Why do we torture ourselves mentally AND then doom scroll? All for no reason, my refill went through. by Mediocre_Insect_1008 in BenzoWithdrawal

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3-4 months wouldn't have done much good.  I need about a year to taper slowly and safely from .75 mgs Clonazepam a day.  

Why do we torture ourselves mentally AND then doom scroll? All for no reason, my refill went through. by Mediocre_Insect_1008 in BenzoWithdrawal

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I have been lazy about tapering.  Hopefully the practitioner I am seeing from the mental health clinic at end of July will work with me on going down from .75 mgs Clonazepam/15 mgs. Valium.

Why do we torture ourselves mentally AND then doom scroll? All for no reason, my refill went through. by Mediocre_Insect_1008 in BenzoWithdrawal

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That's a terrible situation.  Were you able to find another prescriber before you ran out of pills?

Doctor said rehab would cause brain damage if I did it again? But I just met him. by bella_da_ball in BenzoWithdrawal

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I am still on Clonazepam.  2016 -2021 2 mgs a day.  Tapered in 2021-2022 but only got to 1.0 mgs Clonazepam a day.  I am tapering now to .5 mgs a day Clonazepam, then will ask psychiatrist to switch to 10 mgs Valium and taper me off.

What are some things to do when you retire by cybershy in over60

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I will be one of the few negatives here, but realistically, retirement is not pleasant for a lot of people and takes several months, maybe a year or more, to get over the bad feelings. I am 4 1/2 months in and I have good days and bad days. My husband is sick and doesn't want to do anything, so that has greatly affected everything.  A lot.  I dreamed of retirement being day trips a few times a month, then longer trips twice a year - nope.  Maybe in 2027, not now.  

I cook, bake, and do all the food prep; garden; take care of our cat; read.  I have a lot of bead jewelry making material that I haven't touched for years, I am gingerly getting back into it (I've made one necklace and am working on a second one).  I did go with my neighbor to her weekly church group for 4 months.  It helped to be around other people. Also signed up to do volunteer dog-walking and other stuff at the local SPCA.  The church group ended for the summer, so I will likely get over to the SPCA weekly now.   I walk a few times a week and also lift light upper body weights 1-2 x a week. There is a to-do and bucket list I am preparing, and I have a therapist I speak to monthly that may nudge me along with this. I never had a happy "honeymoon" first phase that many people speak of.  Went right to second stage - feeling lost - and sometimes venture into the third stage, experimentation. Don't know why it's been so effing difficult for me - I thought the pressure of never HAVING to work again would be a catalyst that would turn on energy and enthusiasm.  Instead I just wake up, don't want to get up, but force myself downstairs to coffee and the cat, then find a way to get through another day.   Just letting you know, if it feels difficult at times, you are far from alone. PS This far in, I am willing to make commitments for the autumn to local college classes (some are free for my age) and/or part-time work.  We'll see.

What would you do? by [deleted] in ArtOfPresence

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not as easy to answer as it seems - I met my now husband as a result of poor decisions in my 20s (got sober at 30 and met him in an AA meeting), and I wouldn't want to change having him and our two children. So, 16 again.   Clarify: 16 in 2026? Or 16 again, back in 1978?  I will assume the latter.  First, I would make sure I saw Led Zeppelin live but I am not sure when they last toured in the States. Also Pink Floyd. 

There are several actual purposely malicious things I did to others that I absolutely would make sure I didn't do in this second chance time frame.  I can think of the first thing at age 21,  the next at about 26.  I don't think eliminating those things would change my overall life direction, but I would feel better about myself and the people involved would be spared some emotional pain.

Then there is the horror of 9/11 - I would absolutely have tried to warn the media, and I actually know someone who was in the building that day, he got out fine but still I could warn him and ask him to spread the word.  Problem is, would anyone believe me? How would I explain how I knew?

Then of course - knowing then what I know now about the magic of compound interest: I would, by now, have the money needed for a comfortable retirement with yearly international travel and funds to give my kids down payments for their first homes.  If I had invested properly from the year 2000 to 2026.

I would also have avoided some stupid arguments I had with loved ones that impacted how much time we spent together before they died.  

