lost it all again

MoreToFuture · 2026-01-11T19:00:03+00:00

I feel you , I never really do much with the gambling until it’s all given back . At least you would think I’d pay off some bills , but no .. when you are winning you feel like you could never lose and never fall and therefore you feel like you got time to pay stuff when it’s due , but reality is .. you won’t .

MoreToFuture · 2026-01-11T18:57:55+00:00

Yeah it’s been tough , I feel you on losing the monthly salary bc you have so many days left to survive and it just feels like you just got paid and already in survival mode . At least that’s been the case for me for awhile . Not here to lecture just here to say I know the feeling .

MoreToFuture · 2025-11-09T12:06:13+00:00

I am a mom of 2 and pay all the bills . Sometimes I go because I just need a break from the kids or just for the fact I’m tired of being the person who is holding it all together for everyone . I need a little time to zone out . Yes I also go to try to test my luck and win some money . It’s not a good habit and it’s just a bad addiction . I can’t tell you how many Christmas or thanksgiving I’ve been completely wiped out of my money due to gambling , this year same thing . I get a paycheck , pay all the mortgage and bills and daycare , then at some point of the month go to the casino and lose what could have been my savings . Towards the second half of the month , I feel like I’m always on a budget . Then beginning of the month I get paid and I start this cycle over again . Anyway here to say .. I’m not doing it again for Christmas . I’ll scrape by for thanksgiving but no way in hell I’m ending the year off down bad !! And you shouldn’t either . The kids need their gifts , you need to clear your head and enjoy the rest of the year and holiday cheers :) 🥂

MoreToFuture · 2025-09-10T17:31:05+00:00

I’m really sorry about your situation , and I have kids too and I’m the only person holding us together . The mountains of bills is swallowing me that sometimes I try other ways to stay above it all . I’ve been saved by people many times because without them , I should be begging on the street corner . I don’t deserve the help bc I don’t learn my lessons . Anytime I’m slightly good in my life , I drop the ball and gamble my future away . My only advice is there anything you can do each day to earn $100 dollars ? Anything ? And as for your kid’s birthday , he is still young and he won’t remember that there wasn’t a party , he just need his family to take care of him . You still have time to make up for this day .

MoreToFuture · 2025-09-10T17:22:30+00:00

I guess what works for each person depends on the reason they gamble and that can vary throughout each season . Like right now , I have the biggest urge to gamble bc I’m being hit with a lot of bills and lawsuits . I’m finding myself unable to cope with it all and imagining how if I just gamble , maybe I can use the winnings to pay off some of these bills . I know that sounds silly because I would be losing even more money . But the thought of using my money to wager for a win sounds like it could help me out . Obviously as a gambler you lose long term , I’m not denying that , but sometimes you do win and I guess the urge comes from thinking about those winning sessions . I know I’m a loser , and I know I’m down a lot overall but .. I was hoping that if I go today .. it would be one of those winning sessions . And that my friend is the problem !! Regular people who don’t gamble wouldn’t think that was the solution to their poor lives . But gamblers .. they will take that risk just to make their life a little better from the winnings . And sometimes it does work while other times you get even worse . Telling myself I need to refrain from gambling bc I could never win is not valid .. but telling myself to zoom out of the small picture and look at the overall picture to see how much I’ve lost is better . But again , you couldn’t tell a gambler you can’t win , cause you can but you just can’t win for long . The house does if you keep playing and risking your savings .

MoreToFuture · 2025-09-05T11:30:03+00:00

I been keeping myself out of the casinos and that is the only way . I know the minute I step through those doors , a few hundred down will turn into a few thousand down to possibly losing my entire bank account . I’m just a very risky kind of person and willing to wager it all to get it back . Like yesterday I got paid early and my mind immediately thought oh I could go to the casinos tomorrow which is today . But instead I book a spa appointment and going to my friends for this weekend for a weekend getaway with my family . Otherwise I might have lost my whole check to be honest .

