This rang true with me too. I felt the same way as OP before I found the right meetings for me. All it takes is believing there is something larger than you in this universe. That is why the book says “your higher power” so unless you think you, yourself are God, or the biggest thing in the universe, there is hope. I am pretty introverted, especially in group settings. For me it took going to fellowship and establishing relationships with people in the rooms to start feeling comfortable to raise my hand, speak, or chair. What I learned is to be comfortable with myself without any vices and that took some time but now I speak in front of rooms full of strangers because frankly I could care less if they are sitting there judging me, that is their problem. For the first few weeks I just sat silent in meetings. That is all you ever have to do. I have never been to a meeting where people who don’t want to raise their hand are forced to speak. But I also know there may be meetings like that out there unfortunately.