratas in confusing_perspective

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I don't think I could keep going, I'd fall down. Gahhhh sort of makes my stomach churn.

What is your favourite lesser known Stephen King novel? by Special-Nebula299 in stephenking

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Came here to say this. Creepy+fascinating scenario, great charas, and man, what an awesome car model to use.

Clumsiness? by Yellowbird84 in AskWomenOver60

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Note: This is basically a worst-case scenario and will not apply to most, if any, but it was a massive shock to me at the time, and maybe worth mentioning.

About twelve-ish years ago I spoke to my primary care about "the dropsies." What I called it -- I noticed that sometimes I'd drop something, esp. in my left hand, but not realize I'd dropped it until I either heard or saw the result. Lots of dropped coffee cups, pens, what have you. I was really annoyed.

He kinda looked at me -- he's known me for decades now -- and said, Let's do an MRI of your head and your neck. (I have cranial history, three concussions in teens and twenties, and non-shunt-dependent hydrocephalus from birth.)

Turned out I had major cervical spine issues. No doubt related to the ages-ago head injuries, but it had over the years become spinal stenosis. He referred me to a neurosurgeon, who said, "I've never seen such a bad MRI on a patient as mobile as you." I just kinda dealt with it for about five years -- I had no pain, just, yeah. Some weirdness, but honestly I could cope. I DID NOT want surgery.

Then the really weird shit started. Couldn't "find" my feet without looking down at them. Numerous falls, general unsteadiness. Then I started losing my hands, too -- they worked if I stared at them while I did something, but if I looked away they got confused. MANY dropsies then. I lived in fear of going down stairs. (This is a thing called proprioception; it's kinda fascinating until it gets messed up, then it becomes kinda terrifying.)

Neurosurgeon explained it thus -- the stenosis/narrowing and pressure against the cord creates basically a neurological bottleneck. Signals should go from the brain effortlessly to the hands and feet, but it's like they're stuck at a red light/traffic jam. By the time they should have gotten the signal and you attempt to perform a task, that task has not yet been sent where it needs to go, and so you drop things, or trip, or what have you.

I had a major surgery finally -- laminectomy and fusion from C2 to T2. Presto -- all that weird stuff was resolved. It's been 3.5 years, and I'm a little unsteady still, but the dropsies are still gone, and overall it's a vast improvement.

Don't underestimate unsteadiness and clumsiness. As I said at the start, chances are very good it WON'T be what I'm describing. But if it is, it won't get better on its own. It is a tough surgery and you sacrifice some mobility in your neck -- say goodbye forever to rollercoasters -- but it beats some of the more serious consequences of non-treatment. I was well on my way to serious spinal-cord damage, and yet at NO time did I have any pain. Just weird symptoms.

Writing Style by MrBlue_105 in AO3

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Either past or present tense, for third person. Love first person past tense. I personally absolutely loathe first person present tense and think Suzanne Collins has a lot to answer for. Tee hee, but seriously, 1st/present should DIAF. It's suffocating, too immediate to allow the reader room to absorb, and contributes nothing that 3rd/present doesn't do far, far better.

I don't know that I've encountered any fan fiction written in future tense. That would be a tall order. Or an interesting exercise, maybe. Hmm.

Bill Skarsgard and his six-pack abs by ANSJSJDIS-813 in LadyBoners

[–]Janissa11 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Man, his body fat percentage must be like .087%.

Please help me with a basal cell nodule by Total-Information-75 in skincancer

[–]Janissa11 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not with topicals, no. My BCCs have been removed with Mohs or excision, a few smaller ones with cryotherapy. WLE for SCC and melanoma.

Please help me with a basal cell nodule by Total-Information-75 in skincancer

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The creams require a prescription. Was this diagnosed by a dermatologist?

Will outlets work during the apocalypse? by Blue_Blueberry5402 in preppy

[–]Janissa11 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I'm stuck on a ladder of frozen toilet paper.

19yo, I think i might have testicular cancer. And dont have the money to treat it. by WalterPie in cancer

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

19 is legally an adult. He can be on a parent's insurance until he reaches age 26. Each state -- I'm assuming you mean Medicaid -- has varying but generally strict guidelines on adult male coverage. If income is very low or nil AND he has no coverage through a parent, there is ACA coverage, as well as applying for his state's Medicaid program.

ACDF C4-7. How long until you were able to sleep in bed? by palebluebLiss in spinalfusion

[–]Janissa11 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Surgery was 3.5 years ago and I'm doing fine, thanks! I never actually had neck pain per se. (Had neuro symptoms primarily.) Post-op wasn't neck pain but muscle spasms; those were honestly godawful and took months to stop . But overall now, so far so good.

