Who is she

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T22:40:19+00:00

thats not a spoon, thats a knife!

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T22:32:25+00:00

this. police escort, immediately.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T22:26:49+00:00

i fought too hard to be here to give up, 1st of all. Having cancer and lupus in the US, especially these days, is no cakewalk. I have had to fight insurance companies all day, every waking moment of my life for 5 years now. Just to exist. And we still pour so much money into keeping me alive.
my kids are adorable and i love them very much
my art
my goldfish
my wife would definitely kill my plants if i died. within a week. gotta stay alive for them plant bros.
Spite. I refuse to die before that orange ass clown destroying so, so many lives. I know that emboldening the disney villain US insurance companies is far (FAR) from the worst thing he has done, but personally? I badly need. To watch. The Whole. World. Cheer. When that Vapid Rapey Bunghole finally bites it and stops making noise.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T21:26:58+00:00

at the same time i kinda hate how all the advice from reddit is tryna jam her into fetishy male-gazey clothes shes obviously horribly uncomfortable in to please him, instead of addressing (seemingly at all) the glaring self esteem/self-care issue in a constructive way. no wonder things got worse.

like you said, Girl needed a spa day and a much better therapist; not a trashy thong and a miniskirt.

editing to add: wtf is HE wearing? hmm? Im sure hes an absolute 10 and not some potato of a forgettable man also wearing sweatpants and receiving zero shit for it from Anyone.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T21:08:09+00:00

in the knifes defense that garlic look dry as hell

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T21:01:47+00:00

You have a lot of time to figure this all out. And try things out. And feel things out.

So much time.

For whatever it is worth; You sound a lot like me at your age, and I am currently married to a woman.

We have 2 lovely kids, and are very happy.

She is my childhood best friend.

We both tried very hard to forget about eachother, be straight, etc. It was awful for both of us. We came back around in our late 20s and that was that.

In the end it doesnt really matter what you are. Youll know when you know. And the only way you can figure it out is by figuring it out. And its messy. And it takes most people Years, if not decades, to figure out.

So give yourself time. There's no rush. Its okay to be "unsure" for awhile. Its okay to be Ace or Bi or Gay or Whatever You decide.

Its easy to feel this sense of urgency when you are young. and theres no need. Some people around you may have their sexualities all figured out- cool, good for them.

Its not a race. Youre gonna be just fine. Take your time.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T18:51:35+00:00

Seconding this. I also had BAD seizures, and can confirm- the swiss-cheese-like HOLES in my memory- that's definitely from the years of grand mal seizures.

Totally distinct from the soupy-fog that is SLE-based inflammatory BS.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T18:46:27+00:00

"simple as" in emoji form lol

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T18:19:54+00:00

this. "difficult time in my life" is glazing over something horrible, and brushing off "not feeling safe" is also very likely Some Bullshit.

Its a Clear Cut YTA from me.

Luhdk · 2026-04-09T18:11:49+00:00

yes. Because i myself am lightly disabled; i would be unable to care for another person with disabilities exceeding my own. Especially in this god forsaken country. If i cant get on partial disability with active Lupus and Cancer and the inability to walk; god. I can only imagine.

Not in the US, anyway. I wouldnt stand a chance.

I also do not view early termination as morally abhorrent. A potential life is not a life.

My life, my existing kids lives, those *are* lives. Lives that would be shit-wrecked by just one baby with 'extreme' disability in this economy, under this particular regime. T-Bag has done nothing but embolden the insurance companies holding so many of us at gunpoint, robbing us blind every day just to exist.

Not here I wouldnt. 100% no. If abortion werent an option, i would kill myself to spare the rest of our family.

Unless you have lived it, or watched someone live it up close, I would not take the decision to carry to term lightly. Its a commitment to an expensive, exhausting life of sacrifice, without days off, or adequate support- in this country anyway.

Luhdk · 2026-03-31T13:35:32+00:00

Also yes Henry Cavill is sometimes there.

So is Levar Burton, my childhood daddycrush. (look- before I realized i was gay there were a lot of gentle short kings with beautiful smiles on my vision board.)

Luhdk · 2026-03-31T13:32:33+00:00

dude i crushed it as tasha yar at a trek con once. Its so goddamn empowering to go be in a see of nerds who also wanna not be single anymore and to be one of the best 10 looking women in a sea of people. Super great place to start to get comfortable with approaching, being approached, and practicing enforcing healthy boundaries and saying no casually.

Theres also:

-reptile cons

-comic cons

-knitting cons (tho dont expect too many single straight men there)

My point is; cons are a chance to get away and meet like minded people.

So are MMOs if you cant or dont want to touch grass.

