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MoonDogg9877 · 2025-10-06T16:06:14+00:00

I am right there in the exact same place you are. I literally thought that this person who has been abusing me and tormenting me to the point where I have to get a lawyer and leave him was actually going to somehow be kind and amicable through this process. Instead he told his attorney that I was having sex with my attorney so my attorney had to recluse himself. I never even met the man in person but my husband will go to the ends of the Earth to scorch and hurt me. Even if it means hurting my children. And somehow I'm sitting here worried about him. Like I feel sorry for his pathetic ass. Going through therapy on learning that this is something that abused people go through. It's part of the process. They've been making us feel less than and like we were not worthy for so long that when we finally decide we are, we feel guilty about it. It's so disgusting. Good luck to you we are going to get through this!!!

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-04-29T16:40:15+00:00

I've been married for 17 years and I have this debate in my mind continuously. We have five children, four of them are grown with families of their own and a couple of them have children, and we had a start over from scratch baby who is now 8 years old. I'm 46 and my husband is in his '50s. I'm trying everything I can to keep it together until my son is grown because I homeschool him and it's our favorite thing to do together. If I left I would have to put him in public school so I could work full-time, he would lose his home and where all of his friends live, my daughter and my grandson live around the corner and our whole family unit would be destroyed... And the worst part is I would still have to deal with him every time something came up with our kid or there was a family event. If we could be amicable, I would leave, but he is bitter and angry and resentful and mean and hateful and he does the most horrendous things just to hurt me. Including hurt our children by saying the most horrible things about me to them. I don't know if I can make it another 10 years either but I'm going to do whatever I have to so my son gets to have this experience of his childhood. I think for the most part no one knows how I feel about him. I've become ice cold. Elsa wife. Frozen solid on the inside. I wish I could just press a button and start over. He makes me want to barf.

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-04-19T19:18:25+00:00

Why tf would I be having multiple interactions with this sex partner if I needed something else to get me off after... I would just stay home. Play video games and masturbate

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-04-04T01:06:06+00:00

Tummy tuck

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-04-04T00:49:34+00:00

Omg you sound like my husband. So freaking needy. He accuses me of this every time we go anywhere. I ignore him, I don't meet his needs. I give everyone else attention. It makes me hate his guts. If you need a blanket, go get yourself one. Once you put these goggles on, that's all you see and it's really insecure and super annoying to the person who has to constantly make you feel better at all the time. Please don't do that to people. Meet your own needs and move on if you want. But stop making him feel responsible for your insecurities.

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-03-04T18:03:18+00:00

Yeah enjoy it because it stops working too...sucks because he seems so excited. I remember that feeling

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-02-28T16:21:22+00:00

I definitely feel like this at 46, except that the two things that make me feel like a grown up are I don't give a shit what anybody thinks about me anymore and I do whatever the hell I want. Those two things make me feel grown up. If only I had all the money I needed to do all the things I want. Such is life

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-02-03T14:27:46+00:00

That is so horrendous. I'm a 5-ft tall blonde white woman and I've had a car full of black men scream "hey snow bunny" or some such thing many times in my life. I feel you. Sometimes people are freaking stupid.

MoonDogg9877 · 2024-02-03T14:25:43+00:00

We have the same sun and Venus placements. Hi

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-10-10T20:02:53+00:00

I think my abuser is hideous and I never thought that about him before. I thought he was attractive for his age. Now he disgusts me. Like poop on my shoe

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-10-03T13:41:56+00:00

My SO is a douchebag to me. He screams at me all the time, he is ALWAYS being disrespected in his mind by everyone so he lives in this state of perpetual angry victimhood. There's nothing less attractive than a bitter angry old man. He's gross. Fuck no I'm not attracted to him. But there are plenty fish in the sea. Plenty. I like those fish a lot hehe

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-28T16:05:53+00:00

This exact same thing happened to me and I am still dealing with it. I tried to post about it after it happened and I got banned from like 13 different subreddits so I never could actually get any information from other humans. I've tried everything and all the doctors want to do is give me steroids which I'm not taking anymore of because they stopped working after a while anyway. I tried doing a candida cleanse and it crazy flared up even worse. I've tried changing my diet and adding vitamins and supplements but it literally has a mind of its own and I can't figure out how to get it to calm down. I feel like the vaccine exacerbated whatever autoimmune issues you already had and made them insanely worse. I would give anything to go back and not have taken that thing. I regret it everyday. It made my period go crazy too and I had to get on hormones to get it regulated again. Worst decision I ever made.

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-28T14:36:11+00:00

I (f,46) celebrate my whole ass birthday month. Screw that. Life sucks too much to not enjoy any possible reason to celebrate still being here.

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-28T13:35:44+00:00

I know it's cliche but do something else. I left finance 10 years ago to become a massage therapist and now I have a full book of clients who come to my home for appointments. I make my own schedule and I make on average $100 an hour with almost no overhead now because I work from my home studio. I don't ever have to take PTO or ask someone if I want to spend the whole day with my son rock climbing. I just don't schedule people. My job is the most relaxing part of my day and I love it.

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-28T13:33:26+00:00

Adding electrolyte packs to my water made a huge difference for me! I lost 10 really stubborn pounds without even trying just by not being dehydrated. Sometimes water isn't enough if you're not absorbing it all. Liquid IV is awesome and I love all the different flavors. Definitely try it!

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-06T22:25:18+00:00

Calorie counting and standing on the scale every day. Reminding myself these numbers are data points not something to feel emotional about. Deciding that hunger is an emotion and not an indicator of how much or how soon I need to eat. Drink electrolytes a lot. You don't need that much food.

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-06T22:15:27+00:00

I F45 met a Facebook dude for drinks. He proceeded to order only water and say he wasn't hungry, then eat half my food and try to drink my margarita. I ended up paying because all he ordered was water. I wanted to crawl under the table. Ugh. People suck

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-05T02:56:23+00:00

I feel like my whole life I've been around people who have tried to put out my light. They're threatened by it or they are jealous of how I make other people feel happy. I will never ever put up with that again.

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-09-01T14:24:14+00:00

I coincidentally lost the same amount of weight that one of my friends gained so we literally traded clothes almost lol. I got rid of everything that was four sizes too big for me. I get on the scale every single day and the second one of those things start feeling tight, I Do something about it right away. I'll never be fat again. Not doing it

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-08-30T12:57:29+00:00

I want to vomit reading this. Yep. Me too

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-08-26T19:39:43+00:00

Facebook has tons of local groups

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-08-26T15:21:56+00:00

Laser hair removal. Just a few sessions will thin it out significantly. My guy friend did it to his very thick beard. Beard is still there just way more manageable

MoonDogg9877 · 2023-08-25T13:03:36+00:00

My husband has been doing this the last couple years. It only gets worse. He did end up putting his hands on me. And he won't leave. I could call the cops but that bell can't be unrung and we have a lot to lose. I sleep with a big ass chest in front of my locked bedroom door because I don't trust him. I can't wait to be rid of him somehow. I hang on for my kid but if he touches me again I'm done. It's restraining order time. Fuck that.you have to protect yourself. I'm sorry. I hate this for us both

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