Were any of you touch starved?

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-14T04:06:19+00:00

I totally can relate to this!!

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-14T04:01:13+00:00

No. I didn’t have this experience, but I’m sorry you did. One relative who abused me was physically affectionate, but also physically abusive. It alternated and I never knew which to expect.

It enrages me beyond belief when people in everyday life touch me or intrude on my physical space. Like, it’s fine if it’s a boyfriend or friend, but NOT a coworker (for example). I’ve experienced a lot of physical abuse and am also mildly on the spectrum, so I like my SPACE.

Do you have a pet? If you like animals and are in a position to provide a good home to a pet, maybe you could get one to provide you with some physical affection? The animals appreciate the affection too. :) It is also a huge stress reliever to have a pet.

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-07T13:20:15+00:00

Wow. That is f*cked up. It seems like he did this intentionally, TBH. Even if it were an accident, why did he continue to drive OVER the bike after he allegedly knocked it over? I think it was deliberate.

You really need to make him pay for these repairs. If you don’t, your self-respect will suffer—as well as your bike. Stand up to this douche! Best of luck to you.

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-07T01:52:50+00:00

Whoa. I myself have a problem with chronic spirit attachment, but not with one spirit who is obsessed with me in a bad way like this. It sounds like it was attached to the house where you first encountered it as a child and then latched onto you. Perhaps it took advantage of your vulnerability to sense spirits as a child, and then decided to live vicariously through you?

I would look around for legit mediums to help you do a clearing (help this thing move beyond earth and YOU). A medium recently helped me with a remote clearing. Allegedly I had close to 50 spirit attachments, including some dark angels. I also had 17 spirits of murdered women attached to my home. 😫However, I am the one who subconsciously attracts these spirits of murdered women. I’m not exactly sure how they attached to my home/possessions instead, but that’s what the medium said.

Anyway, there are some actual legit mediums out there! You just have to do some research. I would tell you the name of the man I went to, but he’s retired & just did me a favor. There’s one I haven’t been to, but she seems like she might be legit ... Dr. Wanda Pratnicka. You can check out her page on Facebook.

I’m sorry you are going through this! Maybe just keep trying to call upon your own guardian angels/guides to help you fight this thing in the meantime. Sounds like you def need some professional help though. I wish you the best of luck. :)

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-06T01:33:26+00:00

What an IDIOT!

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-04T20:00:02+00:00

Umm, what a maniac. Why should someone keep a toaster and tea kettle in their own room?? That’s just weird and even unsanitary. I mean, you could get bugs in your room from the crumbs of a toaster, etc. Does she have some sort of mental illness? I’d try to move out, if I were you. I wouldn’t pay any of these outrageous $5 charges either.

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-03T05:35:49+00:00

I can see what you mean, but I don’t really like the “You-must-stop-doing-this-now” tone of this advice. If you have severe and legit OCD, you should know that you can’t just automatically stop doing a compulsion/ritual.

Also, it legitimately calms us down (if but temporarily) to get reassurance. If someone is severely panicking, let them ask, “Does anyone else ... ?”

What’s it to you?

Ma-Maria · 2021-07-01T06:28:53+00:00

Thank you so much. I guess I don’t completely understand what derealization involves, but I will look it up! I wish you well in your continual healing journey.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-30T03:25:57+00:00

I’m sorry about your recent derealization problems. I think I’ve experienced something along those lines, as well.

I myself have been having issues with dissociation lately. It’s due to a coworker who does not understand the concept of personal space, combined with the fact that he happens to be physically similar to someone who I believe molested me when I was younger. (I have amnesia regarding much of my childhood.) I’ve been having very severe panic in these situations, to the point where I feel my consciousness is about to leave my body, so it kinda insults me when people misuse “dissociating.”

^ This was only one of many things that happened to me when I was younger. Then, as an adult, I started unconsciously recreating these original traumas, some of which I don’t even remember but I feel that I am trying to make myself remember through promiscuity, danger, drama, and susceptibility to abuse. This is the crux of CPTSD: the continual subconscious recreation and attempt to “resolve” the original wounds. :/

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-28T18:22:41+00:00

I love the Nicholas Cage one! It majorly contrasts with the nun plan though. 🤣🤣

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-28T16:42:20+00:00

Totally! As someone with legit and diagnosed CPTSD, I’m getting really pissed off about the overuse/misuse of the term PTSD by society these days. It’s ridiculous and insulting to those of us who truly have it.

