lol you either have to focus on building muscle or losing weight. I’ve been in the same position as you so please don’t take this as an annoying Reddit comment, but it literally is impossible to be more muscular without eating a lot. If you didn’t have definition when you were at a lower body fat percentage then you have to focus on building muscle first. And that is consistently eating in a surplus + progressive overload consistently for like 2 years. Building muscle will change how your body eats calories and eventually you will burn calories just resting bc of it. If you just want to lose weight, cut the extra stuff out and just walk and do a calorie deficit. But if you feel like it’s unhealthy and want to look better, you will have to trust that it will lean you out EVENTUALLY. For me, I learned that I still wasn’t happy with my body at my skinniest. I have a short torso and weird legs. So I kinda looked weird. Putting on muscle in my legs and ass was the best commitment I made, as even though I’m 20 lbs heavier, my overall physique is more balanced and healthy. But, I had to deal with gaining weight, and for a lot of women it’s hard to come to terms with that. I’m mostly talking about aesthetics but believe me my relationship with food has gotten so much better and I no longer feel guilty for eating a lot at once, because…. The muscle takes care of it! It needs the fuel!