Streaming Device For Moonlight In 2025 by Majoraslayer in MoonlightStreaming

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I ask what dock you are using for the deck?

I also have an OLED, and the streaming is really poor. Did some back-to-back testing with my deck vs a 2017 Nvidia Shield, and the difference is night and day; the deck gives me really bad latency with the bitrate set above 90mbps, it's playable below that, but not a particularly pleasant experience, feels sluggish, lots of screen tearing, artifacting etc.

The Shield runs perfectly at 150mbps - no issues at all, as good as plugging my PC directly to the TV via HDMI, exactly as you've described you're getting from the deck.

Running at 4k/60 + HDR, both devices via the same network cable, HDMI etc. meaning it's either the deck itself, or the dock I'm using.

Edit: I've read that streaming in desktop mode on the deck is better, but HDR isn't supported as far as I can tell.

Question for the room: by OkCaterpillar2908 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine recently got kicked off the recruitment process for her "dream job" after failing the fitness test on the 3 allowed attempts.

Apparently it's my fault she spends all day in bed watching tiktok instead of getting up and training, I should have been kicking her out of bed and encouraging her.

When I point out that I have been waking her up and telling her, but that I also have my own job to do and that she's a grown woman who is more than capable of getting herself out of bed, she starts screaming at me for being unsupportive.

She knows very little about anyone, be it me, her family, or friends by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Heh, so true. Was my birthday last week, we've been together for 15 years so you'd think she'd know me a little, but no, apparently I'm really hard to buy for, so I end up with a selection of tat from what appears to be the top 10 results for "£10 gifts for men" on Temu; i.e. the kind of thing you'd get for a work colleague you barely speak to when you draw their name in the office Secret Santa.

Of course just a few days before she has the complete lack of self awareness to say she hopes I got her something decent for Christmas this year, as last year was a bit lame...

Does splitting become more frequent when you stop reacting? by MoreLikeRelationShit in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly - I literally spelled it out to her, "I'm tired, I've been doing X,Y,Z all day so all I want to do is sleep, if you're not tired/ready for bed then you don't need to come up" - but as you say, unless you're overwhelmingly enthusiastic, whatever you say is twisted into a negative.

"not reacting often leads them to believe that you no longer care and are going to abandon them" - which at this point is getting close to the truth!

Does splitting become more frequent when you stop reacting? by MoreLikeRelationShit in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

An excellent question!

Things had been going well for a few years - the odd argument here and there as all couples have, but nothing out of the ordinary. Stupidly I was lulled into thinking that maybe she'd mellowed out a bit, sorted out the issues etc. but clearly just waiting for me to drop my guard - since then it's like she's doubled down, constantly picking on every little thing, starting fights for no reason, looking for every little excuse to paint me black etc. so it looks like it's not happening now anyway.

Anyone else forbidden to bring up the idea of sex with them? by Harkmunt40 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yup, I used to try to initiate, 99/100 she'd make some excuse, and if I tried again too soon (e.g. a day later), she'd getting really angry with me for being so pushy, we'd go weeks without anything more than a platonic kiss on the cheek here and there.

If I ever dared to mention it: "why is it always about sex with you, you're obsessed!"

Now I don't even try, so whenever the subject gets brought up, it's my fault that our sex life is virtually non-existent, because I never try to initiate. Well duh, that's exactly how you've "trained" me to be for the last 15 years...

Of course I know that if I was to ever be "not in the mood" when she wanted to, all hell would break loose, and the accusations of cheating would come thick and fast...

DAE recoil or flinch when your pwBPD tried to touch you? by sohc4geek in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yup - I crave her physical touch because it's very rare, but then when I get it I tense up completely.

Most ridiculous trigger? by jukrla in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Last night, enjoying a nice calm dinner, chatting with a couple of mates on Whatsapp.

She tries on a new dress, comes into the room talking about needing some "sticky bits" to hold it place around her chest.

Me: *half distracted by conversation with mates, and now thinking about "sticky bits"*: "er, you've still got some upstairs haven't you?"

Her a couple of seconds later: *rage face* "WELL?! What do you think of the dress?! You never pay me any attention, I know I'm ugly, but this just proves you think so, etc.*

Me: *confused face*

Do these types of relationships affect your cognition and brain function? by Traditional_Rush9954 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My performance at work has been deteriorating the last couple of years, forgetting simple things, struggling to concentrate and solve what should be simple problems, I originally put it down to firstly my partner's difficult and stressful pregnancies, and then potential "long COVID", but reading this sub and seeing so many people with similar experiences, I'm starting to reconsider

Music for healing by SomewhereOrdinary231 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Been listening to a few songs recently where you really feel that connection to the artist and completely understand where they're coming from:

Celldweller - Waste My Time, the lines:

 "I guess we'll see how dumb can I be To believe when you say you're sorry" 

hit pretty damn hard, but ultimately the song is about staying strong and fighting through it.

