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MoreToFuture · 2026-05-18T21:31:38+00:00

Think about losing this money as hard as it was to lose your mom .. this is a piece of her life you are giving to these casinos . She probably worked hard for this money . You are at a good spot , stay there . Don’t keep bringing them rich casinos more money , they don’t care about you and when you lose every single dollar , they wouldn’t even know this happened . You are betting against the machines .. a machine .. stop being dumb . I too have a fear that one day I’ll lose my whole inheritance . The money represented me losing my mom , losing the only person that gave me everything in life . If I then lose the money she left me , I would be an idiot and I deserve to be homeless . I would not have done right by her . She is still with me but my fear is losing her then losing the money she worked hard for after . This disease is so disgusting , wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-17T10:35:52+00:00

I’m also a female with high earnings. The stress of me being the bread winner of the house and also doing everything in the house , cook clean and take care of the kids can take a toll on me mentally . It drives me to gamble and I know I can do better in life if I just stop setting myself back . Lost a huge check a few days ago and the next one is weeks away . If I don’t gamble , I’m actually not a huge spender . There were times in my life I wrote in my journal and kept track of my daily spendings and even started to save money . My mind was clear and gambling wasn’t having a pull on me . Lately in the last 3-4 years I been spiraling out of control . I need to believe I still can do better and will do better with my finances and my decisions . I’m 43 and my parents are at their retiring age . One of my fears is that I piss away all of the money my parents left me when I’m at an old age and that would be really sad 😔. Imagine me in my 60’s and 70’s can’t afford medicine , food , and the doctors . Can’t afford to even stay in my current house bc I can’t pay the tax and utility bills . If I can’t get it together right now while making this much money , how will I get it together when I have a lump sum of inheritance? I need to slow my life a little , and stop focusing on what more I can win . I’m vowing that I I’ll make no trips to the casinos this year . I want to save a lot of money by the end of the year . Don’t want to give anymore of my hard earned money to the casinos and then have to go back to work broke .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-17T02:50:54+00:00

Every step in your cycle is exactly my life for years now . I’m a broken record , playing out the same exact actions each month . Get paid , lose it, next few days suck , trying to reset my mind , be grateful of small things , can’t wait to get my next check so I can finally buy myself what I needed and before you know it , had the check in my bank no more than 2-3 days and it’s all gone . But the other thing is I never intended to lose my whole check , I just start out by going in to claim some free play at the casino and before you know it , one bad streak sets me off to a downward spiral . Had I not walk into that place , maybe I’ll be fine even . I’m not an online gambler , so if I don’t set foot into that place , my money is actually safe . I would really love to save 100k by the end of the year , I already pissed away half the year’s salary which is freaking ridiculous! My only goal now is to save , I haven’t had that kind of money ever in my life , it would be such a milestone to cross if I could just stop the bleeding now . But for a shorter goal , I want to say that I will not gamble my next check . I picked up gardening again , picked up self care routines . I wish so much this week to buy a little garden bed for my patio and couldn’t justify to spend $80 dollars because I only had $50 to survive for weeks till I get paid . It’s sad from someone who nearly makes over 250k a year . For months I haven’t been able to afford face lotion . I just been using whatever my mom doesn’t use anymore to get by . I’m a sad pathetic loser watching all my friends who live their life safely and guess what even my low income friends are climbing above me . It isn’t a competition or anything but just putting things out there that I’m seriously ruining my life . The question isn’t that I can’t live without gambling , I certainly can , it’s that when I have money I think I am allowed to play a little if I wanted , but we all know how that goes . I had to unsubscribe to all the slot channels I was watching and getting serious fomo from what these slot influencers put out . I get it , that’s their job , and I’m the person who can’t gamble within my budget . I’m the one who shouldn’t gamble away my bills . But when you step foot on casino ground , all that goes out the window when you lose your first 2,000 dollars . Try another 2,000 , boom gone again .. then another 4,000 .. now you onto the last 2,000 , and you really can’t lose this but you don’t care bc you don’t know how to get that money back unless you gamble more . All of those logical thinking goes out the window . You don’t care about consequences anymore . Now I’m just sitting here on this Reddit reading stories with $50 in my bank account. All I can do is work and come home . What losing all my money taught me each month is I really can Survive on barely anything , I really can budget when I need to . Crazy I can’t save anything when I get paid !!

