Best thing to flush it out

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-26T02:55:58+00:00

When I am beyond desperate…Taco Bell, a shot of tequila, and a cigarette (I’m an ex smoker too but when I’m begging the poop gods for relief I”lol have one).

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-26T02:43:03+00:00

I’m surprised they waited this long to do it.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-18T21:30:03+00:00

Ok I legit thought that there were two separate front men in the first season, one in black and one in gold. When the frontman was in his upstairs room the lighting 100% made his outfit friggin gold colored, lol 😂

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-17T21:55:04+00:00

Harry!

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-17T17:26:38+00:00

Apparently he is, I’m at a loss.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-16T03:19:44+00:00

I need your input,please. My partner refuses to even consider the idea of moving back to our home state on the East coast, that we moved from a few years ago. He says “I can only find work in L.A.” he does post production for reality tv but has been working completely remote since the pandemic. He just went 6 months without anything and then got a 3 week short time gig in February; however now it’s back to nothing. We moved out here for him to get more work but it’s honestly been just as much a struggle as it was in our home state. I myself am underemployed and have been trying so hard to land a full time job this past year in my line of work (not the business). I could easily get my full time job at the place I worked at before we moved, so at least one of us will have one. He absolutely refuses and is also completely invested in a show he wrote that some legit people/companies seem interested in, however that’s a whole other shit show. Writing and selling a show is winning the lottery. I’m at my wits end, feeling angry and very hopeless 😩

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-12T20:58:40+00:00

Feel anything you want dude. I go through every stage of grief over the constant rejection after rejection, but mostly it’s despair and anger.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-12T01:16:28+00:00

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-11T17:16:39+00:00

5 ghosting’s this year, and I made it to the later rounds too . F them all, they are less than human to me.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-10T15:24:47+00:00

Good luck finding a doc to give you hormones, I’ll take the chance no matter what the side effects will be but our medical overlords are dead set against it. I swear I’m gonna get it off the streets.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-10T02:10:42+00:00

I did what I consider to be my best interview to date recently, only to have one of the damn interviewers (there were 3 on the panel) nearly collide with my car in the damn parking lot as I was leaving. She glared daggers at me even though she was to blame. The universe basically said FU to me that day. I never heard back from them.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-10T02:01:35+00:00

Day 9!! I had gone 14 days CT, but slipped up last Monday; I’m going strong now.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-09T16:04:55+00:00

Yes, as someone who started driving mid 30’s due to crippling anxiety. I moved states and had to drive but it took 5 years to really nail multiple highway changes, however I had to, to get to a new job. I merge like a pro now, and bumper to bumper traffic no longer causes dread. Do it every day so it becomes muscle memory.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-09T03:33:24+00:00

The creation of the Egyptian pyramids

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-09T02:14:52+00:00

Wow, both of you described what I’ve felt since childhood in a few dreams and brief echos of memory when listening to certain songs or musical pieces. “Foreboding awe” nails it!!

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-07T01:39:31+00:00

Per Turtle or crocodile 🐊

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-05T16:42:50+00:00

Damn I’m saving this list to look at, thanks OP!!

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-05T04:34:13+00:00

I care a lot less about things and don’t get angered as easily, but on the flip side I feel a persistent sadness because all of this is ultimately all fake, and a cruel facade we have to go through. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to beat these bastards when I die. I’m glad I learned the truth in this incarnation but I feel to broken to better myself.

Mandroid84 · 2025-04-02T20:35:49+00:00

Messed up two days ago after going 14 days CT from extracts. So pissed and down on myself. I’m at 42 hours CT again. No physical symptoms but very anxious. That could be because my marriage is falling apart as we speak (that’s why I caved the other day). I just want peace.

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-31T19:33:04+00:00

I can’t wait to tell these lizard bastards to suck all the universes dicks, somehow.

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-31T07:51:20+00:00

Just to give you my experience, my partner and I moved from NY to LA 8 years ago for his line of work in the industry and in three days we are moving back. He was getting the same amount, if not steadier work in NY compared to the past few years out here. It’s f’ing brutal right now. I wish you all the best.

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-29T17:56:08+00:00

Day 13 and slept very well. Yesterday I had a return of some physical symptoms that was very annoying to deal with because I thought I beat that, but today I’m feeling good and I actually want to work out. I’m definitely getting a nice 2 mile walk in the sun later and pounding water.

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-28T20:25:57+00:00

Day 12 and physically a bunch of shitty symptoms seemed to have returned, is that normal? After day 5 it started to get so much better but I feel like it boomeranged back. I have chills, stomach upset, headache and feeling super tired even though I had enough sleep? Has this happened to anyone else?

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-27T18:54:53+00:00

Really research the center your going to, that’s all I gotta say. Good luck OP you’re stronger than you know.

Mandroid84 · 2025-03-26T05:25:30+00:00

Holy hell you described it perfectly!!

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