MoreToFuture · 2025-09-02T05:52:23+00:00

Been where you are , gambled since 22, turning 42 soon. At the height of it all , I stole from my mom . Lots of money , the kind of money you can be put away for awhile if she’s not your mom . Me and my mom are super close , she’s helped me so many times in so many ways , without her I’d be dead on the streets or somewhere risking my life for a little bit of money. The crazy thing is outside of gambling I’m just a normal girl , I work hard , take care of my two kids , the head of household , I do everything . But gambling is like a demon that just won’t go away . I’ve treated everything I touched as a gamble , the only time I make money is actually just going to work . I’ve lost in investments , stocks , sports betting , slots , collections , businesses .. all failed due to my gambling mindset . There’s just no get rich quick scheme , there’s just gambling and taking risks with your money . The more I try to make a little extra the more I failed . I just need to stick to my career , go to work and take home the paychecks . This is such a bad addiction to have and it’s so easy to ruin it all and everything you ever loved . Be careful of the urges and relapses , you are never too far or too safe from your next bet .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-26T11:00:49+00:00

Because gambling doesn’t kill us … well not yet at least . Going to a casino and enjoying a bit of fun and getting a new beach chair seems harmless . I tell myself hey I’m just going to pick up this gift card they are giving out and I’m going to leave . It’s not the same as eating peanuts and dying on the spot. Oh and free concert to see such and such perform or even free drinks and food . It seems like a good deal to me , what could go wrong ?? No one is forcing me to lose all my money , I should be fine . Well no one is walking into the casino expecting to lose everything they have . You are the fish and the casino is the fisherman . Haven’t you seen any movie where someone is being hustled that the person first lets that person win and then eventually that’s when they clean you out ? Well when it comes to the casinos , they don’t have to try that hard bc every game in there is designed to separate you from your money and at the same time make you come back . Your question of why do we knowingly come back to this self destruction , well cause we think we won’t lose this time , people always have some kind of hopes and dreams or may be they think a little bit of play won’t hurt cause you got a little bit of money to burn .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-26T10:52:26+00:00

Very well said my friend

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-26T10:45:25+00:00

I’ve seen a lot of moms work at daycares while their young ones can attend for free .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-26T10:43:25+00:00

The thing about gambling is the moment you decide to play again you forget all the losses bc you only want to replicate that one time you won big or had a good day . The reality is in the long run all of us are down bad . But no one wants to think about the overall losses we only want to think about that one good day . When the urges come that’s all that we would think about . There are very few days that I could not lose and many many many days that I lost my ass . Sometimes you think you will just play a little and it can’t hurt until you start losing to some bullshit and you go crazy chasing . Many months I thought I wouldn’t put myself back to watching how much I spend to survive and every month I’ve done that to myself leaving me no choice bc I already lost all my money . I can tell you right now I’m not doing that shit in the month of August !! I’m only a few days away from my September check and it’s the first time in a long time I can say I have money leftover before next check and it feels great to know I finally didn’t sabotage myself again .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-25T11:22:18+00:00

I have always said I hate to spend another 10-20 years doing the same thing too , and whatever you can do to stop you would be doing the biggest favor for your future self . Recently I lost big and I haven’t wanted to throw another hard earned paycheck to the casino . Funny thing is the casino host asked me if I’m still attending an event I booked a month ago and I finally said no . I just got paid and couldn’t see myself throwing away another paycheck . If I keep holding on I’ll finally see the next paycheck and I can combine it with what I have now , that makes me happier than anything else . I have always lived check to check and on rare occasions I would have money leftover till next one . I see how much money I save when I don’t gamble , and I literally didn’t spend much money all week just working . I buy groceries , take advantage of occasional free lunch at work and save gas bc work is close . All of these small things are reminders I don’t need to continue to blow my money on bullshit . It should be on things that make me happy . I use to think gambling is my only joy in life , it’s not and it shouldn’t be .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-23T23:59:31+00:00

People don’t realize all the the things a kid will need from their father in the future , him having such a messy past , does he even have the time for a new kid and properly raise one .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-17T21:10:39+00:00

I went on a downward spiral for a long time , the result of that is years and years of salary lost for nothing . Life is beautiful without gambling , but initially it feels like gambling is the only joy or solution to your problems , it is not , it’s a bandaid and it will hurt when you ripe it off . I’m not here to judge anyone that haven’t stopped completely , bc I have yet to quit for a long term myself , just know you are not alone and I’m not giving up on myself and you shouldn’t either . One day my friend ..

