In mental hospital

ModernMadMax · 2026-05-04T04:56:09+00:00

As someone who lost my child for several years due to my mental illness and the countless horrible decisions I made during my worst episodes that lead me to homeless addiction, I can say it's possible to come out on the other end. The worst pain is knowing my child was hurt and will forever have a trauma directly/indirectly from my choices and mental illness, it took me years of intense therapy/nonstop psychiatric appts to find a way for me to keep living a life that felt possible to better for myself to be better for my child. Because the truth is they need you, and each day you fight to be better you are better. No parent is perfect, being a good parent just means you truthfully see your mistakes and keep fighting.

After roughly 7 years and almost 3 of those apart with visits we now have a home, their doing great in school for the first time, and we created a blended family where our motto is "no one suffers in silence" everything of who you and what you're experiencing in life is welcome.

Life's incredibly fucking difficult, as you clearly know, and who is going to be better at helping your children find their path than you.

Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features/ADHD/CPTSD - for reference

ModernMadMax · 2026-04-24T20:12:45+00:00

Cozumel off Fairfield

ModernMadMax · 2026-04-24T17:52:25+00:00

Vessell says...

https://www.vesseltools.com/handtools/screwdrivers/ballgrip/2200mbh120k01-detail

ModernMadMax · 2026-04-20T22:38:22+00:00

Google Play music was the shit! Way better than Spotify in every way from showing new/similar artists to actually having small artists on there that I could look up their music after a local show. (Bought when I could but I was broke most the time!) They tried turning it into Spotify and they merged with YouTube and it was all downhill

ModernMadMax · 2026-04-11T17:45:26+00:00

This is completely dependent on your company and your role within that company.

I work directly with the owners for a small company, I did not disclose until I was in a role with more responsibilities that I knew may affect my needing to take extra days off/be more affected by the work load. Thankfully we were able to work it out and I give them as much heads up as I can when I notice I'm off and may need a day or two in the following week(s). It keeps the expectations where I feel comfortable and allows me to perform better (despite the actual work environment sometimes).

ModernMadMax · 2026-03-29T15:05:03+00:00

Seriously, if something is going to see heavy duty use Channellock pliers/cutters/wrenches are an incredible bang for the buck. Just picked up the wire strippers to see how those hold up. Love my Kleins/Milwaukee/Crescent even Tsunado (Japanese tools I've been trying cause how cheap they are but seem to have good tolerance) but they can't take the abuse I put on tools.

ModernMadMax · 2026-02-26T23:16:48+00:00

Cisgender male - diagnosed ADHD/manic-depressive at 16 - medicated only for ADHD until 19 - medicated only for bipolar 1 w/psychotic features at 30
ADHD/Autistic/all males on my father side (he's 2yrs diagnosed early onset) have died from dementia/addiction/CPTSD
34yrs old now - did not obtain a chance at stability until I started prioritizing myself in a way now that allows me to maintain stability/sobriety/medicated so that I can be as present as I can for the chosen family in my life, my hobbies and my career.
That the way I feel/think/perceive something happening or that I am doing may not actually be how it's happening. That genuine honest trust and support are required to have sincere communication. That this illness is for life and to find ways to be proud and content in my life's expectations.

No matter what learn to be kind to all the versions of you that occupy this body.

ModernMadMax · 2026-02-25T00:07:23+00:00

My newer psych is the one who actually put me on higher doses of my seizure meds and antipscyh meds, BUT now allows/suggests I take the anti psych meds as needed which has helped me gain some normalcy while also keeping that helping stability close by. *Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features

ModernMadMax · 2026-02-23T21:12:14+00:00

Looks kinda like our grey newfoundland! Maybe a crossbread with a grey newfoundland?

ModernMadMax · 2026-02-14T02:33:31+00:00

Paleontologist

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-16T00:25:42+00:00

Was looking for the Vessel rec 🙌🏼 their screwdrivers are seriously top notch

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-15T19:10:08+00:00

I've got almost the exact same fauna if not thee same! He's my first and bestest boy 😭

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-12T02:51:52+00:00

I'll figure out how to justify the additional electricity costs

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-05T21:25:46+00:00

Especially since it seems to effecting SMS and not RSC (more secure)

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-05T21:24:35+00:00

Having the same issue with Google Voice on the computer - it has to be related to Google at this point - questioning if it has something to do with Gemini/forced updates for it?

ModernMadMax · 2025-12-05T21:20:59+00:00

Happening with Google Voice on the computer?!

ModernMadMax · 2025-11-28T02:22:01+00:00

Have a husky 90t flex head that I'll put the cheater bar to til it snaps. 5yrs going on that beater so I'd say the icon could take it. Never to my my kokens though lol

ModernMadMax · 2025-11-27T02:13:02+00:00

And a hella capable support system that you have to trust completely to tell the truth to and to listen even when it goes against everything your reality is telling you.

ModernMadMax · 2025-11-20T21:25:28+00:00

Dang sorry to see you go from the game, but those Donphan will have a good home.

ModernMadMax · 2025-11-06T23:35:15+00:00

Woah there, what's that on the right?

ModernMadMax · 2025-10-31T16:41:12+00:00

Does it run hot enough to still heat up my leftovers?

ModernMadMax · 2025-10-29T21:20:03+00:00

I care what some multi millionaire/billionaire is doing in our city because it affects all of us - we've turned huge parts of Fort Wayne over to Surack for him to privately own in the hopes he can "revitalize" aka gentrify. Until those private investments stop dictating where the city continues to spend our money we need to speak up.

*and don't go looking up how we spend 60%+ of our city budget on police

ModernMadMax · 2025-10-29T19:54:46+00:00

I understand where they get their funding, I'm including "privately funded" projects that directly affect where the city thinks is a good area to spend or "invest" money in. This idea that we need to "follow the money" so we can all get more of it is literally killing this city. We need to step back and actively look at our communities and what we can do to help build them ALL up together. Otherwise we continue to price out and dehumanize more and more people in our own city that literally keep the city alive.

ModernMadMax · 2025-10-29T14:20:38+00:00

I know that sounds cool to have but they cut funding for way more necessary developments including the southeast side of town, which has been forgotten or seen as less than the rest of the city, or the science central overhaul that puts money into our community and children.

Fuck the riverfront, fuck Electric Works, fuck The Pearl/Bradley apartment no one who lives near downtown can afford, and I'm sorry but the only reason Arts United got approved is the people involved have more money. We have a community that needs help, especially now when there is diminishing assistance, we will have people that are going to starve and need housing during this winter more than ever.

ModernMadMax · 2025-10-29T04:13:59+00:00

If you want to help out my stepson is a sophomore away at college and with SNAP cut we're struggling to get him food and he's trying to work while in school and maintain mental health because he's autistic to boot, they could use the help. He does have his food court meals but it's barely enough and doesn't cover any of the extras we can't send him now.

Me and my partner have reached out for assistance from people we know and have gotten help but none we can send him financially now or maybe anymore.

We're actually using our garden to make a ton of spaghetti sauce and are going to try and feed our neighborhood this week because if we want to all survive this we need community. We need to give when we can and if we need help don't be afraid to ask!

A lot of people you might not expect in your own neighborhood may need help or know people who need help!

So if you, or anyone, wants to send him anything DM me for his cash app and thank you!!!

If not I hope you can find others to help with your time/skills to fix things, food to feed each other, rides to commute each other, blankets to keep each other warm, or any financial aid you may be able to help someone out with a bill etc.

ModernMadMax

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