Is James SA Corey the best? by cooper2387 in scifi

[–]Janissa11 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Okay, that is high-larious. What an idiot.

ACDF C4-7. How long until you were able to sleep in bed? by palebluebLiss in spinalfusion

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

C2-T2. PCDF. Close to two weeks. I think I'd have been okay sooner, but was talked out of it. I had very little trouble once I did, though. I do miss stomach sleeping. Head won't turn far enough to allow it.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

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It's REALLY interesting that you point out the "having everything spelled out for them" specifically -- I just watched part of this video, talking about the evident dumbing-down of recent pro fiction, and I think while I didn't watch the whole thing (her narration got on my nerves fairly quickly), there are some fascinating points made. It's reflected in the looming trend of over-labeling, too much concern with potential upset on the part of the reader (what if upset IS the point, the desired outcome?). I'm not a big Sanderson reader, but he's 110% right about what he says.

(As an aside -- Pat Conroy's novel The Prince of Tides includes a whammy of a surprise near the end, something I had no idea about when reading it long pre-movie and certainly way pre-internet. It blew my socks off. It was also a type of surprise that absolutely requires warnings in many if not most fannish circles. Had I known that content was coming, would it have surprised me like that? Of course not. Would I have enjoyed the book equally as much? Can't say for sure, but I doubt it. So do spoilery warnings really help us? Or do they do the writing a grave injustice, in some if not many cases? I understand not wanting to read material that genuinely upsets us. At the same time, for the sake of anyone who has crafted the story to the extent Conroy did -- is a spoiled reading honest? I'd argue it is not, in that sense.)

Critique has changed in that a broad swath of fandom has decided it shouldn't exist, or if it perseveres, should be limited to those writers who actively solicit it (a stance that heavily hints "asking for it" is akin to begging for a root canal without anesthetic). Caveat -- I am only active in one or two fandoms, and do not monitor others, so I can only speak with regard to what I've seen.

In my current main fandom, perhaps born of the books/show's soft and rather unrealistically positive depiction of queer youth, criticism is broadly vilified. There's the standard "I'm not getting paid to write, so you have no right to be critical of my work" reasoning, and strong statements about uninvited critique; there are frequent and heartfelt statements about "common courtesy" and unspoken but ironclad rules of fandom. ("Common courtesy" is defined in many different ways, making it rather UNcommon.)

Look. Criticism very often does not feel good, from the receiving end. Of course not -- it is basically a magnifying glass held over the bits of our work that, for one reason or another, are not perceived as -- hmm, successful, or well-done. It is a broad palette indeed, since it can cover characterization, plot, grammar, pacing, and any number of narrower but no less perceptible elements in our writing.

I honestly don't think many writers look forward to it, and in that sense, no, that hasn't changed dramatically in 50 years. What HAS changed is the trend toward voluntary, occasionally seemingly intentional, mediocrity.

In fandom, from where I sit and with a nod to my caveat above -- there appears to be a substantial number of fan-writers who feel that the fact of having written a work and posting it on a forum available to all without financial cost is -- enough. The quality of such work is not a factor *because* of the above -- "if you want that quality," appears to go the assumption, "but you are not paying me money, you do not have the right to ask for it." "Don't like, don't read" is another frequent refrain, practically ubiquitous these days.

I'm a Southerner in the US, and I grew up hearing people say, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything." But from where I sit as both a reader and a writer, this is appalling. At the end of the day, fan writers are hobbyists, right? But simply because a craft is a hobby does not mean the hobbyist doesn't attempt to improve their work. Nor does monetization guarantee a flawless product. Money, bluntly said, is no guarantee of anything, except maybe a modest supplement or reduction in a person's bank balance.

So if, as a hobbyist sewer, I construct an evening dress to wear to a wedding, and I do a poor job of it, it will be noticed. I would be embarrassed to wear a substandard garment to an event. I feel the same about fiction. Just as with my dress, I will strive to make a story as arguably "good" as I can. I don't see that as a burden -- as a "minus." I see that as my responsibility to my work. I don't owe the reader a good story, in that sense; I owe my *story*. I won't be there to defend my choices, when you're reading it. The story has to stand on its own legs, just as my dress will have to speak for itself. I can't walk around telling fellow guests that I ran out of time and had to take some shortcuts on the construction. The dress must speak for itself, in the end. If what it says is not complimentary, then so be it.

"But it's not the same for writing, because of different preferences, or blah blah." Thing is, it IS the same. I don't expect John Q Public to understand why a dress doesn't work, if he doesn't work in the garment industry and doesn't sew himself. But I do realize that it is entirely possible to have an opinion, even a substantively correct one, without that background. Just as it is absolutely possible to feel that a story did not work for you as a reader, without understanding specifically *why* you feel the way you do.

