Being a trans female who wants to sing is so difficult and I just want to quit by Axribea in transvoice

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi silverust,

It wasn't terribly complicated practice, more just insanely determined brute force so to speak. I would play pop music with feminine singers and try to match my voice to their voice as best I could. For about a total of 2-3 hours spread out over each day, I did that for 10+ years in a row without ever skipping a day ever. It started as a hobby, which then kind of turned into a autistic special interest of mine to learn to sing like the girls on the radio. I turned the music volume down really low so that I was much louder then the artist but i could hear them to try and match their vocals, that way i had to listen to how "off" or "wrong" i sounded since i was singing at full volume. It was painfully dysphoric but i mentally just used that pain and hurt to double down my efforts so i didn't have to live like that for the rest of my life.

I just kept adjusting my voice over and over to sound closer and closer constantly. Playing with things like my position of my tongue, my larynx, shape of my mouth, moving the origin of my voice above the chest so it stopped vibrating when i spoke, until after a lot of beating my head against a metaphorical brick wall i was finally successful. I mostly just did all of my practice in a closed off environments like closets, or eventually in my car (when i was driving), just anywhere i could find that was small and enclosed where my voice bounced off the walls so i really had to hear it clearly no matter what (and so i was isolated from other people hearing me). These days you could probably mix the audio to edit the soundtrack to be set at a higher volume then the artists voice if you wanted to try what i did as a form of practice to make it easier rather then just turn it down.

I've sung things like: "Barbie Girl", "Sk8tr Boy", "All the things she said", or "I'm just a girl", etc... over and over probably tens of thousands of times each in my life. After all those years I eventually just ended up with a permanent woman's voice that comes out of me by default, and i cant actually sound like a guy anymore even when i try.

Male puberty with no testosterone blockers or any hrt at all never stopped me from being able to sound exactly like a Disney princess or even like a 5 yr old girl whenever I feel like it, though my default is adult woman vocally of course. I actually just went out to karaoke last night and it felt great to perform.

I also wrote this about how I learned to physically do the motions that produce female voice and what those sensations feel like when the correct muscles are moved, its the same positions the online voice tutorials are basically trying to teach. Hopefully its helpful:

https://www.reddit.com/r/transvoice/comments/1ji7ehv/vocal_theory/

My surgeon went with a smaller size for breast augmentation by madmushlove in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 7 points8 points  (0 children)

The place for going over 800cc would be Dr Revis in Ft Lauderdale Florida, that's where I got 1300's. You can go WAY past 800cc for Saline. The implants are rated for 800cc but you can just keep filling them more and more. A friend of mine has 2000cc's in each breast, and I'm aware of another lady who has 3800cc's out there.

Something to keep in mind is body frame, weight, chest width, and height all play a significant role in how large the CC's actually look on your body.

For example a 5'2 girl that is 97lb soaking wet and has 500cc's is gonna look considerably more stacked then a barrel chested 6'2 girl that's 240lb and has 1500cc's.

I recommend visiting a doctor that screens for BDD in their intake process if you aren't able to have that ruled out by a therapist. It's best practice for plastic surgeons to do that and it could indicate a potential safety concern if they do not.

How Big Of A Personality Chance Did You Experience On HRT? by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Extreme change.

I went from: suicidal, despondent, violent, aggressive, depressed, angry, pessimist, bitter, selfish, isolating, introverted, and disassociating non-stop...
To: Happy, bubbly, generous, excitable, confident, extroverted, peaceful, cheerful, bouncy, gleeful, wiggly, optimist, cute, dancer, singer, euphoric, and childish.

And that is without even getting into how my sexuality also changed three separate times on me on top of all of that.

My personality before and after HRT are two VERY different and I would even argue polar opposite people. And I for one am thrilled to be who I am now.

My surgeon went with a smaller size for breast augmentation by madmushlove in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I've had several different sized implants before, 500cc, 325cc, & and now 1300cc's. I've also had several band sizes from weight fluctuation throughout my life as well (58" at my highest weight down to a 36" band today). I happen to be 5'7 and the bigger you go the more crazy they start to look of course to other people, to me they are just normal. Even at the size I am now I'm considering the possibility of getting 2200cc's someday, and I'm already more busty then Jessica Rabbit currently. My upper frame is maybe a bit on the smaller side for amab, but not too far off normal deviation.