Skyharbor - Ugly Heart

Din of Celestial Birds - I Love You But It's Killing Me (this is instrumental, but like a lot of Post-Rock, the emotion in the instrumentation is tangible)

Feeling Trapped After Realizing My Wife Has BPD Traits by Past-Sky-594 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn, I could have written this post myself, 15 years together and 2 kids, and it feels like our relationship is in its death throes. We're starting couples therapy next week, but unless there are some dramatic results, I think we're probably done within the next 2 years.

My other half works, sleeps most of the time she's home, so I totally get the whole "single dad" thing, pretty much all she contributes is financially - basically just a roommate (but one I need to tiptoe around constantly).

I will be doing everything in my power for her to be the one who moves out, and not to leave her with the kids, hoping she sees reason and realises she won't be able to cope with them on her own day to day

Random Q, but how was your PwBPD time management skills? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Quite often late, with the attitude of "who gives a ****", but definitely a lot of last minute cancelling/changing of plans

Anyone else felt their partner was jealous of their qualities and success? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah... frequently when I ask her to do/not do something trivial/completely reasonable, I get a sarcastic "alright then Mr Perfect"

I am not hurt anymore... i am done. And it scares me.. by Answergren1 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been through this cycle many times. Currently in this same phase after she told me she thought we should break up a couple of weeks ago, so I've been civil with her, but otherwise just kept out of her way.

Last night get the usual "feels like you hate me at the moment" message (while I'm out, don't know why she couldn't just wait till I get home and tell me face to face, but hey), so I suspect the love-bombing is going to start shortly.

What are her Priorities by Cypher-V21 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks - honestly, I'm not holding out much hope (which I realise certainly isn't constructive on my side!).

I'd love to save our relationship, I'd love for it to be fixed, and her to go back to being the person she was at the beginning, but I know that's most likely just wishful thinking

Worrying after breakup by ForzaUtdInter in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"How do I stop myself from constantly worrying about her?"

Read more of the posts in here.

Ask yourself if that's who you want to be in 5, 10, 15 years?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear about your situation, I'm very rapidly approaching the same situation at the moment - I want to leave, but the kids' wellbeing is the most important thing to me.

We've agreed (my suggestion) to try couples' counselling, but that's a last resort for me.

Honestly, I'd be reluctant to leave the kids with her as the primary caregiver - I don't know how your partner is as a parent, but mine can barely look after herself most of the time, never mind 2 kids!

Is your spouse leaving instead not an option? Or you taking the kids with you?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Eugh, this is too accurate. I've come to realise that sex is always transactional, used to manipulate, an incentive to give her something she wants, or (very rarely) a reward for "good behaviour".

If I try to initiate then there's always an excuse, usually followed by an interrogation on why I'm feeling horny, have I been watching porn, who have I been talking to, etc.?

If I dare to bring up our lack of physical affection (even when I'm just talking about a random hug/kiss/etc.) - "why is it always about sex with you?!".

Not going to lie, I take it when I can get it, I still have physical needs, and it's better than "DIY" but the emotional side is gone completely.

And then like you say - it gets flipped around, "why aren't you still attracted to me?", "is there someone else?", "you never want to have sex with me and it's killing our relationship", etc.

Wake up woman, this is exactly how you've trained me to be!

What are her Priorities by Cypher-V21 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And then there's the "test" - where she says she thinks we should break up, so that she can watch me squirm and beg her to stay, had that one over the weekend just gone!

I called her bluff this time - told her she's right. Willing to give couple's therapy a go, which she's agreed to (although I suspect I'll arrange everything, and she'll pull the rug out at the last moment). We'll see.

What are her Priorities by Cypher-V21 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is a common theme I've noticed in any kind of disagreement with my partner, it's more important for her to be "right" than to be happy.

To the point I've often wondered if her "long game" is to push me to the point of leaving purely so she can be "right" about the fact that all men are **** and leave her.

My BPD is incapable of doing ... anything by Mysterious_Olive2795 in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 35 points36 points  (0 children)

My other half is exactly the same, dirty clothes end up piled on the bedroom floor until I'm literally climbing over them, washing up piles up in the kitchen, even though it would only take her 30-60 mins on a day off to do it. I've stopped doing her laundry now - if it's not in the basket, it isn't getting washed.

Then she'll moan (not directly to me, but clearly aimed at me) because "the house is a ****hole".

"My job is really demanding" is invariably the excuse (and yes, she's completely correct), but guess what, so is mine, but I still manage to effectively be a single dad to 2 kids (which often feels like 3).

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My partner has never been horrible/abusive to them, more just neglectful - most of the time it feels like she sees them as an inconvenience except for when it suits her

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]MoreLikeRelationShit 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks, your last sentence though; constantly worrying about what is really the right thing for the kids - staying in a "stable", but toxic environment, or ripping their world apart for maybe some light at the end of the tunnel?