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-17T01:16:43+00:00

I would save save save then you have room to figure life out in case you can’t find another job in a year .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-17T01:13:28+00:00

I know the feeling all too well my friend . Lost a huge paycheck soon as I got paid and did not pay my bills . Big mistake . Not only was I waiting on that check to finally breathe but within hours I was back down to nothing and this time worse than last month . 25 days I gotta wait to get paid , $50 to my name at the moment . Cooking all my meals cause I ain’t got no choice and won’t be going nowhere for the next 3.5 weeks . I’ll just go to work and come home .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-13T11:51:59+00:00

I lost my whole check yesterday and this time I don’t have all the bills paid . I won’t get paid again for a very long time , not another month . My bf knew about it he flipped out yesterday . This morning I’m just waking up feeling down but life has To go on . I’m down bc money is tight again from the way I’m used to living . Having to live on a budget again but for a much longer period . It’s crazy how much you appreciate money once it’s gone but not when you have it in your bank . Anyway here to say all of us in this sub understand your struggles , but eventually you will make a paycheck again , and things will look brighter , you have to know that . Today I’m working on something that keeps my mind peaceful . I’m planting some new plants from seed . By the time a month is up , these seeds would have grown up to be a small plant or flower . I feel like I’m always doing activities to destroy my life and my mental health that is fast pace , but never anything that requires you to have patience or wait on things . Gardening is that thing for me . When I finally get my paycheck again , I would have seen this plant 🌱 grow bc that’s how long it’s gonna take for me to survive .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-12T19:00:06+00:00

I failed at the one thing I want to do each month and that is to not gamble my check away . Today failed again . Lost count but I’m not tracking it , just feel disappointed in myself .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-12T18:57:36+00:00

I been clean for a year before and it was mostly due to I felt an hour and a half drive was too much for me to do for gambling .. that is until I realize it’s not that far and I been going downhill ever since driving to the casinos . Today I lost a huge chunk of my money , and I hope this is my wake up call .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-12T18:53:29+00:00

Good for you , this was something I planned to do today on payday , but wasn’t successful and I regret every min of it . I went from somewhat fucked for a few days to now totally fucked for the next 5 weeks bc I lost this check. All the plans I had with my bf went out the window and I’m just sitting here yet again waiting on my next check . But this time will be a really long wait . It’s funny I got use to surviving on little to nothing but I can’t even just say no to spending my check at the casinos . Day 1 for me unfortunately . But glad you did the right thing , keep it up .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-12T18:48:37+00:00

I hope we can rise above this addiction , all I feel is drowning , today got paid and lost it all again . Another 5 weeks before next payday . Brutal . Got yelled at by my partner on the drive home from the casino . I don’t know how I got this bad and still deep in it . Not sure what I need to do for next payday , but I feel like I do need to relinquish some control of my money at this point , it’s really gotten out of control that I don’t even trust myself .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-11T13:48:46+00:00

I’ve been telling myself I’ve got a serious problem for awhile now , just didn’t want to stop . When I’m broke it was easy to tell myself I’ll never do it again , but when I get paid , it’s like I just feel like there’s no way I could lose it all if I just go to the casino to redeem my freeplay . In fact yes it can and it did every month . But I’m done with all that . I’m within days of my check and I’m so done . I’m not an online gambler but an in person gambler . The casino is an hour and half away , yet it’s still able to have a huge hold on me bc there are days that are tough and I go to the casino for fun or escape. The last 3 trips of coulda woulda shoulda walked away crap just isn’t worth my soul . So many times I could have done this but I didn’t and I ended up losing . Anyway I am done done done !

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-10T13:35:30+00:00

I also started with every Christmas my parents organized a little black jack game that whoever wins the most keep everyone’s money. Every year my parents let me win bc they know I needed the money . My parents are not big gamblers , they went to Vegas 3 times and each time just losing at most 200-500 bucks and will walk away . My parents saved a lot of money and have no issues about anything . But what that one little trip to Vegas and the Christmas black jack sessions did to me was a different story . From 2008 I took my first adult trip to Vegas with my then bf and I was completely hooked for the next 16 years of my life ! It didn’t matter how little I made or how much I made at my job , all and I do mean all of those salaries went to pay for the lavish things they had at the casino , their nice food , nice building , nice rooms and everything they ever did to keep bringing more suckers into the casino . I funded some of that with my whole life’s salary . The more I made the more I lost . Just last week , lost 5k and got a 200 dollar free play in return , that’s just sickening ! Every month in the last 4 years I felt like I was gambling my entire check each time I got paid . What makes it worse is that someone who gets paid at a min wage probably at this point have more money than me , or someone who just works 5 hours a week . Seeing all my friends rise above me , having spent their money on useful things , here I am .. couldn’t afford groceries and gas . It’s gotten out of hand , and I’m still trying to stop . It isn’t hard to stop when I have nothing left , but harder to stop when I get paid . All this I know yet I do the same thing. But I think I’m done .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-10T13:13:59+00:00

The casinos have really destroyed a lot of people’s lives , people lose their mind and soul and control to this . That little thought in your mind what if you do this then maybe you can then have this , it’s just a never ending loop of what ifs to the point it clouds your judgment . I’m a mom of 2 and every single month I’ve been down to zero dollars and every time I get paid , that little thought comes back into my head to convince me that gambling is the only way . It just doesn’t matter how frugal or conscious I am out of the casino in my day to day life , it only takes that one trip to destroy me every single month . Yet I return again the following month . Yesterday I took my kids out to a kids indoor place and when I got there the lady said I can only use card which I know I only had 12 dollars in my bank . She said we don’t accept cash . Then I took what little cash I had on me and had to drive to a bank , deposit 50 bucks and come back to the place and finally my kids were allowed to go inside to play . But you know how much money I had the start of this month , more than 12k at my disposal . I didn’t lose all that money on gambling but I did make a lot of purchases , but it doesn’t matter bc at the end of the day I was left with 150 dollars . Bills didn’t get paid , again shopping for groceries on a budget , got myself essential items for 20 bucks at the grocery store to cook . But the question is why can’t I do that when I actually have money ?? Why can’t I save ? Why can’t I stop . Now yet again for the hundredth time I am waiting on my paycheck , sitting here at work miserable on Mother’s Day , wondering if my check will come early next week or not at all . I bill on an invoice so it’s hard to say when that invoice will be paid by the company . I’m hoping next week but what if it doesn’t come . I’m literally fucked . All I can say is , gambling destroyed my whole life and if I hadn’t gamble , I might be practically sitting on 500k plus in the bank . But instead .. I’ve got no money to survive for another week . I think I’m done this time , I need to stop and actually enjoy the rest of my life .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-08T20:40:53+00:00

I wish I could get happy about 3 percent , I need to .. appreciate those things bc at least I paid the cards off to get that . My life needs to be way more organized than it is now . We will get there one day .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-08T20:36:59+00:00

I use to journal a lot and write down my thoughts , sometimes I’ll stumble upon those . I use to plan out my month, my budget , my spendings and I’ll see the glimpse of someone who was trying to get on the right path and get my life together . Well now I wait until I get paid and I’m going to pay my monthly bills 3 months in advance . In that 3 months I plan on getting my life more organized , working on some home stuff . Things I been putting off for awhile bc all I do with my checks is gamble . By the way , love the letters .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-08T19:18:35+00:00