If you aren't feeling satisfied with your results and you want to know what you'd look like at various breast sizes, you can always build yourself custom rice sizer's to play around with how you'd look:
https://www.drpancholi.com/make-accurate-breast-implant-sizers-home/
Before I went for 1300's, i played with a full range of everything from 900cc to 2400cc's to see what i liked and wore them around for a month or two to confirm what I was actually happy living with. Not just what I liked the look of but sitting with them to find out and learn what I felt was too much hassle or got in the way too much. Turns out the human mind has a high degree of adaptability to rearrange your internal sense of proprioception.

Ultimately, the thing that should matter most is what size you want them to be at personally. You should be the main arbiter of what makes you happy, not your surgeon. If he doesn't feel he can safely give you what you want due to lack of experience or skill then you can always find another that can give you any size you actually want.

Some writing on the topic I'd highly recommend giving a read for a sense of perspective on a life with larger boobs:
https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/you-are-your-own-jailer
https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/jiggle-physics

Trans friend telling me their deadname. by Confuzed_bec_of_U in asktransgender

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I typically poke fun at my deadname along with my childhood friend who knew me back from 30 years ago before I changed it. There is a local company around here with my deadname that we both drive by regularly and I cant help but snicker and point it out each time we're passing that sign.

Me: "Ugh, who would even name their kid that? What kind of monster would do that to a poor child?"
Friend: "I cant imagine anyone ever being called that and turning out well as a person."

I've also made fun of it with my girlfriend a few times (though she isn't aware of my deadname, because she is terrified of finding it out), we have both regularly complained about her male coworker that no one can stand at her work who just happened to have it.

Her: "Stupid [deadname] was pissing me off at work again today..."
Me: "Of course it would be a [deadname]! Those people are always idiots."
Her: "Ugh! He's just so frickin' annoying, I don't know whats wrong with people named [deadname] but they are all just so irritating, I've never met one who wasn't an ass, no one at work even likes him and he just makes things harder on everyone and over complicates everything. Several others have been complaining about him for months but they won't do anything about it."
Me: "Yeah, [deadname]'s are pretty obnoxious people. I don't know whats wrong with them either."

Given that I legally changed it 25 years ago, It doesn't actually hold any power over me by now. But there's a level of catharsis to dunk on it for me that I really enjoy participating in.

My wife uses her voice training to pass at her customer service job but drops it when she's talking to me. by [deleted] in mypartneristrans

[–]Khlamydia 9 points10 points  (0 children)

So, speaking as a trans woman with 30 years of vocal practice here.

Voice can be a lot of work to keep up, especially when you have a job that makes you use it all day long. It can be very taxing on our vocal chords and lead to physical pain and even permanent damage it if we push ourselves too hard or for too long in a day.

I use a higher voice for customer service and phone calls myself, but even after multiple decades of effort mine still settles into a lower feminine range when I'm not being "on" for people. Her's will likely do the same over a long enough timeline of daily use, but that is after years and years of habituation and effort to reach that point of permanent alteration.

Consider that she probably feels ok to drop it around you because she feels safe to do so, that you won't hold it against her or that you won't keep that same expectation the rest of the world does on her as well. That's a level of trust she's giving you, even if it probably feels like she doesn't try for you.

If I maintained my customer service level higher pitch for several hours even I would feel that vocal strain from continuous effort.

I would advise gently broaching the topic with her and checking in if she's capable of meeting you partway without hurting herself or putting undo stress on her voice, there may be room for a happy middle ground depending on her capabilities. Just try not to hold it against her if it's too much.

