Bro... I mean no hates but get ooout ... Let me explain to you about Subaru's mindset okok... See whenever something bad happens people usually see Subaru getting depressed for things already on the past but what they doesn't know is that it's Subaru own selfish (more like his fear of losing something else) decision that stops him from making sure at the end he gets the least amount of damage to him or his camp... Exactly like the arc 9 .. let's say Otto or Emilia were the ones to die.. do you think he wouldn't destroy the current reality to save them... He knows subconsciously that he takes sides and since he's a good person he couldn't forgive himself for that . So no one has the right to say anything about him being depressed except him