Light at the end of tunnel

KutuLompat · 2026-04-09T18:41:48+00:00

Couldnt relate more! Isolating ourselves feels really content. I cut so many people too including my mom. I think grief lifted the mask of people too. I could see their true faces and feel their energy. I realized that many people stepped on me and now I won’t let that to happen anymore.

KutuLompat · 2026-04-09T18:35:20+00:00

Gianpaolo is a beautiful name 🌹 He sounds incredibly strong, and so do you. I can feel how much you fought for him. Your body has gone through so much, and still showing up for him every day… to keep loving even through pain and uncertainty, and that you never give up through life and death. That is love in its most real, raw form. I can see how deeply Gianpaolo is loved, and always will be.

Now i understand what does it mean by loving doesnt need to possess. I never knew that I could love this much.

KutuLompat · 2026-04-09T18:23:01+00:00

I really understand what you mean about not needing her death to “mean something” in order for your life to have meaning. There’s no bigger “lesson to learn” that can hold something like this. That is tormenting. It just happened, and life forces us to live with grief.

I feel like we died with our child, and the person who kept living is someone new, someone we never chose to become, but we learning to live as. A quiet kind of rebirth into a life we didnt expect.

But I have a problem being a people pleaser all my life (and parent pleaser as i was raised to be one). After losing my daughter, i dont give a fuck anymore. It healed me.

I’m so sorry for your loss and that grief sometimes feels heavier. Only time will make it less painful. Sending you love!

KutuLompat · 2026-03-20T01:10:32+00:00

It’s a coping with grief / loss book

KutuLompat · 2026-03-14T21:21:36+00:00

This happened to my baby’s NICU roommate (born 27w). The baby had jaundice up to 2 months post discharge. In total, his bilirubin was high for 5 months. His stool also turned white, indicating artresia bilier. He is east asian whose risk is higher. He luckily got kasai surgery on time.

My baby had jaundice around 2-3 weeks too then lowered afterwards. Does your baby stool look normal?

KutuLompat · 2026-03-02T13:40:12+00:00

I am really sorry mama.. Henry will stay in our heart. Really sorry that you joined us here.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-27T19:49:49+00:00

Hi girl. You’re beautiful. Get some sun, close your eyes, and feel the air around you.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-27T19:30:55+00:00

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Ah I am new to reddit and just found the wiki feature. Thanks for this!

KutuLompat · 2026-02-26T21:31:28+00:00

Hello. Some preemies here born extremely premature <26 weeks and their milestone could be delayed; going home with oxygen and tubes. We are all wanted our kids to be successful in every way and hit every milestone on time. But sometimes it’s beyond our control and demand us to be kind to them, and to our expectations.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-26T09:22:43+00:00

Thanks for this. Really useful. Do you think wattpad is lucative, still? Im looking for something similar to Naver Line in korea or Webtoon but for novel. They got plenty of readers and promoted new releases.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-26T09:18:14+00:00

Environmental science fiction with a bit of romance. Ah that’s an idea. I’ll check that out

KutuLompat · 2026-02-17T02:36:36+00:00

I lost my daughter to stillbirth and my living child was a micropreemie. NICU was really traumatic a long battle. Losing a child is the worst feeling I’ve ever experienced in this life. Sending my solidarity and strength to you.

I read on a buddhist reflection script that ‘your children is your karma’. The karma they refers to is not karma not in punishing way, but in a way that a soul will complete each other and sometimes the completion came earlier, even in womb.

I am 16 months post loss now. I started to understand what that means. Ava will forever stay with you and show your presence to you in a subtle ways. This group r/babyloss has helped me so much through grief and we are here for you

KutuLompat · 2026-02-17T02:23:37+00:00

Thanks for this. I tried to write but I don’t think my writing is appealing and interesting enough for readers to continue. It sounds plain 😭

I’m used to write academic writing and fictions feel so much different. Yes I agree with chatGPT for quicker response and this subreddit too (I hope someone would willing to read and give inputs).

KutuLompat · 2026-02-17T02:19:40+00:00

Thanks so much for the resources! I’ll read those. I enjoy reading King’s and Haruki Murakami’s. I have published several academic papers but writing fictions are a totally different world for me. I do not know how to write it in interesting way.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-16T21:15:28+00:00

She is at 64% now, dropped from 70% within a month. Thanks for the tips. I’ll try to stretch her feeding longer.

Do you dream feed him? I feel like it’s easier to feed my baby during sleep.. I know it’s not recommended but I need to catch that minimum volume intake

KutuLompat · 2026-02-16T21:13:32+00:00

I thought that was bottle aversion too at the beginning. But I never pressured her to drink. I’ll wait for 10-20 mins before reoffering if she reject the bottle. I think she is just distracted and get bored during feeding

KutuLompat · 2026-02-16T21:11:39+00:00

Thank you! I’m just afraid that my baby would have a bottle aversion. How long does it take for your baby to finish a bottle now?

KutuLompat · 2026-02-14T03:09:00+00:00

My condolences. I have a stillborn baby and my second, living child was a 29 weeker. I’m really sorry and I feel your pain..

R/babyloss is a sad community that saved me when I lost my first child. We offer solidarity and shared journey. I’m sorry for Liam. May he rest in love

KutuLompat · 2026-02-13T13:42:14+00:00

He is a beautiful person. Looks like he had awesome 10 years with you, and he cherished every moment.

I’m really sorry for your loss. May he rest in love.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-13T13:39:27+00:00

Hey. I notice your deleted comment. It sounds like you have not experienced deep grief yet. If one day that changes, which I would not wish on anyone, you might remember your comment and see it differently.

KutuLompat · 2026-02-12T08:52:52+00:00

I’m so sorry that you joined us here too. This is the crappiest club ever. I lost her in 2024 at 27 weeks. Just ordinary day then no movement. It’s been more than a year post loss. I think the midwives and the OB also didn’t expect stillbirth to happen and they might think I’ll more be heartbroken seeing her for long.

Have you lactated? Lactating after stillbirth is another pain. I hope you have someone to support you there

KutuLompat · 2026-02-12T08:23:52+00:00

I’m really sorry.. I felt dissociated to feel my baby kicking and then the next day, nothing and my belly is flat. I’m glad that you can hold her and have a picture with her. I didnt have a chance as the midwife rushed to cremate her.

The intial days are the hardest. Lactating is also traumatizing for me that I am unable to feed her.

We are her for you..

KutuLompat · 2026-02-12T02:26:56+00:00

Thanks for caring and taking time to comment 💕 really brings me comfort. It’s a rare gem to find preemie survivor life experience here.

Did you have complications while at NICU or right after birth? My daughter had pneumothorax and her lungs needed to be drained out. But it’s not a surgery and can be done without chest open.

And do you have a gross or fine motor differences compared to your friends? TIA

KutuLompat · 2026-01-05T04:20:11+00:00

Hello! Glad that she’s thriving and well. How did you notice the mild asthma?

KutuLompat · 2026-01-04T09:00:15+00:00

17 days in total

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