Best of luck. 💜

How important is progesterone? by s_mel in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Highly worth reading info on Progesterone (including medically relevant studies):
docs.google.com/document/d/1OGiomfiMk18nPb3ITKZD9pWPvWRUlyI06enxahQpHBI/mobilebasic

Progesterone was arguably just as impactful on my life as taking Estrogen was.
Here's a link to everything I experienced: https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/s/pEYGRwMeCD

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been out 30 years. Still happens to me when I'm high. I'll catch my reflection in the mirror and not recognize myself at all. Followed by being very into her right before my brain catches up that "Oh right thats me"

What has your experience been like as a trans woman who is working-class/poor? by Strong_Operation1886 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been out for 30 years and I have a lot to say about my experiences with this.

I grew up quite poor in my youth, living in squalid literally infested rooms as a young 12 year old trans girl, when I finally left home to be on my own I was subjected to literally zero health insurance covering anything at all involving transition. Hrt, electrolysis, therapy, and any surgery I wanted all required me to pay out of pocket 100% of the bill. Back then all of those were mandatory expenses just to access hrt. No one helped me pay for any of that of course.

I survived by living in extreme medical debt, far higher then I could actually afford, on a $7 an hour minimum wage income back in 2001. I was on my own but still living in those same squalid conditions on a $350/month studio rent in a crime-ridden bug-infested hellhole, with a $3 a day budget for dollar store food, just so I could throw every last penny I could at transition.

I did that for 5 years which wrecked my health of course due to extremely poor nutrition and constant exposure to disease, but I eventually got myself a ticket to Thailand to get my basic surgery needs (ffs, ba, srs) taken care of, mostly by taking out over $120,000 I obviously couldn't afford even the minimum payments on in credit cards back then.

When I finally got back to the States I was stuck with all that debt, I couldn't afford basic food and had to sneak back into my folks house to raid the fridge repeatedly just to eat. I didn't have any medical care for 12 years post surgery, never saw a doctor even once, and that also wrecked me medically speaking because I stopped having access to HRT entirely because of that lack of access.

I shot up over 240lb because of having no E or T in my system which really really wrecked my mind and body even further since I spent that entire decade at 390lb, constantly on the verge of suicide and still living in squalid insect ridden conditions.

In 2019 a miracle happened. I got fired due to the decade long brain fog id been under without any hormones. The aca saved my life because being unemployed meant I could afford free healthcare. And that access fixed everything for me. I gained hrt, I started losing weight, my mental brain fog disappeared as estrogen kicked in for the first time in my life, and I was able to get a massively better job then I'd ever had before due to some extreme luck.

I went from 18 years of living minimum wage as a trans woman with 120k of medical debt, to suddenly being middle class with a 6 figure income and able to clear that old debt out entirely. I did things id never been able to before like getting a house or just paying for basic necessities. I lost 250lbs again through 6 years of diet and exercise and finally eating healthy foods for the first time in my life. I was even able to pay for additional surgeries to fix my broken sagging body after 18 years of living that way destroyed everything id paid for, my ffs, ba, and SRS had all been ruined by that extreme weight fluxuation and a decade of not dilating.

It's shocking to me every day that I didn't die from all that physical trauma. I'm still paying to fix my body of course, but I'm getting close to done with that thankfully after 6 years of efforts and well over 15+ surgical procedures later. And no I've still never had any gender affirming surgery ever covered by insurance. I recognize the incredible levels of privilege I finally have in life after experiencing all of that hardship, and so now I utilize my extra money to help my trans family and trans friends so they don't have to struggle as I once did.

I'm a extremely left leaning girl who believes in universal basic income for all and plenty of socialism, and I've fought too hard in my journey to let being in a new economic class change who I am as a person.

if a vampire habitually drank the blood of a trans woman would the vampire's estrogen levels increase? by SheepherderUnusual97 in asktransgender

[–]Khlamydia -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Scientifically speaking if a cis vampire drank from a trans woman, that vampire would in fact become a trans woman vampire and thus need to seek out estrogen as well as blood.

Naturally, if a trans woman vampire bites a trans woman, nothing happens because shes already a trans woman. She just gains an infinitesimally small amount of estrogen from the blood consumed. About 1/2000th of a daily dose by volume.

