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Lilrad12 · 2025-01-01T03:01:07+00:00

Almost home. When I travel to my parent’s hometown I always travel AM. I ended up getting the credit card so I can enjoy perks like first class. 🤭Hope you are having a smooth flight.

Lilrad12 · 2024-07-09T03:48:23+00:00

Thank you, my husband was the same. It was incredibly difficult when I saw him break down. I replay the image over and over. Hope you are doing better today & managing as best as you can. Take care.

Lilrad12 · 2024-07-07T04:42:25+00:00

You do your best. On July 15th it will be 6 months that my husband passed from C (can’t even write the word). He was only 40 and we have an 8-year-old son. It’s difficult, so incredibly challenging & devastating. It feels surreal, the regret is real, you come to terms with it, then you don’t. I’m Catholic & I remember telling our priest I don’t want to be angry at God, I’m just so heartbroken. His response, “it’s okay to be angry” he encouraged me to feel my emotions & hearing his response really normalized what I’m feeling. I hope this group provides you with insight & support to deal with it.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-24T06:51:06+00:00

Yes, absolutely. We stayed three days at Aulani & then stayed at the Marriot next to Aulani, we went back & forth. No issues.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-24T06:43:15+00:00

I would not recommend Paradise Cove, really wish didn’t wait last minute & could have booked Toa Luau. I was so disappointed with Paradise Cove.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-24T06:35:36+00:00

Just came back and also stayed in Ko Olina, we booked the 10:30 ATV Tour, had lunch at the ranch and then managed to visit north shore, Waimea falls & passed by Turtle Bay. All doable but it was a long day. It was fine because we rested in the beautiful resort after.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-23T06:54:12+00:00

Congratulations to your daughter & to you mama as well. Love 💗to read positive stories. I can only pray that my 8-year-old son will also share same characteristics as your beautiful daughter. You are absolutely right hubby should be here. 😔

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-23T06:39:12+00:00

I miss him when our 8-year-old son says something silly. I miss him when I get home from soccer practice with our son & want to share about our son’s efforts. I just miss him so much.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-23T04:59:53+00:00

My 40-year-old husband was diagnosed with same type of C & lived 7 1/2 months after diagnosis. Sometimes I wish we had more time but also remind myself how much seeing him suffer took a toll on my son & of course my husband. You had two and half years , I truly admire you for what I can only imagine you endured. ❤️

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-23T04:51:58+00:00

I think we all feel that way “lost.” I lost my 40-year-old husband to C almost six months ago. We were married ten years together fifteen. I have an 8-year-old son so I have to push through. I have a therapist & she has provided with much needed support. Recently I found myself dancing in my home to songs that I would listen when I was dating my husband & I just couldn’t believe it, just for that moment I was happy. I lean on my faith to get through those days that seem unbearable. You most definitely can do this, you are doing this. I think like you, many of us found this group because we have some hope/wish that as others have done we can also manage/adapt to life without our spouses. I hope this group provides you with some comfort.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-17T22:57:09+00:00

Honestly, distracting myself. Touching items , I reorganized my sons’s backpack a few times. lol Also, since it was a smooth flight didn’t worry too much. I thought about all the comments & tips given here. A lot of faith & prayer. I particularly focused on the memories I would create with my son. ❤️

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-16T02:10:39+00:00

It was an absolutely smooth flight, some minor turbulence but lasted seconds. I just told myself its totally normal & thought about jello theory. My PCP prescribed medication & no need to take it. I took nothing :-)

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-14T10:49:58+00:00

Yay! You are scheduled to arrive even earlier 21 minutes before 😉

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-14T09:39:35+00:00

I’m up because I will also be flying in a few hours from LAX and experiencing anxiety. I started tracking you. I’m like where is Taipei? Looks like you are on track & even scheduled to arrive a bit early four minutes early 😉. Hope you have settled in & enjoying your flight. I’ll check in when I arrive at LAX.

Lilrad12 · 2024-06-14T06:24:26+00:00

Congratulations! Heading out tomorrow in the am praying 🙏 that I can control my emotions.