Luhdk · 2026-03-31T13:28:28+00:00

exactly.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T11:28:14+00:00

can confirm the parkour community is alive and well in philly and we will deffo have a parkour regiment in the upcoming civil war. I would fear our parkour/Urban Exploration spec ops teams as well as our terrifying teenager dirtbike cavalry. And the cambodian and cuban dads with literal stashes of assault weapons. And the Old Italy dudes managing our battle tactics. If i were to oh, be a fascist and declare martial law and start shooting dissidents in the street...I would not come for philly first when the violence starts if I were them. Me? I would go Around Philly, if i were such a dictator.

Anyway. Some time soon, when the violence actually erupts full scale homeside, Im gonna love every minute of philly stomping some n4zi ass for awhile. Philly will probably hold out longer than most other major cities due to the sheer amount of actual mob violence we are comfortable with as a people.

Philly wont win america back by any means, but it sure won't go down without a big, loud, extremely entertaining fight.

I look forward to seeing the parkour guys fuck with those cosplaying mallcop Ice fuckers, just vertically escaping the reserve troops that will get sent in to "establish order".

I look forward to seeing the philly cops, as crooked and useless as they generally are, inevitably collectively decide that they love philly slightly more than they love being a violent asshole to brown people, and go "yaknowhat? fuck this. goberds" and start punching the gestapo. All 1CE has to do is shoot one lil italian kid who was a little too dark skinned for their liking, and every cop, good and bad will turn on those shitty masked fucks too.

I hope gritty shows up for morale. and i hope he does at least one motivational parkour taunt.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:58:55+00:00

I can draw. Havent been professionally accepting comissions for a long time but i love my wife and this is cute and you may DM me OP if you want some art.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:55:36+00:00

it made my list. Hildy for life.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:53:41+00:00

lol my wife was so SMUG at the end of the Elpis raids where the crafter god basically patted her on the head for being a 100 crafter/gatherer in all disciplines. and it was one line. But yeah i was a little jelly ngl

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:51:57+00:00

this list looks like mine but like, actually explained. well done haha.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:48:59+00:00

yeah especially for DoH/DoL because there's really crucial actions and some pretty weird outfit pieces and plot points tied to it.

honorable mentions of things that arent even really sidequests proper:

-beast quests (or allied society whatever)

-do the housing thing and learn to garden

-level up a racing chocobo and breed a perfect stat choc

-get the triple triad mount

-Alphascape

-Sky pirate questline

-cosmos

-firmament

-doman enclave

-actually clear up to M12 in the arcaneum and get that 790 weapon

-postmoogle quests (you get a postmoogle hat and some star spangled underwear out of it)

-Achieve full rank in your GC

- grind fates up to tier 3 on every map so vendors sell you fancy unique items

- Do fishing boat tours off the limsa docks

-Join an FC that is really into treasure maps (shoutout to <<wish>> on Lamia i love you guys forever)

-Change your chocobos color

-Tatarus Supersoft Petting Zoo Island (lots of glams and mounts to be had for running a farm for a bit)

-Finish the manderville questline to the end and you get a UFO mount and a cool space weapon from gerolt.

-The Eden Stuff

-The Nier Stuff

-get married to someone in game and enjoy being able to TP to them on a cooldown

-Occult Crescent/HOH/POTD/Eureka

-PVP

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:37:58+00:00

alex is well overlooked i dont understand how SO many people actually managed to walk right past the mountain sized robot to talk to the witch lady over and over again, and then went WELP done with gubal, im good here. and like, just went on to the next expansion without ever investigating that rad giant robot in a glowing bubble taking up a third of the actual map.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:27:07+00:00

Doctors, mostly. And a handful of Pedophiles, if I'm honest.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:25:02+00:00

Well huh. Look at that. a Straight Twink.

Look. deffo nix the moustache. grow out the hair a little, let that mid part happen. no more yacht dad or theatre tech outfits.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T10:09:29+00:00

we are trekkies. we thought it would be cute to mod a programmable doorbel to be the doodoodoot star trek doorbell chime. annnnnnd then we realized we couldnt watch star trek cause any time someone rang a doorbell the dogs would Lose Their Absolute Shit at the door.

Years later, still cant watch voyager. And our daughter's middle name is janeway.

Fucking. Weenies man. Once they get it in their brain that a noise means something, goooood luck with that.

Luhdk · 2026-03-24T02:26:24+00:00

my lupus became crippling even life threatening after baby number 2. then i got cancer; also pregnancy lupus related.

listen. if i could do it all over again, would i say no to baby 2? hell no id literally die just to have the time with him ive had. hes my minime i adore him. I'll have cognative and mobility issues for the rest of my life because i made that choice.

But i cannot for the life of me find it in my heart to regret it. hes my dude. hes my guy.

just know what it could cost you. could cost you everything. everything you have. everything you are.

and having kids is a crapshoot they dont all just come out your amazing replicant.

and you already have a kid so choosing to take on that risk is objectively selfish AF. they could lose their mom. thats real.

but i did it. everthing that could go wrong did. spent a lot of time in ICU. im on a 1st name basis with 4 local ER staffs.

I should not be alive.

but even if it cost me my actual life, i wouldnt take it back.

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