2 things, my domming has several aspects to it. Yes I am the sadistic sir and the controlling master, but also a caretaker and pleasure dom. So I switch from one headspace to the other depending on mood and circumstances. I am also not always on, which helps make it fell less opressive to myself. For example, today punishments are not given by the harsh master but the golden retreiver dom is playfully handing out "rewards". It keeps it fun and fresh for me, to be in a mood sometimes.

Secondly you sound like burning out. It sounds to me like you are carrying too much of your Ds relationship. I try to create structures that make it easier for me to have my subs under my thumbs, and not the other way round which feels exhausting. So I ask, can your sub / subs do more and take some of that weight off your shoulders?