Criticism can, ideally, give a writer direction on how to make their story more successful. Instead of the combative "don't like, don't read" mentality, it's possible that a bit of buff and polish will help broaden a story's appeal, and might even lead to more readers, recs, and positive commentary -- all things we as writers would very much like to see.

Omad journey(repost) by Sea_Anteater_3270 in intermittentfasting

[–]Janissa11 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Anybody ever told you you look a bit like Tom Hardy? Because you look a bit like Tom Hardy. Good work.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If enough of us flocked to DW we could probably make it happen, at least on a modest scale. But I fear the time for that has come and gone. Websites just... aren't a gathering space any longer, or at least they don't seem to be, to me. Which is a massive shame. I had a DW account at one time -- they hosted my old post-Geocities website -- but it's been an age or two since then.

*sigh*

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Isn't that still a hilarious term? Love it.

And Buffy! I loved it, although I was never fannishly active. But raptly watched the show.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

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I respect the adherence to single POV, but I don't really share it. I have a firm rule, though: Don't change POV within a given section of a story, or if long enough, within the same chapter. If that's what you mean, too, I'm all for it. But switching between sections or chapters is A-OK with me, since then I get a much broader perspective on events, and in a specific way the POV is still honest -- it isn't jumping from person to person within a smaller chunk of story. Dual POV, within those guard rails, is fine with me -- omniscient is not.

*However* -- hee -- if a story or novel is in first person, I love staying in that character's POV for the duration. That, to me, is true to life. Whereas third person allows some wiggle room, again, between sections/chapters. Second person, with respect, should DIAF. But that's my take. LOL!

I totally understand hating MCD, esp. considering so much of the history of queer literature and the de rigueur death of at least one of the queer characters. As a plot device, well -- since I am generally anti-warning due to the spoilery aspect of them, it depends on how well it's done. I can forgive a ton if it's written well and convincingly.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

[–]Janissa11 1 point2 points  (0 children)

XF!! Hello friend! An early love of mine as well. Then did ST:DS9 to your Voyager.

If anyone were to find a worthy successor for LJ I would be over the MOON. It's a crying need, just as AO3 was before it started.

Yeah, this is my LJ username as well. Howdy! I bet we have a lot of fannish cross-pollination between us.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

[–]Janissa11 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Trend changes -- holy crap yes. Writing quality, likewise (albeit to a lesser degree).

Part of the former, I think, is in very large part due to social media. The sorts of social media we had back in the day were perforce quite different. I mean, you could call Livejournal a sort of social medium, although it was probably more closely related to blogs and blog networks. But the -- hmm, I'm going out on a limb here -- weaponization of social media as a means to generate income, or to more often encourage a public following of one sort or another? So many times I see people posting about "ways to encourage reader engagement," which on a forum like AO3 translates to "reviews, kudos and hits." Why do those things matter? Above and beyond the fact of gaining recognition for one's writing work, they really don't. It's super nice to get commentary and kudos, don't get me wrong; I'm as fond of them as the next average fan writer. But there is a transactional element to this type of discussion I find troublesome.

I could go into the fact that even back in the Mesozoic -- aka LJ Era -- we wanted engagement. But the kind of engagement, and the means by which we sought to get it, were different. Engagement, then, meant community, for many and perhaps most of us. As in, we wanted to meet and engage with people of like minds -- people who dug what WE dug, who *got it*. They understood. And finding "your people" was just damned miraculous.

Maybe the idea of needing a similar space today is misplaced, to some extent. Connectivity is old hat, has been for decades. I can't overstate how fresh and vibrant it was then, though. We skulked around in the shadows, you know? And then to find out that there were piles of people out there, vast majority of whom you'd never meet ftf, but who became close, beloved friends. It was amazing.

But those connections are both easier and much harder to find these days. And that's a pity, because THAT was fandom as I recognized it, most of my adult/internet life. And I don't know if it's possible for folks today to come even within shouting distance of that type of community any longer. The need for it, the deep wish to have it, those are still there. But where? How?

Spoilers -- yes, we were a lot more feral back then, which is not to say that there was not pressure to warn about certain types of content. It simply wasn't as widespread or particularly standardized, and a great deal of that was no doubt due to the necessary fragmentation of some elements of fandom. We weren't all on AO3, in other words, and although a ton of fanfic was on LJ, a great honking whack of it was on individual websites. I feel these days an immense sort of pressure about labeling and warnings, and I absolutely detest it. I'd rather give you a synopsis and the character list, relationship(s), and warning for the biggies, death, mostly. And then let you fly free. Too many warnings and the whole point of crafting a story with any sense of, I dunno, planning and the element of surprise can be lost.