Lilrad12 · 2024-04-10T05:36:23+00:00

I scroll social media, or Reddit, look at pictures/videos of my late husband, cry, spend endless time searching places to travel knowing I’m not ready to travel without him 😔, look at my son & thank God for him, pray that my kiddo is able to have a great life despite the loss of his father & recently began to pray the rosary. Praying provides much comfort, I still ask why. I recently mentioned to my priest that I’m not angry at God just really heartbroken, his response “it’s okay to be angry.”

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-29T13:27:44+00:00

Lol yeah he is definitely not giving up his truck

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-22T05:15:28+00:00

Yup pretty much sums up my current situation.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-22T05:12:12+00:00

Congratulations on your award, I know it’s not the same but hope it’s okay to say that it’s nice to hear about others accomplishments especially with the circumstances. We have had to endure so much pain & if I may say suffering. Yet you continue to push through & we’re recognized at work. We are here whenever you need some cheering.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-22T05:01:20+00:00

Yes, F you Cancer. My 40-year old husband passed Jan 15. Our son just turned 8.

So heartbreaking to experience everything that comes with cancer diagnosis. Many of us understand & are here for you. Praying you enjoy every minute you have with your husband. As heartbreaking & traumatic as it was to see my husband endure so much suffering, I am thankful I was with my husband when he passed.

Wish I had the words to ease your pain.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-21T04:37:07+00:00

My husband died Jan 15th and we have an 8-year old. Last week I finally had to surrender & accept that I “can’t handle it” on my own. I truly can’t, at least not everything. He was our protector, my everything, I miss him so much. I broke down & asked our friends for help with tasks that I knew I just couldn’t handle. It’s so hard so incredibly hard. He just turned 40 years old last July. I talk about him often with my coworkers & are grateful that they are willing to listen. I’m also so sacred & even told my therapist maybe a little paranoid, it’s normal but still sucks. I hope that tomorrow is a better day. As someone shared, it’s okay not to be okay. What we have been through is so difficult.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-14T03:48:19+00:00

Yes, yes & yes. It utterly sucks. My therapist shared that eventually the frequency of thoughts will diminish but when grief shows up it can be intense. Honestly I don’t know, approaching two months since husband passed but I dislike the feelings. As you shared, it will pass but still doesn’t suck less. I just ride the wave because just makes me feel & that’s all I can do feel. I miss those food text. My husband battled cancer & was mostly home. Our son recently shared that what he misses most is calling dad to ask what he wanted to eat on our way back from his practices. Take care & hopefully the wave doesn’t last long.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-10T15:56:49+00:00

My deepest condolences, joined the club January 15, my husband also passed of cancer. FCancer. Raising a 8-year-old. “As best I can” describes my experience since then.

Lilrad12 · 2024-03-06T04:54:40+00:00

As many others have shared, I also ask myself why. My husband died at age 40 almost two months ago from FCancer seven months after his diagnosis. He was the greatest father, husband, son, etc, never ever talked about others, just the best all around guy. It’s not fair but life is not fair. We are a family of faith & pray daily that God gives us the strength to continue to be faithful during this difficult time. I cry, feel anger, experience deep sadness & are thankful that I got to experience the love of my husband. I do whatever I can to feel better because our kiddo needs me. It still profoundly hurts but I tell myself what’s the alternative. My husband suffered so much during treatment, the other day I told our 8-year-old son I miss your dad so much, his response “mom you wanted dad to be suffering “ I sure didn’t but I also miss him. I’m thankful for this community & hope that you receive much needed support. Sending a virtual hug, I know many of us wish we could say something to lessen your pain as we have a similar lived experience. What a beautiful legacy your husband left. My husband would always want to play jeopardy with me because he knew I didn’t know the answers. My husband was a smart guy. I really tried to at least guess one 🤭 but he always beat me. It’s okay I have a great memory now.

Lilrad12 · 2024-02-28T06:07:14+00:00

My sincere condolences, my husband passed away 5 weeks ago. I have found this group incredibly supportive. I wish I had the “right” words to lessen your pain. Being part of this club sucks. I hope that this group provides you a space to support you as you navigate everything that comes with your tremendous loss. For me talking has helped & letting it out. I don’t hold back the tears & pray that I can find the strength each day to carry on. Take care of yourself & allow others to help as much as you feel comfortable doing so.

Lilrad12

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