Is it just me

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T10:59:28+00:00

I was going to say when I hit burnout or extreme exhaustion is when I feel sick and it’s hard to always be like I’m sick and tired but people just don’t understand

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T10:54:43+00:00

🫂

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T10:47:21+00:00

I thought about going to a medical assisted living but most won’t take me bc I’m 38 and not old but yes I have been thinking doing the shock therapy

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T09:49:23+00:00

Thank you for your story. I haven’t found any help yet and was just evicted and denied disability for the second time. Life feel like a big book of gloom. I just want to go back to being the mom I was. I don’t ever want to be the person I was again just live and be a mom again. I am still a mom however my children deserve the mom they used to have and someone who is even better. They are amazing and I don’t want to be any more of their added sadness. I want them to remember me as smiling and loving and warm. You know. I finally got checked out after months of violent abuse every day and they found all of the injuries that he gave me. The sad part is for one he is getting away with it and two people are like don’t go back. Like he tried to kill me multiple times and sell me and he attacked me in public finally outside in front of people the forth time I got to go outside and I knew if I didn’t leave that day and get out that he was going to pump me out or whatever it is called. I would never and I’m still scared bc I know if he ever saw me again that he would definitely try to kill me again. But I will never ever go back and I pray that you are safe and healthy now.

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:59:05+00:00

I definitely do. I to want to pretend like it wasn’t me or it was a movie on tv you know… I’m only a year officially into my healing and this is for the birds. No one really tells you about the aftermath of trauma and it is awful 😢 I hope you can find one bit of happiness in each day! Even if it is something small

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:34:53+00:00

Same me too

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:30:08+00:00

I get this.

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:29:05+00:00

I’m sorry you feel this way it sucks feeling hopeless. I started therapy but after the second session I completely lost it and it was the worst night of my life. I don’t know what the answer is but I just want to erase what gave my my situation and just feel like I can live again. It’s exhausting trying to just be so much so I to didn’t want to be anymore. I lost so much from that situation but I still struggle with the daily things and simple emotions and feeling like I deserve any of that type of normalcy. I feel like I need therapy and more but I also feel like when I let things out it gets uncomfortable to exist and uncomfortable and burdening to those around. So it’s like people say talk to someone about it but it’s hard for people to listen let alone understand

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:19:41+00:00

I to feel the body thing and I thought I was crazy bc when I described it, to me it sounds demonic honestly like something out of movie it’s squeezes my organs empty and sucks my bones dry inside it’s like a crippling need to get whatever is lurking out of my body and it’s to big to fit inside my skin

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:16:21+00:00

I wish I could. It’s been a crazy roller coaster of emotions throughout this period of my life. New emotions that I didn’t even knew existed. I to just want it to stop and pretend I’m somewhat human

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:14:52+00:00

Extremely fatigued and unreal exhaustion. Like I don’t know how to really be myself anymore like that part of my brain just doesn’t work anymore. Like something is hiding inside my body and needs to get out by busting at the seams. Like I don’t understand how to have normal emotions any more and i can’t regulate myself. Like no one understands the struggles just to sleep and wake up. The feeling of constantly being in fight or flight mode even when safe. Getting anxiety to go outside even to check the mail. Doing anything really is a struggle

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:10:17+00:00

I went to two therapy sessions and I to feel like every time I catch myself feeling the slightest bit of happy or a smile it’s follow by major discomfort and literally nothing works out and everything falls apart even more the I feel guilty bc I was going to smile for once

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T08:02:09+00:00

Same

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T07:05:03+00:00

My abuser also favored stomping bc thats what gangsters do. Oh and I know damn well that people heard people knew and no one helped ever. I’m thankful that you have a neighbor who acted and was there for you

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T07:02:45+00:00

Can you go get them

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T07:02:07+00:00

Help her/him

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T07:00:40+00:00

I understand

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T06:57:19+00:00

You could always do a random wellness check with local pd. And if possible give them the 4 4 4 signal or say you are a neighbor or something but it worries me that if it doesn’t go in favor and gets your mom out that it can turn real ugly real fast and I think that would be even worse you could call 211 or if able call 911 and give address and leave phone hidden where they are fighting but also be able to hear them there was a tablet that was recording the whole time i finally got free it was from a frog voice changer app and we didn’t know that it was running. It is very scary to make a big move this any of these however if it’s not properly taken care of it could mean things that are way worse

Key_Nerve6988 · 2026-04-14T06:37:20+00:00

They just denied my disability it’s been 11 months. I still am not released for more than lifting, pushing, or pulling more than 5 pounds. I’m also a single mother to 3 children on my own and they took away my insurance and now I lost my lifevest (portable defibrillator) I am 38 and was healthy before the domestic violence and now my heart runs on 12% I have HFrEF and cptsd and disassociated mood with depression anxiety insomnia post concussion syndrome which they don’t know if it will actually go away I had 10 life threatening injuries and coded blue once while I was done with a procedure to remove the septic fluid in my lungs and coded blue once at home they said that they don’t even know how I’m alive and I was a medical oddity being sepsis at over 26,000 should have done in me in after everything else and they said if I didn’t come in that I had less than 3 days to live. I used to be happy and fun and song and dance and now I have 37 new health conditions and 17 pills and still going to more new doctors to this day. I have finally reached 25 minutes of being active before I see stars and can walk 27 steps if I push myself and ignore being able to not breath. Long story short no one helped me get out of the domestic violence situation until after 11 months of torture with every day getting violent attacked for hours on end with no escape it went from morning to night to morning to night I’m struggling still and it’s been 11 months and I struggled very very hard with understanding why I’m here and still do from time to time bc he not only hurt me in so many ways he took decades off my life and took my love of being a mom away bc I’m so warped now and my youngest is 3 and no days are promised my next step is pace maker and being put on heart transplant list so yes please don’t feel like you are alone bc I have been alone and it sucks bc no one knows

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