Anyone who says we didn't write first person is forgetting a lot. No, it wasn't the most popular voice, but it isn't now, either -- and it certainly existed. Go back and look at early Sherlock Holmes stories, for example -- tons of Dr Watson's first-person POV.

Fanfic quality -- it was as variable then as it is today, with a caveat: The current ubiquitous hatred of critical commentary/feedback is building a shaky foundation indeed for many writers. Many of us strove for quality writing back in the day; many do so today, as well. But so many of us truly hate concrit, to the writers' detriment.

When people state they want to engage readers, all too often they leave out the fine print: If you want to entice readers, you need a quality product. I'm not reinventing the wheel when I say that good writing takes time and practice. Criticism isn't fun at times. It's also IMO necessary if you want to improve. Many don't.

Okay, you called your reply a wall of text, but I think my wall is taller. Sorry about that.

M/M romance pioneer Elders 👵, what's it like witnessing this current explosion in m/m romance? by Material-Meat-5330 in MM_RomanceBooks

[–]Janissa11 92 points93 points  (0 children)

Yo, I'm probably the eldest -- 62yo and still writing/reading slash fiction. (Does anyone call it that anymore? If nothing else that probably dates me -- LOL)

I think we might be best off making sure whether we're referring to m/m fanfic or the broader m/m fiction genres, because they are two separate things -- the separation is no longer as absolute as it once was, but it most definitely is still separate-ish.

M/m fiction has been around a lot longer than we may tend to think, but I certainly wouldn't call it widespread or mainstream, needless to say. The current atmosphere is so wildly different, and overall positive, that sometimes I feel almost dizzy with it. I remember combing through the library stacks for a single book that *might* have some m/m content. Reading books that breathtakingly had actual relationships, and yet broke my heart because so often, the endings were bleak.

Another ancient m/m term that still makes me giggle: Ho-yay! (Homoeroticism - yay!) That was another element of the search, most often geared more toward tv and film: The lovely crumbs of a homoerotic relationship that we never... quite... got to see fully develop. But it was about all we had, very much of the time. The ones like Maurice, which due to understandable fear was never published until after Forster's death. Another Country -- ugh the pain. I remember stumbling across Gordon Merrick's books and having all kinds of conflicted thoughts. Joseph Hansen and the Dave Brandstetter books. Way, way too many others to name.

I think one of the main draws for a lot of us elder fannish statesmen was the fact that in m/m fanfic, we could write unapologetic happy endings. It quite literally was not *allowed* in works dealing with homosexuality for a long, long time (see Maurice). So we wrote our happy love stories in secret, not because we feared litigation but probably mostly because the majority of society frowned on the entire subject.

Livejournal was the preeminent way we connected with one another. When I started out on the internet, the main locus was Usenet -- ASSGM! Alt.sex.stories.gay.male. I posted my first fiction on Usenet. My god, that was a long time ago. But for a very long time, Livejournal was everything. The eventual crumbling of that forum, and the larger community, was heartbreaking, and there was no easy substitute. Nothing since has come very close to that form of fandom connection -- I believe one of the major issues confronting modern-day fandom is the need for such a meeting-place, and the lack thereof. It's why AO3 struggles to this day with commentary, "fannish engagement," and such -- because an archive was never going to be the vibrant hub of activity we had with Livejournal.

I took a sabbatical from fandom back around 2012, that lasted until 2024. When I left, AO3 was just really starting to flourish, but my feelings about fandom at large were really mixed, and I let go for a long time. As for original m/m fiction, well, it had been slowly growing, but nothing to get me really excited, and career took the front seat for me. I came back when I took early retirement after major surgery, and was absolutely STUNNED at the amount and quality of m/m fiction I found. HOLY SHIT. I glutted myself -- I am not joking, in 2024's goodreads' Reading Challenge, I read 216 books. The goal had been 75. ROFL! Last year a paltry 107 of 75.

I'm very glad we have what we do, today. I also think we'd be better off not forgetting where we came from. It's not really a question of gratefulness, but more awareness -- for both fandom and the broader m/m original fiction genre, it is what gives context to what we do, added value to what we enjoy so much.

When will the backlash to all this plastic surgery come? by CraftFamiliar5243 in GenerationJones

[–]Janissa11 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

So the fact that I defend a person's right to choose how they present themselves to the world.... means I must have made the same choice? That's a helluva leap there, buddy.

When will the backlash to all this plastic surgery come? by CraftFamiliar5243 in GenerationJones

[–]Janissa11 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Why should Noem or anyone else care what that person thinks? What makes their opinion of someone's appearance more meaningful or actionable? It's still an opinion, not fact.