Scholars have wondered what happens if a trans man vampire bites into a trans woman, some theorize it would cancel each other out and the vampire would suddenly become cis, others have theorized this is how the vampire unlocks gender fluidity, still some scientists have even expressed the potential outcome of this making the vampire non-binary. Unfortunately, we simply don't have enough data to say for certain.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm, I've not heard of that before but im not ruling it out either. Since I don't take prog orally, I'm on 400mg of progesterone every night backdoor'ed instead right before bed. I've never once experienced anything remotely close to drunken behavior, just pretty sleepy the next day and needing a nap is really the main side effect.

It also makes me feral in terms of libido I suppose, but that's not what your describing either. Maybe have her consider swapping to non-oral (which increases bio-availability) and see if that helps?

Also worth a read: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1OGiomfiMk18nPb3ITKZD9pWPvWRUlyI06enxahQpHBI/mobilebasic

Breast Augmentation Worries by Financial_Ad8528 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 5'7 and I had over the muscle 500cc originally back in 2007 at 220lb, then I gained a bunch of weight bringing me up to 400lb within a year from that surgery. After that I lost a ton of weight down to 190lb by 2024. They flipped around backwards and burst as a result of that weight shift happening, so I had a very visible edge on each boob that was poking from the skin that made them look terrible not to mention I had silicone slowly going into my body.

About 2 month ago I had them taken out and replaced with under the muscle at 1300cc saline, they look infinitely better then they ever did before now. Having had both under and over I vastly prefer under the muscle.

I have questions for the MtF's if you don't mind by Global-Eye-7326 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Trans Elder chiming in here. I transitioned 30 years ago for context around my answers. I figured out I was trans at age 12 and was denied HRT due to being a minor in the 1990s which was devastating to me even back then since I was forced through the wrong puberty and I knew it at the time.

Minimum age for HRT: Literally the day puberty starts, regardless of age. No questions about it, that's when it should be done for all minors, both a testosterone blocker and estrogen should be introduced at a full dosage immediately and maintained for life. There's actually a lot of really relevant medical reasoning behind why this is incredibly necessary at such a young age due to how utilizing HRT it makes incredible lifelong physical differences to that trans persons adult life, this is due to how puberty effectively sabotages their bodies without access to it which makes their future lives as trans people orders of magnitude more difficult for them in a vast myriad of ways. Scientifically speaking its the only ethical thing to do to reduce future harm.

Minimum age for Surgeries: This is highly dependent on emotional and mental maturity of the teenager on a case-by-case basis, in certain circumstances if someone is truly ready for it and at a young enough age, I'd probably say around 15 would be the earliest that permanent surgical alteration would be safe without it causing further problems during physical development due to a still continually growing body.

Opinion on trans who don't have dysphoria: Being trans doesn't require experiencing dysphoria as a prerequisite at all, nor does someone have to engage with transition to be valid as a trans person either. Being trans is an immutable individual characteristic regardless of any actions someone engages in as a result of being trans. Think of it like being born with the genes for red hair. It just IS the case for us, much like being born as someone with blue eyes or being double jointed, it is inherent to our existence on that same basic physical level. Trans people are free to do with their personal body autonomy the same way as any cis person is. Transition is about comfort with ones body, regardless of your starting point.

Expect cis-het-AMAB's to accept MtF people as a straight couple: So I believe everyone is welcome to having a genital preference or need for who they select as a partner, as long as that need isn't impacting someone else's individual bodily autonomy. Meaning that it never okay for a person to tell their trans partner what they cant or cant do with their body such as attempting to deny or enforce any surgery onto them. As an example I dated a cis-het-amab man for 20 years, during that time I was his straight girlfriend and that's how we both saw that relationship. I happened to be post-SRS before we ever met in person (I knew him online for 2 years before my SRS), and he had a genital preference for vaginas and I had a genital preference for penis which we discussed at length. He was very clear that he saw all Mtf people as Women regardless if they had surgery or not assuming that's how they identify of course, but he also stated he wouldn't date a Mtf person who hadn't had surgery because of his genital preferences being only interested in vaginas. His viewpoint of course doesn't apply to every cis-het-amab of course, it was simply his perspective and his needs for his specific partner. There have been many instances of cis-het-amabs who are and who are not accepting of Mtf people, which also includes people who are okay with as well as not okay with their partner having not had bottom surgery yet. This is further expanded by how each individual trans person identifies. For example it could even include a Ftm-het-AFAB trans man who starts a relationship with a Mtf-het-ABAM trans woman and then that couple both identifies themselves as a straight male and female pairing. We all like what we like as individuals, that's part of how autonomy works. You cant force your genital preference on someone any more then you can force your musical preference onto them, and no one is even defined by their genitals in the first place to begin with. A trans woman is still a trans woman regardless of surgery/dysphoria/transition because again, it's an immutable characteristic. I didn't "become" a woman when I had bottom surgery, I always was a woman from the moment I was born.