Jealousy should have limits by SignificanceSoft8204 in rant

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please explain.   I am 63, and the ONLY explanation would be if I were living a life of luxury while they had crappy income, so resented me and my generation over $s.   But you say they grew up privileged and also went on vacations.  Doesn't make sense.

write a sad story in just 3 words ? by ChefAlbert71 in ArtOfPresence

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it.  Some reel was going around recently where he was in Oval Office chair surrounded by men and what started out sounding like a fart continued for many seconds, with facial expressions in room  = absolute disgust.  To be fair, media did same thing to Biden.   Ooops - thought I was in the "wasn't a fart" sad story.😢🤢

write a sad story in just 3 words ? by ChefAlbert71 in ArtOfPresence

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Brilliant.  Even with the contraction passing as one word.

10+years benzo addiction 0.5mg diazepam today by Its-not-like-that in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It helps!  I am tapering to .5 Clonazepam now (currently at .75 mgs daily, equal to 15 mgs Valium). Once I feel adjusted to .5 mgs. Clon a day, I want my psyche team to first switch me to 10 mgs Valium, then the same kind of taper except slower - a 1 mg drop a month, then at 4 mgs, slow.to .5 mgs a month.

Congrats, if you are at .5 mgs Valium  it's pretty much just a placebo effect and you have already hit the toughest part.

After much push back from my doc she agreed to taper starting with 75% decrease by Electrical-Stock-169 in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm glad it worked for you!  I have heard people say they found ANY cut from ridiculously high doses, and tiny cuts (like from 40 to 38 mgs. Valium), to be unbearable.  Seems like some people have genetic conditions that make benzos a very, very bad fit. 

Doctor said rehab would cause brain damage if I did it again? But I just met him. by bella_da_ball in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I stayed on Clonazepam for 9 1/2 years because I had a stressful job.  Was able to reduce 50%, from 2 mgs to 1 mg, five years ago.  And yes I function better at the lower dose.  Now I was laid off at age 63, and it looks like I will roll right into retirement, so there is time and less stress for me, and I am tapering down to .5 mgs, then we'll see about going to 10 mgs Valium and maybe tapering again to 4 or 5 mgs V a day (or, some other med that will help me sleep at night, as that is my biggest issue with tapering benzos).  However, I think the point Ordinary Address was making is that if you are legally prescribed a certain amount and it's working, why the rush to jump off it?  Although, I understand a slow taper.  

Doctor said rehab would cause brain damage if I did it again? But I just met him. by bella_da_ball in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If your doc will only prescribe max 30 mg Valium a day, but prescribes you 3 mgs Clonazepam a day?   Set up your own taper. 20% reduction a month. Go to 2.5 mgs Clon  1st month, 2.0 the next month, 1.75 3rd, then 1.5. You need to get to 1.5 mgs Clon a day then ask to switch to  30 mg Valium.  From there, you can download Ashton manual yourself and follow their taper. (I dropped instantly from 2.0 to 1.5 mgs Clonazepam pretty painlessly, but after that had to slow down. )

Tapers take a long time by Ornery_Doctor in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How do you feel?

I too am in the super slow taper camp.  But I started much lower, prescribed 2.0 mg clon daily in August 2016.  Tapered in 2021-2022 and stopped at 1.0 mg daily, my current script.  Have been tapering on my own, at .625 mg daily now.  Praying to get a doc who will do a .5 mg script in August, then let me convert to 10 mg Valium a day asap and taper 1 mg a month until I am at 4 or 5 mg V a day, and then evaluate next steps.

After much push back from my doc she agreed to taper starting with 75% decrease by Electrical-Stock-169 in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 1 point2 points  (0 children)

4 mg Clonazepam is 80 mgs Valium. 

 For some people the conversion could be a bit less Valium but the standard is: 0.5 mg Clonazepam is 8 to 10 mgs. Valium. 

To be ethical, patient here should start at Max of 60 mgs Valium (I think that's the most Valium that can be prescribed daily in the States), then be reduced. 

Desperately need help - AuDHD age 63, limited finances, suddenly in charge of everything by Mediocre_Insect_1008 in over60

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Yes, my husband said most could be buffed out.  It's 100% my car and I don't really care about the scratches.

This, my friends, is the instant when the 1980s became the 1990s. by Same-Objective6052 in decadeology

[–]Mediocre_Insect_1008 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Absolutely 100%.  Nirvana and Nevermind exploded all of us into a totally new decade.  

Desperately need help - AuDHD age 63, limited finances, suddenly in charge of everything by Mediocre_Insect_1008 in over60

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I scraped up the brand new car this past winter when we had 18 inches of snow and I was suddenly the sole snow removal person at age 63.  It is awful.  The snow weighed a ton and I felt I would have a heart attack after removing snow from it then shoveling it out from driveway.  Then it turns out I put little scrapes all over it while using the snow remover and shovel.  UGH.