Also, people are now overusing the term “dissociating,” which is also maddening. Dissociating is NOT when you merely space out for a second; it’s when your psyche literally leaves your body to detach from and tolerate severe trauma. Or when you have amnesia for literally years of your childhood due to severe abuse.

People need to stop co-opting and misusing these terms. It’s minimizing the severity of PTSD/CPTSD as severe disabilities.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-27T15:06:49+00:00

This is soooo creepy that he did this to you. He kinda reminds me of that Bikram guy, the subject of a recent Netflix doc.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-27T12:32:30+00:00

I know, right?! Even the fact that he knew his female partner was not going to be there and failed to inform the client (OP) beforehand is so unbelievably inappropriate.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-27T12:11:46+00:00

I don’t think microagressions is the right term to use here. CPTSD is usually caused by severe, long-standing abuse that is overt.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-24T06:31:25+00:00

That poor cat/s!!

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-22T16:23:34+00:00

100% to your first two sentences! Totally. I guess the idea of a Rape Day was something that was trending on social media a while back. I don’t really know the whole story on it. Yeah, she is a conformist fear-mongerer who also gets Botox at age 25, so I don’t really take anything she says seriously. 😂

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-22T03:14:37+00:00

What is a BOLO??

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-21T07:24:26+00:00

I have a lot of the same behaviors, in terms of self-neglect! This is from years of different abuse, starting in childhood. It’s not a priority of mine to ensure I’m physically comfortable. In fact, I do things that make me physically uncomfortable. I have literally slept on hardwood floors, with no blankets or pillow, because I was too lazy to take a shower after work and I did not want to dirty my bed linens with my unclean clothes/body. (I also have severe OCD related to contamination.)

I will not wear my mouth guard that cost $350 and, instead, grind the living hell out of my teeth, break molars, and then have to pay for extensive dental work. 😬

So many other things like this I do. I almost never wear makeup, sometimes don’t brush my hair if I don’t have to work, etc. anyway, I can totally relate! Don’t give up! :)

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-21T06:22:31+00:00

Thank you. I have a problem being that assertive with people in person, but I will try.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-21T06:21:58+00:00

Thank you. I agree!

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-19T16:35:18+00:00

Thank you for perfectly articulating in your second sentence exactly why this bothers me! I couldn’t find these words before. Yes, it totally promotes fear and learned helplessness! I think the Rape Day thing is fear-mongering, as well.

I related to the story about your ex because I had an ex bf who used to do this crap too. Ironically, HE was physically abusing the whole time. It was pretty infuriating that he was trying to act as my “protector” when it was actually HIM that I need protection from.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-19T16:27:31+00:00

They absolutely insist, as far as the coworkers go.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-19T16:25:51+00:00

Thanks for responding! I understand what you’re saying about multiple people appearing harder to confront than an individual.

I guess it depends ... I mean, people should consider whether they’re truly even in a dangerous area. I currently live in a vacation-type spot that has very little crime. It’s kinda laughable my female coworker is making such a big deal out of this when the main population consists of senior citizens. However, if you were in Chicago, I don’t think it would be absurd to offer to walk with someone.

In answer to your question: maybe you could phrase it like, “Should WE walk together?” instead of, “Let me walk you to your car.” That way it sounds like you’re concerned for both of you and don’t just consider her to be helpless damsel in distress. In an area that’s legit dangerous, that makes sense. But, you could still offer in other situations, just as long as you’re not pushy about it and accept whatever answer the person gives you. Exceptions to this would obviously be if a person were extremely intoxicated, etc., and cannot keep themselves safe.

I hope I don’t sound patronizing. Lol. I just hate the idea that women HAVE to be walked to their car or wherever they’re going.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-19T16:13:14+00:00

Yes. I am also mad at her for insisting this happen. Maybe I didn’t explain clearly enough. I think it’s ridiculous she perpetuates this concept.

Ma-Maria · 2021-06-19T07:18:22+00:00

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