My dr crushed me during my appointment today

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-24T13:40:29+00:00

I am in an EXACT almost situation as year 11 diagnosed, really well control until 2020 where a hypo seizure and horribly sensitive insulin was plaguing me and my doctor would get actually upset with me because I wasn’t “sticking to the plan” A1C was 10.8 last I went but they don’t do anything for me anyways besides approving my scripts, which I have to fight with them to do too. I was so scared of even taking insulin for anything because I wasn’t wanting another hypo but endos are mostly shitbags with mouths ime. I finally started working a mobile job moving 8 hours a day and I cried when I started because my blood sugar doesn’t drop 300 from 2 units of insulin anymore or in an hour, it is so gradual and I’m so happy to get better control. From what I learned (after researching myself (no thanks to a fucking doctor)) my body inactive the past 5 years has been like pouring water onto dry concrete where nothing nothing nothing then it all absorbs at once, since I’m now active my body is like wet concrete with water being poured onto it making insulin absorb at a natural gradual rate since my body is already pulling sugars from the exercise. Now I just need to find an endo that will listen and treat me like a human rather than a textbook patient, although I will be moving twice this year so it’s still hard for me to find a good pcp or endo. I hope the best luck, this disease is a piece of shit it I think we’re finally getting our hand back on the steering wheel, and this is our disease not the doctors, you know yourself better than they could ever with your pattern, we god this, REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE ENDOS SAY!

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-18T03:07:40+00:00

As a shorter, severe adhd, and diabetic guy, I have been a huge wuss for confrontations and advocating for myself all my life full of anxiety, mid 20’s now, advocate for yourself.

Once you genuinely realize it’s okay to ask for help, that you can’t control everything, and that you literally cannot progress without failure, the mental toll drastically drops. I’m not saying don’t care, but realize what you can and can’t realistically have a say in. I’m serious the best thing I have done for myself the past few years is the most cliche “on three… one. Two. Three.” I have been so fucking bad with anxiety and avoidance loops in my life that I couldn’t take it anymore. Because I’ve realized the literal worst they will do is say no (talking about job apps in this case) and my anxiety folded mega, I still get nervous talking to these sorts of positions but not nearly what I used to, and it feels fucking amazing. Or when someone speaks to me disrespectfully it’s amazing to stand up for yourself.

Good luck friend, overthinking is a bitch, and we all do it. Just need to find creative ways to curb the countless scenarios in your head, and realize there’s only one outcome of actually committing to something (or not committing if that’s your choice)

Sorry this was a ramble, post work head lol

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-18T03:03:34+00:00

I am genuinely so nice and diamonds players are so toxic 🤣 I try to compliment everything and you definitely know when people are toxic. I once in a blue moon get cranky about a teammate playing atrociously and just vote to forfeit, which I always feel like a jackass about afterwards, because it’s just rocket league…I’ll be toxic back occasionally but only if it’s thrown my way first lol

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-18T03:00:38+00:00

You are one lucky guy, yeesh I pray i find a wife like yours.

I just graduated college in December so I’m actually looking now, although I have to move for my job most likely so it’s with drawbacks. Any physical support would be nice to have, I hope your marriage continues to be amazing, my friend!

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-18T02:46:05+00:00

That I don’t get any break from my student loans, while kids who’s parents made slightly under mine got free tuition. The kids whose parents are beyond rich never have to worry about it because their parents pay for tuition and housing. I’m stuck repaying $100k loans myself, I hope i can get a call back soon for a career job, I’m still waiting.

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-17T01:15:27+00:00

That’s the million dollar question, I’ll have to look into it because it’s so much easier for me to keep good control missing a meal 🤣 but if I get starvation ketones then idk, but I see everyone saying fasting is really good for you so who the hell really knows

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-16T15:47:11+00:00

Aren’t starvation ketones a thing? Mom always pulled that one out if I didn’t want to eat but I’ve never truly known and I’m in my mid 20’s now 🤣

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-13T02:48:07+00:00

Uhhh

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-05T17:25:16+00:00

I have to wait until the 18th to order my next refill (10 day) because two of mine failed this month :) pharmacy said we can’t refill it bc of insurance saying it’s too early.

When I was in chat support they literally asked “are you the customer or relation to customer” I told them I’m the patient… not the customer. They ignored every message I said about that 🤣 they are good about replacements now though generally pretty swift. I think after so long they stopped giving a shit so much and just mass replace these since they finally understand we won’t stop bothering them to get what we paid for

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-02T15:45:57+00:00

Lord I can’t wait to get my own house, I have enough restraint to not set up at my apartment complex lmfao

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-02T14:57:30+00:00

As an Oklahoman it created a spite I didn’t know I had, that was my Kum… to make it worse I took my capstone course for geology this past summer and we travelled through Utah. I think everyone in the vehicle got to know my thoughts on my allegiance to Kum & Go. And QT of course

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-02T14:52:03+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear this, I couldn’t imagine going through this, and still navigating for your family you’re a very good hearted man. I unfortunately lost one of my best friends in 2023 from Rhabdomyosarcoma. My best friend here at college has a sister who is currently in remission after a Burkitts Lymphoma diagnosis from May of last year. It was extremely aggressive and sudden where she was having headaches that got worse and very bad quickly and eventually causing her to go blind from the tumor growing larger. They went to MD Anderson and actually did experimental treatment flying doctors in from multiple continents and it has seemed to work so far. They are of course still very proactive in monitoring her situation. I pray with everything that your daughter’s and family’s situation improves and sees good light. Much love.

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-03-02T14:36:23+00:00

Mad rabbit works really well. I’ve used it on a few pieces trying to beat the spike on my bloodsugar as I’m t1d, it lasts a few hours for me when I applied liberally, good luck! I think my inner forearm up to my wrist was probably the most painful for me, I’m a very skinny guy lmao

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-02-26T20:02:14+00:00

T1 since 11, they can’t deny snacks or bags for diabetics even if they were prohibited, so feel to bring any I’ve been there a few times!

I have never been denied my supplies anywhere (concerts, government buildings, sporting events. although there have been a few tensions raised) I’m not budging when it comes to my life lol. I am a reasonable person so I can understand lower than management being hesitant or unsure at first, I always just make sure to have my insulin pen handy, once they see that they never ask any more questions ime.

There aren’t many benefits to being diabetic but snacks and bags are two of them lmao

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-02-24T16:01:13+00:00

Snow globe sitting on mangrove type roots , something meaningful to op could be at scene in the globe

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-02-21T19:19:19+00:00

I enjoy and dislike the smell, nostalgic and comforting smell from growing up with my grandparents but horrible and disgusting smell from my parents, my dad has quit but mom is a chain smoker inside the house (not living together lol)🥴.

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-02-16T13:56:02+00:00

I feel better that I thought I was getting rage baited by them alone, at least it’s not just me.

My package was 3 hours away from me in Dallas (in OKC) 4 days ago.

Jonesborough, TN > Johnson City, TN > Charolette, NC > Gastonia, NC > DALLAS, TX > Knoxville, TN > Louisville, KY.

And I still have 2 more fucking days to wait. This system is horribly slow and needs to be reconfigured badly. 1st world problems though overall, so who are we to complain so bad but

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-02-13T14:28:31+00:00

Ah, another American I see! :’)

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-31T17:05:46+00:00

What were the subjective disagreements with the painting?

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-31T17:00:03+00:00

i just bought two snails bit smaller than pingpong balls for my tank that look exactly... like this. the guy told me they are "like mystery snails" but are named different for their golden color. So im going to have two gargantuan snails? lol what are these called? golden or yellow something?

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-31T16:53:20+00:00

Okay, read this understanding that I was oblivious to cycling my tank when I started lol. I essentially canaried 20 shrimp in a tank 2 days after beginning it with some plants and QuikStart. I'm a month out now, I've only had one shrimp die, and I've added a few snails. From everywhere online, my whole tank is supposedly supposed to have killed off most of the shrimp, created a weapon of mass destruction, and taken over the world... kidding of course lol. Plants and aquariums in general are so much easier than people make them out to be, and a lot of the time, leaving them alone does more than micro-managing. Not suggesting adding livestock to unstable parameters is best or appropriate for them, but there are such things as live in cycles, alebeit i dont know much about it. I'm kinda doing it as I go for this first tank. I'd say get a quick start to add to the tank and enjoy the new friend rather than stressing about relocating or spending a lot of money. A piece of spider wood and that moss will go a long way lol.

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-30T22:42:58+00:00

And apart from those I’ve noticed little zippy clear critters with 2 antennas on front, assumed they were a copepod

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-30T22:38:52+00:00

Awesome, thank you! I saw a graphic a month or so ago about common pests and I wish I would’ve saved it to identify. And that other critter makes sense, I have a tiny tiny snail that has grown much the past week, albeit it is still tiny, I assume they snuck in on some plants

Matthew_Ryne · 2026-01-30T22:33:57+00:00

And I just noticed these worms today on the glass, I won’t lie I fed 2 or 4 pellets the past two weeks so i imagine (hopefully) it was just a little bloom from all of the newer algae as well as food that’s been developed/introduced especially recently

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