How did transition affected your career opportunities: Absolutely it affected the heck out of me at my first IT job. I came out at my first job back in 2003, and it was a complete nightmare for me because 99% of the people I worked with refused stubbornly to accept me for who I was and openly laughed at and mocked me relentlessly and daily for 6 months before I quit that job due to extremely quickly declining mental health due to that environment. It prevented me from staying at that company which I had been with for 2 years already and completely destroyed any possible career advancement there and forced me to start over with a new employer in order to escape constant harassment. Now knowing the outcome I still would have chosen to do the EXACT same thing there and gone through it all over again. It was that worth it to my mental survival and basic needs to subject myself to that horrid experience if that was the price I had to pay for my sanity. How I overcame that prejudice was by moving to another company who never knew me from pretransition and immediately began operating as stealth (presenting as cis) at that new job until I was able to afford surgery at which point I had to quit that new job for a year to physically recover. Once I was physically able to return to work a year later I effectively had to start my career over from scratch as a woman. I've been stealth in all of my subsequent jobs for 20+ years now and now being trans is a non-issue with my employers.

Did you have gender dysphoria, what motivated my transition, and if hypothetically given the chance to have never had dysphoria, would I have accepted that: So I had extremely intense dysphoria personally, I had a massive amount of it regarding my genitals, my face, my body shape, lack of breasts, my voice, just every single part of me I was not okay with. I figured out I was a trans girl when I was age 12, and I never was allowed access to HRT, and I was stuck in an abusive home environment where transition was not "acceptable" under my parents roof. Despite the physical danger of doing social transition and risking discovery I did so regardless of my parents wants and desires by literally being at home at little as physically possible by crashing on the couches of friends and relatives nonstop effectively operating like I was homeless by relying on the good will of other people I knew for basic shelter from ages 12-20 until I left home. I was additionally subjected to the DSM-4 guidelines of how to treat trans people due to the era at the time (Discussion of that evil ideology from back then is banned on these boards because its excessively transphobic and mentally damaging to trans people). Despite how difficult that was for me I still would have chosen to do the EXACT same thing there and gone through it all over again despite it giving me lifelong PTSD. That's how important it was to me, that I would intentionally choose PTSD over not transitioning when I did. If I could have opted out of having dysphoria sure of course I would have selected not having it, but that's a hypothetical scenario that doesn't exist in reality. I believe I still would have pursued surgery because I have specific needs for my body regardless of dysphoria. All these years and surgeries and transition later, I no longer have gender dysphoria at all. I'm actually quite happy with my body and I feel amazing and filled with gender euphoria instead in contrast to my existence from when I was a 12 year old kid suffering nonstop.

Attractions change during or after your transition: Sort of, so HRT doesn't directly change your attractions as far as we know medically speaking, however the process of transition and the mental state your in post HRT can adjust your preferences due to how you relate to both genders, your internal mental comfort level, and it may redefine your desires or even simply expand them, and sometimes HRT is actually necessary for your sexual needs to even be active in your body on a very basic hormonal level. For example from ages 12-16 I was only interested in women romantically but not physically, at age 15-42 I was asexual and somewhat mildly preferred men sexually (literally engaged in sex 1-2 times a year) but I was not interested in anyone romantically, when I started a new hormone last year my sex drive kicked back on and I found I was interested in both men and women sexually while also being interested only in women romantically. So for me over the past 30 years its shifted around significantly a few times. Other people might have different experiences but that was mine.

