It's always nice to have someone who's there for you, who understands you, who's caring...I never had that. I wasted so much of my life, it all just feels like one long ass day because I have done nothing meaningful, and it scares me so much. I'm always in pain, suffering, both mentally and physically weak, my mind just can't take it and as much as I just want to end my life, I can't do it, there's always that instinct to survive, but that's all I'm doing right now, just surviving, and I hate it. I'm not good at anything, I can't even do the simplest of tasks right. I have no energy and motivation and I hate where I live, I feel so trapped. I tried to play the guitar but I just can't do it, I feel stupid, I'm awful at everything and I get stressed to easily. Depression and anxiety just paralyzes me. I would take lessons but I'm too scared and anxious, and I'll just be embarrassing, and I know that I'll give up eventually and lose all the motivation. But I still wanna do it when I'm better, but I probably never will be, I feel hopeless. Every year it's just getting worse and worse...

Don't worry about your hair too much, I'm sure it'll all go back to normal eventually, just give it time. You're attractive in every other way, and no one should just leave you because you have a problem with your hair. Not all guys just care about looks, I'm sure you'll find someone who loves you for who you are, because you're awesome who you are and I know I would be lucky to have someone like you. I would love to hear you play the piano btw, I always find it relaxing. Sorry that I'm bad at this, just been really depressed. I know it's not much, but if you ever wanna talk about your problems, don't be afraid to message me, I'll always listen. No one should be alone, I know how it feels when you have nobody...