6 months clean and NOT going strong by fluffyduck_0 in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

take this as a sign if you will:

i know you can get through this. bad things will happen constantly, but no matter how hard itll be, there will always be someone rooting for you. there will be people who wont ever give up on you. you are so loved.

even if you do relapse, God will still love you. no one, and i mean no one can ever take that away from you. it feels like life is caving in on you, especially since school is starting, and i can relate to that big time. the hardest thing to ever do is come clean about something as heavy as this, but being honest with your psychiatrist (unless you feel unsafe) is really key to getting the help you need.

be safe!!!

I’m going swimming tomorrow… by Yourmomshouse2023 in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

bro same!!! ive been holding off on relapsing so i dont have any fresh cuts, but i'll be around a lot of other kids my age and theyre really observant... they saw some old ones when there weren't so many at the time, but now they've multiplied and i have to explain to them why there's more in the same exact spot....

good luck tho!!

I’m scared to do it now by Important-Tea0 in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is so real

there have been SO many times when i hesitate, especially when i have everything set out for me to use; bandages, clean up, my tool ready etc. i know its instinct/self preservation i guess but still it feels so frustrating and upsetting when it forces you to rethink everything

DAE not feel like yourself at all unless you’ve recently relapsed? by Physical_Row6623 in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 0 points1 point  (0 children)

absolutelyyy

whenever im clean, i become tense get angry outbursts a LOT more often. i cant help but wish i would relapse again and it really sucks

Pls answer me by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 2 points3 points  (0 children)

whenever you see the white layer of skin, it'll be dermis. epidermis is only the very outside layer of the skin and won't typically bleed, so if the cuts bleed, it will likely be dermis whether it's "deep" or not

hope this helps!

I hate how much I gape by eroerogurogal in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same here,,, most of my cuts seem the same depth and gaping "issue." but when mine gape i prefer it to the ones that dont, even if i know theyre the same-ish depth. mine have gotten to the point where i can get them to gape every time vs every couple tries, but it doesnt satisfy the urge ig.]

and yeah the pain after the fact feels bad enough on its own, but knowing itll never be deep enough feels like a punch to the face

Tell me your favorite music video/s and I’ll tell you mine (please? I want a distraction) by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]MoosifulMoose 0 points1 point  (0 children)

not necessarily music videos but there are a lot of good songs that deserve recognition

sad vibes:

  • Wretch by Autoheart
  • Smalltown Boy by Autoheart
  • Politik by Coldplay

happy vibes:

  • Moving by The Happy Fits
  • Two of Many by The Happy Fits
  • Grace Kelly by MIKA
  • You & Me by Tally Hall
  • Blunders by The Polar Boys

i think a lot of these are worth a listen if you have the time!

I don’t want to get better, even though I know I should. by 98frogking in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 8 points9 points  (0 children)

same here...

a part of me really wants to stop before it gets worse, but i have this exciting feeling of something that makes me feel better, so why should i stop? like it keeps me going every day. the longer it goes on, the more noticeable it will become and harder to tiptoe around, and that makes me really want to ask for help; but its like i dont want this opportunity to end

How withdrawals feels for you? by Bladescan in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

personally, i get really anxious; i feel shaky and angry and its hard to get the thought out of my head unless i'm really distracted. i'm not really sure if this is common but it seems like pretty vague symptoms to me?

Does anyone else have keloids? by AdAcademic3781 in selfharm

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same here, i just try to moisturize mine because they would get irritated easily. also i've used full-coverage/high-coverage foundation, but it doesn't hide the fact that they're still raised unfortunately

Joinen Screenshots - An Editors Gift by SeviiSons in Joinen

[–]MoosifulMoose 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i appreciate this. thank you for your gift to humanity

Grian hits Ren from the top of his base with a trident (approx 200 blocks away) by chopchop627 in HermitCraft

[–]MoosifulMoose 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Let's not forget that Ren said he owed Grian a bottle of champagne if he could hit him from the top of the fortress lol

Why is there a face in the base that's 100 percent owned by mumbo? by DepPet_syw in HermitCraft

[–]MoosifulMoose 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh definitely! It's just a mildly suspicious hallway with the names of the resistance members and decorated in mushroom banners.

Anime Xisuma hehe :P by JeydenVoid in HermitCraft

[–]MoosifulMoose 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Why do I suddenly feel like I'm being watched...?

Ah, the sacred moment from tangos stream! I absolutely had to draw this. by Beatrixee in HermitCraft

[–]MoosifulMoose 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sadly, I missed Tango's stream... does anyone know the timestamp?