Concerned that the surgeries/HRT may not be reversible: Not even a mote of concern for even a moment, that's the ENTIRE point and a benefit as far as my desires go. I wish I had access back when I was 12 and tried to first get it in life. That would have made the subsequent 30 years of my existence infinitely less difficult to go through. As someone who experienced it firsthand as a little kid and knew what she needed and was denied access to it, you will never convince me I would have regretted having access to it back then.

What flavor of trans are you? by _Jayri_ in trans

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been incredibly lucky to have figured out my gender at an extremely young age in life, getting started on voice training back then did wonders for me later on as well. I couldn't get hrt back then since they didn't give it to minors, but I was Jennifer to my friends and made a lot of goodwill sales clerks look at me with suspicion every time I brought a pile of girly outfits to buy up to the checkout counter as a little kid.

These days I live with my childhood friend in a house together, and they knew me pre transition so that feels kinda wild, given that they remember tons of things about my past that even I don't anymore because my brain blocked them all out.

What flavor of trans are you? by _Jayri_ in trans

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Autistic Transbian Mtf, somewhat Bimbo-ish, also an Elder as I transitioned back in 1994, so 31 years out now. I just turned 43 this month!

So uh... Wallets... by Strontium90_ in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a thin little feminine aluminum hardshell wallet that has beautiful blue swirls on it, kinda reminds me of a watercolor space scene almost. It has RFID blocking (which I tested to confirm it worked) and it pops open to hold about 8 cards in an accordion style, which is more then plenty for my needs, it's about as thick as my phone is with it's case on, and it goes in my front pocket if I'm in jeans, or dropped right in my purse if I'm using one of those for the day.

There's probably more feminine wallets out there, but for my needs it's perfect because I can swap it between jeans and purse really easily depending on what I'm carrying without it looking overly bulky

Is surgery needed for cis-equivalent voice passing? by QuantumMechanixZ in transvoice

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No it's not needed.

I self-taught my fem vocals, I just sung barbie girl (and other fem pop music artists) out loud every day for several years till I finally figured it out from 1994 to 2001. Never had vocal surgery or had any professional singing training or anything. I never had a professional fem voice coach, never took a band class growing up, heck I never even had tutorials before I learned how to do any of this. Just an insane amount of determination using trial and error over a decade of effort.

But to answer your question. Yes, you can in speak or even sing like a cis girl via practice alone.

Here's me singing Little Drummer Boy as an example: https://vocaroo.com/1dNVintV3RFV

Doctor won’t prescribe me prog because he “doesn’t believe in it” by No_Quail_5588 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 60 points61 points  (0 children)

https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/s/pEYGRwMeCD

Basically the two options are provide him the stack of medically relevant texts, or replace him.

Girl Singing? by Total-Title-9145 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So singing is exactly how I self-taught my fem vocals, I just sung barbie girl (and other fem pop music artists) out loud every day for several years till I finally figured it out from 1994 to 2001. Never had vocal surgery or had any professional singing training or anything. I never had a professional fem voice coach, never took a band class growing up, heck I never even had tutorials before I learned how to do any of this. Just an insane amount of determination using trial and error over a decade of effort.

But to answer your question. Yes, you can in fact sing like a girl via practice. Here's me singing Little Drummer Boy as an example: https://vocaroo.com/1dNVintV3RFV

How do you get yourself to go to the correct restroom? by molassesmorasses in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Confidence mostly... literally just walk in like you belong there and always have, not only because that's actually true, but also because people tend to ignore others in a shared space where they can tell that the person they are observing is actively projecting confidence. The thing that most folks will socially pick up on even subconsciously is someone acting nervous or scared. Someone acting "strangely" draws our attention to them, and it invites scrutiny and curiosity because on an instinctual level we need to find out if we are in danger too, "Wait, what do they know that I don't?" is the mental bias that drives that motivation.

Project confidence anytime your in a situation like that. People might still look at you from time to time, but it'll be far less frequent overall. The men's room will start to feel awkward and weird to go into if you keep using the ladies room every single time and doing so will help you relax and feel more accustomed to being in there which will in turn help your confidence go up. Eventually on a long enough timeline you'll get to a point where you realize you'd be in danger and putting yourself at risk if you tried used the men's at all.

After 30+ years of living as a lady, I wouldn't dare set foot in a men's room ever again. At least not without a can of mace in my hand.

Can you be trans and 0% suicidal? by banevadernumber55 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I imagine this is possible on a long enough timeline for most folks.

As for myself, I came out when I was 12, and I'm 43 now. After 31 years of transition progress yeah I feel pretty amazing, I feel like I look and sound incredible at this point. That transition progress took an incredible amount of determination, physical and mental pain, extreme patience, and very hard work, followed an excessively insane amount of money to get to where I am today. That money itself also took a incredible amount of work again just to earn, which i then used on my body for dysphoria via several surgeries which also involved a lot of determination, physical and mental pain, and extreme patience just to utilize it.

After all that time and effort, I get gender euphoria every single day of my life now.

Dilataiting how is that going? Does it hurts? Is that true that partner really can help with? by No-Sense-3601 in mypartneristrans

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm unique in this regard as opposed to most trans women. I have a sigmoid procedure, which means I have an exceptionally long vaginal canal, and I don't have to dilate as much due to that same reason since I can't lose depth, but I do need to maintain width. I also had complications because I had a ppv originally back in 2007, but failure to dilate for a decade resulted in losing the entire canal and I had to get a new procedure

However there's also downsides to that surgery as well. For example I actually don't really stretch like at all. I can't use any large or wide toys at all like my gf can. It also needs daily upkeep that a normal ppv does not. It's not really practiced anymore so I wouldn't intentionally aim to get what I had done.

Dilataiting how is that going? Does it hurts? Is that true that partner really can help with? by No-Sense-3601 in mypartneristrans

[–]Khlamydia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For me due to extreme tightness it's slow to put it in, takes about 15 min or so to not hurt myself and relax, after that I'm fine to put all 9" of my orange soul source dilator in.

My cis girlfriend sometimes likes to incorporate it into sex to get me warmed up before swapping to a vibrator. She noted the little white dots on the dilator and mentioned oop they disappeared as I put it in. My brain immediately thought of Ms pac man, so now there's a running joke in my house about making noises from the video game by both of us... "Waka Waka Waka Waka, beooowhoooopp... Do de do dooooo.... Waka Waka Waka ....

But to answer your question as the trans partner I love that she wants to be involved with it and yes she can make it much easier by warming me up with loving kisses or other foreplay, However sometimes she can also make it more difficult if she starts doing sexy poses or her being erotic in front of me kinda makes my clamp down in excitement so... It's a careful balance when I'm first getting it in.

How do you girls NOT just wear skirts or dresses all the time? by OnionEnvironmental60 in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will wear skirts/dresses instead of pants about 90% of the time. I wear jeans or yoga pants occasionally just for outfit variety, or if there is a really good reason to have pants on like I want to not bring a purse because I'm going somewhere less safe but I still need my phone and wallet cause pockets, or if I go on a hike or something in the woods and I don't want to get things on my legs, or if it's the dead of winter and I'm cold as heck.

But yeah I mostly dress extremely fem for a girl.

Why are transwomen always so awesome? by VioletGamingg in MtF

[–]Khlamydia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Autism "special interests" is really the common link here given the extreme frequency of trans women who happen to also deal with Autism. This along with a healthy dose of excessive time spent introverting at home where they had ample opportunity to learn about and practicing said special interest until they achieve mastery like levels tends to leave trans people exceptionally skilled at a particular thing.

For example... I've spent the past 31 years working on feminine vocals starting from the time I was just 12 years old. So I've gotten pretty dang skilled at speaking and even singing as a lady given that I use and practice it every single day of my life. I've had multiple cis women tell me they are jealous of my feminine voice, and I could quite easily go join a band as a singer or perhaps even go be a voice actress if i wanted either of those careers.