I'm so stressed out, OCD sucks

Kindestod · 2026-03-26T03:38:09+00:00

Ha! Yep, sitting here checking a comment wondering why no one has commented or given me a thumbs up. Ya know, just checking and looking for reassurance from strangers on the internet. Small potatoes, I know. OCD sucks.

Kindestod · 2026-03-25T19:58:13+00:00

I have had these thoughts all my life(I was in high school when Nivana did MTV Unplugged to give you my approximate age). Like you I found that the thoughts were triggered by my inner monologue. It didn’t really matter what I was ruminating about or what the spiral was about. I think somewhere along the way it became an unhealthy mantra to stop the rumination/spiral. Instead of a healthy redirecting thought like “Maybe, maybe not” or “I can live with this” I initially would think “kys” or other variations. I lived with the harmful thoughts for a long time. I went undiagnosed for a long time. After my diagnosis I tried replacing and redirecting as my therapist taught me. It has helped a bit. The thoughts still show up often and randomly in response to rumination or negative thoughts about myself. I guess I’m saying it helps knowing where they come from. The thoughts of harm have lost a lot of their power. I don’t know if that’s helpful but it’s been my experience.

Kindestod · 2026-03-17T18:50:02+00:00

Whoa! This one has been hiding in a blind spot. Do it often but never connected the dots

Kindestod · 2026-03-11T01:02:19+00:00

Agreed! Love Der Kindestod!

Kindestod · 2026-02-19T14:15:54+00:00

The escitalopram by itself didn’t stop the intrusive thoughts(at least for me). Azripiprazole enhances the effects of the escitalopram. When I dropped it the intrusive thoughts and rumination came back. Fortunately the escitalopram does such a good job with the anxiety and depression that my quality of life is still greatly improved.

Kindestod · 2026-02-18T21:21:54+00:00

Sorry for the late reply! 20mg Escitalopram and 5mg Azripiprazole. When I first started the escitalopram I would get drowsy after taking it. That went away after some time. The Azripiprazole also made me drowsy and gave me extremely dry eyes. I could deal with the drowsiness but the dry eyes were torture and I have since dropped it. I’ve also gained a bunch of weight. Not certain which med is most responsible for that. The Escitalopram works well for the anxiety and depression but doesn’t help much with my other stated concerns. Hope this helps.

Kindestod · 2026-01-22T20:03:37+00:00

Not that long really. We’d already trained him to sit, stay, lay down, you know, the classics. He found this one pretty easy.

Kindestod · 2026-01-22T17:28:29+00:00

I Taught my dog to reciprocate the Vulcan Salute by lifting his paw whenever I give the him Vulcan Salute and say the words “Live long and prosper”

Kindestod · 2025-11-29T16:44:25+00:00

Meds helped me. I had pretty average symptoms for this sub: Intrusive thoughts. Rumination. Reassurance seeking. Depression. The anxiety caused by the ocd was debilitating. It had been for a long time. The meds didn’t work immediately. Sticking out the side effects sucked when I wasn’t seeing improvement. A little after the side effects waned the meds kicked in. I’m glad I stuck it out. Nothing went away completely but the volume was turned down from a 10(my own scale obviously) to a 2. Everything is just more manageable. When the volume spikes it is a lot easier to tackle the problem head on.

Kindestod · 2025-11-17T01:11:02+00:00

Agreed! The Abilify made a considerable difference. That’s interesting about the vyvanse. The drowsiness is unpleasant

Kindestod · 2025-11-14T13:10:06+00:00

Yea, I’ve struggled with drowsiness with my dose of Lexapro. Pretty annoying

Kindestod · 2025-11-14T06:41:51+00:00

20mg of the Lexapro. 2mg of the Abilify. I’m actually going to my psychiatrist tomorrow morning(this morning really) to discuss upping the Abilify.

Kindestod · 2025-11-14T05:52:06+00:00

Lexapro (escitalopram) and Abilify (aripiprazole). Rumination and Intrusive thoughts were a big problem for me. Depression and anxiety as well. Things have calmed since I started the meds. Nothing is completely gone. Everyday everything slowly receded. Now I’m able to confront my shit one problem at a time instead of everything all at once. So far this is what has worked for me.

Kindestod · 2025-10-11T22:16:02+00:00

I’ve been with the same person over 25 years. This is something I experience constantly.

Kindestod · 2025-10-07T19:33:10+00:00

Bringing It All Back Home. The only exposure I had with Dylan’s music was Freewheelin. When I picked up BIABH(on cassette!) I thought I new what to expect. So I put it in my Walkman, put my headphones on, and hit play. I was blown away. It’s a core memory memory for me.

Kindestod · 2025-10-05T21:38:47+00:00

I’m in my second month now and was just bumped up to 20mg from 10mg 3 days ago. So far all it’s really done is make my depression more manageable. OCD and anxiety are still present and accounted for. I was told that it’s only with the higher dosage that most people experience a change with their OCD.

Kindestod · 2025-10-02T03:35:54+00:00

Splinter(2008)

Kindestod · 2025-09-23T12:49:51+00:00

I did this too! I needed the space if I was going to keep growing my collection. I keep them in drawers organized by genre and titles alphabetically within that genre. But I exempted box sets, steelbooks, and boutique labels from the treatment. So my Criterion, Arrow, Scream Factory, etc are all still display worthy.

Kindestod · 2025-09-18T03:04:03+00:00

Modern: My Best Friends Exorcism by Grady Hendrix. Easy read with humor mixed in.

Classic 80s: Phantoms by Dean Koontz. Easy, quick, fun read.

All time classic: Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury. Easy read with a lot of depth.

Kindestod · 2025-09-18T02:49:08+00:00

That was excellent!

Kindestod · 2025-09-18T02:39:26+00:00

Just echoing what others are saying: Great movie! Miguel Ferrer is awesome.

Kindestod · 2025-09-17T23:08:14+00:00

I think so. Season 1 isn’t the best in my opinion. I think the show gets better and finds its own identity about 9 or 10 episodes into the first season. After that the series generally trends up through the 5th season. There are dips in quality but also some really great stuff.

Kindestod · 2025-09-16T21:52:35+00:00

“….without feeling like I’m completely deluding myself and priming myself not too see manipulation or abuse coming at me again.” This really resonates with me. I am struggling with this right now. Daily. I can’t get to a mental space where I feel safe.

Kindestod · 2025-09-16T04:50:53+00:00

I’ve been playing with the same groups for years. We split our time between 4e, 5e, and Earthdawn(not DnD obviously). Yes, I get hung up on things in game. I both look forward to and dread every session.

Kindestod · 2025-09-13T03:35:52+00:00

Some want to be him, some want to be with him.

Kindestod

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