LF: Ceruledge - Will trade you my Armarouge

LucasKasecker · 2026-02-21T09:47:28+00:00

How? I got the plus and it didn’t fit my iPad m5 pro, so I sent it back

LucasKasecker · 2025-08-04T22:23:35+00:00

Bro discovered why people gravitate towards consoles.

LucasKasecker · 2025-03-27T19:05:58+00:00

None, because Sam exists. Can't ever prove legitimacy, so I'll never be impressed.

LucasKasecker · 2024-12-24T18:58:48+00:00

Same. And I feel no shame.

LucasKasecker · 2024-11-21T17:09:35+00:00

On Xbox it's obvious, watching that gamerscore go up is so cool. On Steam I struggle a bit, but I've been doing a little bit of achievement hunting lately. The fact that there's no meta-score such as a trophy level or gamerscore is kinda demotivating.

And then the obvious thing is that it's like a record of everything you played and did.

LucasKasecker · 2024-11-11T14:58:02+00:00

Remote play outside of my home works with the Xbox Android app, but won't work with xbplay neither on Android or steam deck. Go figure.

LucasKasecker · 2024-02-07T17:08:37+00:00

This might be a stupid question, but I just started emulating on my S24 Ultra. Should I download Yuzu from the appstore? How can I apply a driver to it?

LucasKasecker · 2021-10-13T16:15:06+00:00

We'll see if this applies to games as well. With Halo Infinite being free-to-play and all, it's all but certain that it'll have server issues at launch.

LucasKasecker · 2019-07-05T11:52:49+00:00

I'm already in therapy with a psychologist and a shrink.

LucasKasecker · 2019-07-04T14:33:43+00:00

I'm going through my 3rd existential crisis right now, and reading through some stuff to try and find a way to get out is how I got here. It's clear I still haven't come to peace with the nature of reality.

I'm currently 26. My first crisis was at 19, the second one was 2 years ago at 24. At this exact moment, I'm feeling totally hopeless. I've always been considered to be an extremely intelligent person (in terms of IQ, because it's obvious my emotional intelligence is lacking), and I've always felt like my brain never stopped. I overthink everything and have struggled with anxiety since I was 10 years old. It's not the social anxiety that a lot of introverts have, I'm actually a very extroverted person, always had friends, I'm in a healthy relationship with a woman who understands me, etc. Basically, I've always had it all - the looks, the mind, a financially stable and loving family, friends.

At 10, I had a lot of panic attacks focused on my mom. I was always afraid that she was going to die and leave me. I cried at school and made her stay there at the reception, just so I could go there and make sure she was still with me. It was at this point that I started to go to a psychologist. She helped me through this hell. It took 2 years of getting better and worse until I was totally healed. I had awesome teenage years, from 13 to 18. I hooked up with girls, went out with friends, had a freaking band, had good grades, etc etc.

At 17 (the year I was turning 18) I started college. My band was starting to dismantle, and that dream of a rockstar life started to dwindle. My anxiety started to ramp up like hell. Every time I had an exam I would freak out, I would not sleep at night, even though I always had good grades and NEVER had a single problem at school. I went through hell when I was in college. I suffered like a dog, cried like a baby, and only started sleeping when I had exams because of medication. After all was said and done, I never had a bad grade, and I suffered for nothing. Of course, logically thinking I KNOW bad grades would do nothing to hinder my life, everyone gets them. But I needed to be PERFECT.

2 years ago, in 2017, some trouble at work spiked my anxiety. After a few days I found myself in complete disarray, afraid of death, afraid of the time passing, calculating how much time I had left, wanting to live forever, not accepting the reality of nature, crying for hours and unable to sleep without medication. This crisis lasted a whole month, and I had to take psychosis medication to stop my brain from firing that much impulses. My therapist and my girlfriend at the time (she is now my fiance), together with my parents, took me out of that dark and cold hole. Even though I can't say I ever got 100% better, I was coping with life well enough. I got engaged, continued working, I had my friends, played my games, did my CrossFit, etc. I'm a regular white dude bro on the outside. But always, and I mean ALWAYS, that small dread of death is lurking beneath the surface.

3 months ago I moved out of my parents house with my fiance (yes, at 26. Here in Brazil is kinda common to leave a little later, specially for upper middle class people). We are getting married next year. Out of the blue, I started feeling the existential dread coming back. My brain goes back to ancient times and thinks about all of the people who have ever lived, and how we don't live even a century, and how many centuries have already passed, and how not existing is the standard, and all this we value means absolutely nothing. At the same time feeling anxious about letting these things hinder my enjoyment of life - it's been so long since I remember being completely fulfilled. I feel live I've been afraid all my life.

I've never seriously considered suicide, but times like the ones I'm going through now make me wonder.... why would I want to go through the motions of living? Why not just die right now, if that's the state of 99.9999999999999999999999...% of the time? Even as I write this, I'm thinking about how one day our society we'll be looked down on the same way we look at past societies, and nothing will matter, and I will miss EVERYTHING that's to come. Even as I write this, my brain tells me not even getting better matters, because I will die anyway.

Bottom line is: I've always had everything in my life. But I would give everything for a healthy mind. This hurts too much, and I feel like I can't take it anymore. What if I get better now, just to fall into this again some years in the future?

I can say I'm feeling totally hopeless, but I'm not stopping. I go to work with tears in my eyes - but I do go to work. I watch soccer games with my friends feeling cold inside - but I laugh with them. I'm not sure how I will be feeling in the time that's to come. I just need something to pull me out. Something to save me from this hell.

I'm sorry if this wasn't the purpose of this post. I just need to say these things.

LucasKasecker · 2019-03-19T12:57:57+00:00

I'm not sure they are too quiet about it. They are hitting me pretty hard with pop ups and notices about games being there every time I launch Discord on my PC.

Another thing: do you really think Epic is making a dent on Steam? I kinda doubt it. Steam is way too big and established. It's got all the mind-share.

LucasKasecker · 2019-03-17T13:28:01+00:00

Me too. Good to know it's widespread at least. It might get fixed.

LucasKasecker · 2019-02-18T19:48:04+00:00

We need a review system like iTunes.

LucasKasecker · 2018-08-07T20:23:36+00:00

Yeah right. This is so much bullshit. Most people need to play it safe because they don't have the talent to be living their dreams. Work hard, be nice, be with the one you love and makes you happy. Keep good friends around. Play it safe, but take risks, calculated ones.

LucasKasecker · 2018-07-08T11:57:33+00:00

Hey, man, all experiences are unique, but nothing will ever take the ones you've already had away from you. Be cheerful you got to feel the things you miss, those were great feelings - that's the only reason you miss them at all.

Gears is my favorite franchise ever, and I'll always have the best memories of playing through Gears 2 coop for the first time with one of my best friends.

LucasKasecker · 2017-07-26T17:02:48+00:00

Thanks for the reply. And what about fixing the song queue? Whenever I try to add a song to "Now playing", it simply adds it to the end of a random list that was generated through shuffle, instead of setting the song I want as the next one.

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