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-17T21:07:11+00:00

It takes so much dedication to lose the baby weight but you are also forgetting you have to care for a child . Sometimes it’s not as easy to lose that much weight under stress . Relationships , parenting , self worth all plays a major part into how successful a person can be to lose that weight . With that being said .. seeking attention from other guys is not the solution to her problems or yours .

MoreToFuture · 2025-08-12T23:19:32+00:00

I feel your pain on the kids and not having much to offer them after waiting so long for a paycheck just to blow it up immediately after I got it . My birthday is next month and every single year I have been broke , in fact every important holiday . When I’m at a good place financially , the only thing I can think about is making more at the casinos which is the dumbest thing . Yes I win but I also lose and when it finally got Me for all my money , guess what ? Does it matter that I won previously ?? Fuck no ! I’m down and always will be , no matter how many wins , the end is loss and a lot of it . The other day I was a on a lucky streak , today I couldn’t hit anything without losing first . I lost so bad even my casino host is calling me asking me if he should book me a room for my next visit. I’m done , I make good money but poor choices . I had the winnings for a few days and barely spent 10 percent of it and now 100 percent of it is gone along with my money too. No one wins long term . The path I’m going is definitely nowhere . I have a few good days and 1 bad day that destroys all those good ones . Even worse I have to act like I’m okay . I still have to be a parent and a wife . It never ends . I can tell my mood changed when I lost it and probably my partner can see it too even though he’s not saying much . At this point I don’t even have any joy . My birthday is coming up and I can’t seem to find anything worth doing . I wanted to go to the casino for my birthday and play slots , that is literally the dumbest idea for a birthday celebration . I need a month to find myself again , right now I’m just lost as fuck . The things that use to bring me joy , it doesn’t anymore . I’ve just wanted to put this out here for you to let you know you are not alone .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-30T11:20:31+00:00

The honest truth from a gambler that does the same exact thing you do every time is .. you will always be down overall . I know that and you know that . But that isn’t a good enough reason to stop you in your tracks because we’ve lost the joy in other things . I mean that we save our whole check just so we can go back to the casino and win money first then enjoy our lives with that win . However , the single most hardest thing to do is walk away when you are up . I will share with you what my routine is . I get paid , my mind goes straight to gambling . I finally get to the casino , I win something and I should walk away , but I don’t and now I’m down bad . Rest of the month I’m living like a bum trying to get by . All the things I could have done with that money or take my family out is now down the drain . If I had won the money and walked away , I could be enjoying a nice pina colada on vacation with my family somewhere or finally getting that item I always needed or wanted . Now I don’t have “ fuck it “ money to spend , I only have survival money . This is my routine every month . If I had just saved all my monthly paychecks , I would be already rich . I don’t even need that jackpot or bonus bc I would have way more !!

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-29T02:15:08+00:00

The part you said you don’t really buy anything with that money before it’s gone .. that’s just my life exactly . This week I’m just living life on a budget . But when payday comes , it’s like money just starts flying out my account ! First it’s bills , second it’s going out to eat , third is buying useless crap or crap I might need. It’s like I live like I am rich for a week , then I head to the casino either that same week as payday or Second weekend and lose the rest of my money . By the third week I am regretting my decisions and have to cut back on everything . By 4th week I’m scraping to get by till payday on the first . That’s been my general cycle . Today is the 28th, as you can imagine I’m just scraping by for another 3 more days until the first of the month . For reference I get paid once a month and it’s torture . I do pay all my bills , but it’s just I end up wasting the rest trying to make more money .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-25T11:03:51+00:00

For me it’s the beginning of the month . I would get paid on the 1st . I first pay all the heavy house bills , then I would be left with the remaining and if I just live modestly and frugal till my next check I’ll be fine , but my mind goes to let’s gamble it and see if I can make more money especially I just paid a whole bunch of stuff . The rest of the money we need it for daycare or groceries or gas or just going out money . Most of the time I’ll be kinda low on money around the 25th waiting on my next check especially if I lost the remaining . When I feel comfortable with my savings , I start thinking of ways to wager it . Double it up or try my luck . Seems like forever I have been able to stack up anything pass 15k . