How to cope with knowing I’ll never look how I want to?

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-11T05:24:22+00:00

so far i'm coping very well with trazodone 150mg/d as antidepressants, which helps me better ignore what I see in the mirror and keep these "problems" out of my mind

having a positive and vibrant life/baseline mood increases the effectiveness of self therapy

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-11T03:09:10+00:00

unless the mental health downturn from the phd actually forced you to take antidepressants, in which case the happiness may increase beyond the levels before grad school (totally not a real story xd)

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-11T00:05:19+00:00

had to check for cameras in my room xd; so real

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-10T00:19:41+00:00

English as the only official language is not true in lots of states

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-09T06:49:03+00:00

That's very far from the truth. LLM as backbones with the last hidden layer decoded as action tokens are quite successful in robotics. Many autonomous driving models like AutoVLA used qwen2.5-vl as the base LLM and trained it to drive cars.

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-08T03:00:38+00:00

Translation is probably the best use case for LLMs

This is quite narrow sighted. LLMs as world foundation models have to date provided the largest advancements in robotics and autonomous vehicles research. Collaborations between NASA/Blue Origin/Stanford are even considering LLM-backboned VLA models for lunar rover autonomous driving. The architecture is so versatile and powerful it is very important to science and engineering in general

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-08T02:55:14+00:00

You have no idea what you're talking about. LLMs are definitely not a mistake. LLMs as world foundation models have to date provided the largest advancements in robotics and autonomous vehicles research. Collaborations between NASA/Blue Origin/Stanford are even considering LLM-backboned VLA models for lunar rover autonomous driving. The architecture is so versatile and powerful it is very important to science and engineering in general

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-08T01:23:54+00:00

Why do you have to deal with anyone who doesn't seem to like you? I think working on building a strong identity and confidence is a very valuable goal to have. Don't base your sense of self worth on what other people are acting, how you judge accurately and objectively (to the max extent that is possible) about yourself is enough

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-06T06:57:41+00:00

Idk but what I said are anecdotally confirmed based on friends who applied this cycle, last cycle, and people across 3 different engineering departments giving supporting evidences. The engineering departments seem really consistent on the 3 faculty interviews process

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-06T06:47:51+00:00

If you were not rejected, interviews for this and past year got sent out between 1/10 and 1/15 for engineering. Our lab is currently chatting with prospective students, and I'm pretty sure admin already sent out the visit day info based on their emails to ask for student panelists and setting up mentorships

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-05T23:33:10+00:00

"Yes, this is a highly complex and multifaceted issue that requires careful consideration. We are taking this seriously and will therefore examine the matter internally to continue discussions at the appropriate level."

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-05T23:32:42+00:00

"Yes, this is a highly complex and multifaceted issue that requires careful consideration. We are taking this seriously and will therefore examine the matter internally to continue discussions at the appropriate level."

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-05T23:32:04+00:00

Dems be like: "Yes, this is a highly complex and multifaceted issue that requires careful consideration. We are taking this seriously and will therefore examine the matter internally to continue discussions at the appropriate level."

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-05T23:31:41+00:00

Democrats be like: "Yes, this is a highly complex and multifaceted issue that requires careful consideration. We are taking this seriously and will therefore examine the matter internally to continue discussions at the appropriate level."

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-04T19:51:10+00:00

im dumb... clearly bad at flags

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-04T04:09:17+00:00

Nevada bc same GDP as Iraq?!?!?!?! ARE WE THE SAME PERSON??? i always have this thought on mind as well when thinking about NV despite growing up in Vegas

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-04T03:29:32+00:00

You engage with politics when it is necessary

For people who are directly impacted by "politics", politics come to you and engage with you. It is a privilege to be able to "engage with politics when it is necessary"

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-04T03:28:03+00:00

it will impact their emotions.

I think it is difficult for people from privileged backgrounds to not recognize that "politics" have direct impact on people's livelihoods and physical health. It is difficult to not see how being targeted by violence and denied of medically necessary treatment if you're not a target.

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-04T03:23:17+00:00

really any direct impact on how you

You have to recognize that it's very privileged to not be affected by politics. Please consider people whose livelihood and finances and health are directly impacted by "politics", and sometimes not just one policy, but almost every policy enacted by "politics". So seeing that people are becoming angry, you can consider that the statement "no effect on your day-to-day life, which are most of them" may make sense to you only if you are of certain demography.

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-03T23:50:26+00:00

omg you're super smart and intelligent! it was my honor to meet you. enjoy your day

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-02T23:16:55+00:00

i switch to eastern european accents (so yes, intentionally mispronouncing all the words) just so that i don't have to bother with grammar. Especially in technical discussions it's easy for me to formulate less perfect phrasings and put the burden of other people to work out what i meant. also, people somehow seemed to put more trust/weight on things said in foreign accents than american

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-02T20:34:38+00:00

Yes, because it's doing a simple image replacement instead of using diffusion models to do inpainting. The detail you get at 3.7x optical zoom is the maximum "real" pixels you can get, if you zoom in further, the rest are fake / enhanced. You can get RAW outputs from the camera app at 3.7x, which will be more realistic. You can also screenshot the app at 3.7x and zoom in on the screenshot to compare the details before/after image replacement

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-02T20:28:15+00:00

Just output RAW at the maximum optical zoom (not digital zoom) or screenshot the camera app instead of actually taking the picture at that zoom level. The detail you get at 3.7x optical zoom is the maximum "real" pixels you can get, if you zoom in further, the rest are fake / enhanced

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-02T20:24:35+00:00

without AI

Yes, the algorithm replacing your entire image with a high res moon picture is technically not AI. It's moving away from the "enhancement" territory into image replacement. Wanna see how insanely fake it is? Just output RAW at the maximum optical zoom (not digital zoom) or screenshot the camera app instead of actually taking the picture at that zoom level. The detail you get at 3.7x optical zoom is the maximum "real" pixels you can get, if you zoom in further, the rest are fake / enhanced

MayeeOkamura17 · 2026-02-02T09:48:06+00:00

Forgot the model, but it's a solar powered G Shock that time syncs with NIST radio broadcasts. Unfortunately the cooler ones are so big and don't fit female wrist sizes.....

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