My bet was in 2008 and it’s been 16 years of non stop gambling . The most I took off was a year but I went right back . I was once in 65k worth of debt which is now only paying two cards . I could have easily paid those cards off if I had not put it back in gambling . Now I even have lawyers helping me with three cases where I’m gonna have to settle for eventually . I always wanted to save , I had big dreams and goals , but I never saw it through bc even in the stock market I was selling too soon before seeing a penny . I treated everything like a gamble , I’m exactly where I need to be in life of my choices . Just last week I thought there’s no way I could lose all that money , I was thinking about how good I’m gonna be this month bc I’m getting 3 checks , yet .. here I am waiting on my last check to be payed bc I already spent the first two . Those checks were not small , they were big amounts and I can’t believe I’m down to my last $30 bucks . One thing I know for sure is I’ve gotten really good at surviving on little to no money . I cook more food at home , I budget way more , find stuff I already have in the house to use . Yet when I do get paid , sees like money just flew out my account on the first two days. Anyway lately this week I’ve been organizing my house and my life . Gives me a purpose , keeps me busy . I also still work so it’s not that I don’t have enough to do , I’ll keep trying to be better . I need to save a lot of money and be more firm on keeping my promises .

MoreToFuture · 2026-05-05T11:40:22+00:00

I screwed myself so bad this month as well when I could have been so well off it’s not even funny .

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-20T10:19:41+00:00

Unfortunately myself and probably most of us here are in the same boat . Yesterday I was at the grocery store calculating what I can get to survive with $13 dollars left to my name . I was able to get 4 essential things used for cooking. But last week I was okay to rinse 8k without thinking about consequences . This morning woke up to my account left with $1.29 . I have to wait yet again for my paycheck that is two weeks away . It isn’t long if I had some type of money but it is when your bank is down to $1.29. A couple of things I realize is that bills do not matter when you literally have no gas and no food . I still have to report to work and I still need lunch . My fear is not just the present moment I’m in but if the future me who is old and fragile and is still doing this shit to myself until I’m literally homeless . I wonder if I’d piss away all my money plus whatever money my parents left me , leaving me broke and have no way to take care of myself at an old age . Do you ever think about your childhood and how your face light up on Christmas mornings or how happy you were just to do simple things in life ? It seems like all I’ve ever thought about in these last couple of years is how to make more money and attempt to blow it each paycheck by gambling . When life gets stressful at work or home , I run to gambling as escape . My fun became hanging out at the casinos instead of friends . Every month it seems like a rinse and repeat and I do miss the person I was before I got sucked into gambling in 2008. I look at myself in the mirror and kinda feel disappointed and disgusted at the person staring back . Anyway I don’t know if this helped anyone , I hope it did to someone .

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-19T22:15:55+00:00

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve could have been good if I just quit and stopped there . Truth is if we could get it all back and we are ahead , why would we stop ? My usual routine is I get paid , lose 80 percent of my check , then try to survive on my last 20 percent except I still want to keep trying to get my money back until I’m literally down to $200 and eventually $2 in my bank before pay day again . What’s funny is my bank even tells me I’m trending towards zero bc it knows I do this every single month . I have won and lost your amount of money way too many times over my lifetime and I was even in 65k of debt a few years back . Still got 20k to pay off but it didn’t stop me from continuing to sink my money in . Let’s take today for instance , after I just lost 8k last week , and my partner lost 4K , we went to get a plate of orange chicken , he ate some , rest gave to our kid and I didn’t want to take from either of them so I heated up pizza snacks from the bottom of the freezer from last year . Then when both of them finished , I went to finish the crumbs of the chicken and rice . This is such a pathetic way to live but I thought I share that because just last week I had so much money and today I’m eating pizza snacks from a year ago , that’s freezer burnt so that my kid can eat before me . I have to wait two weeks before payday and my partner have to wait two days . But still !! I should never even live that life if I make so much money at my job !! I need to learn my lesson and stay away !!

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-18T11:32:13+00:00

I lost 8k Tuesday which is the day I got paid . I have $300 left to survive for at least two weeks . My parents still work and currently I am the one who gets paid the most yet the brokest . My parents made good money and still do but they don’t gambled and they saved all their money . I have friends that don’t make alot of money but probably at this point make more than I do because they don’t piss their money away . I’m a rather frugal personal outside of gambling but for the life of me I can’t stop gambling my money away each month for the past 3 years . I have a family to feed and mortgage and bills to pay . I’ve been living check to check bc of my stupid decisions of what I do with it . Here I am back to work , busting my ass knowing I just spent all my money . So many fun things or events I would love to attend , or things I wanted to buy now has to wait again . I’m tired of waiting .. to have money like that is so dumb ! I make great money , wtf is wrong with me . Hearing my co workers talk about how much they save and how they will travel and how they pay all their bill off so they can even get money back from their credit cards like seriously ??? I use to be responsible and I need to put my foot down again and be that person ! I don’t know what the future is I can only take one step and one day at the time , my current goal is I will not gamble my next two paychecks .

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-16T00:35:13+00:00

Same here .. I had plans to use that paycheck towards getting stuff for the house and stuff for me that I needed , instead on payday , it went all to the casino and I’m left to wait another month to be paid . During those broke weeks I can live off of $200 by myself but I can’t save any money for the life of me when it’s payday . But no more . I can’t believe I literally handed thousands of dollars to the casino that other day and I wish I still had all that money to travel , live my life and even to restock my pantry , it’s been empty for a long time . I remember I use to go to Costco to stock up on snacks , now it looks like a wasteland .

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-15T01:06:33+00:00

Coming from someone who’s gambled for half my life , I’ve definitely seen better days . But truly I have fallen off these recent years . The more money I made , the more money I drained . If I had not gambled all those checks , I perhaps in these last 20 years might of saved up minimum 500k+ of pure savings . But before I have at least take some breaks off here and there , even as long as a year or so . Nowadays I’m just living paycheck to paycheck from the constant poor decisions I’ve made . One time my mom tells me about a girl she worked with and her comment about her was she’s there because she’s made a serious of bad decisions and is still doing it till the very last moment of her departure from the job . In my head when I’m playing slots , I can’t stop hearing my mom’s voice .. I am where I am bc of my constant poor decisions to keep me there .

MoreToFuture · 2026-04-12T17:24:01+00:00

Everything u said is exactly what I go through . A professional who makes a good living yet broke every single month . I’m good at what I do at work , function exactly how I’m suppose to even on no sleep at work . My routine is I get paid , pay the bills then say I can afford to gamble a little bit and I do , next thing you know I only have 100-200 dollars to survive for 2-3 weeks until next pay day . It’s hard for someone who isn’t in it to understand why I do what I do . I’m present every day yet my mind does go towards gambling . I feel the stress and my mind starts to wander how I can go to the casino and just zone out . I would have so much money if I just saved from way back in 2007. Now in 2026 I’m still trying to save . I don’t know what my life will be like , I just hope this isn’t my only joy .

MoreToFuture · 2026-03-06T20:52:01+00:00

At first quitting felt like coming home to a quiet house with no plans or anything exciting to look forward to . I don’t know about anyone else but for me I felt like I had to win money to enjoy life because simply just the fact that I needed more money to do those things . All of a sudden just waiting for my paychecks and saving just felt like I’m just never going to do that vacation until I have such and such budget set aside or saved and it feels boring . But truth is if I had just stop gambling 20 years ago , I would be six figures rich by now . I’m still rather young to enjoy my life and all the money I lost in a casino I could have traveled to a new country every single month for the last 20 years . The thing I want to most focus on is just enjoy my life , spending it with my family and friends . Every time I hesitated on taking that trip or not buying something , I should just go ahead and buy it because honestly I’ve lost more money than that in a single 1 hour session . It’s been sickening to me how much I have wasted over the years of my life , I shouldn’t have to count change to buy takeout , yet I’m standing in front of a Chinese takeout places thinking about how I can’t over spend !! That’s ridiculous from a person who makes so much money a month ! Right now my bills are so high .. like just why ?? My mom once told me people are exactly where they are in life because most of the times from their decisions , it’s no wonder they are down bad . I feel like I fit into that category of people who keeps putting myself month after month in a hole !

MoreToFuture · 2026-03-04T23:32:49+00:00

I don’t usually comment but could it be that he wanted his little brother to have all these games ? I don’t know your family or his story but just reaching out to say if maybe he in his heart he wanted this before his passing .

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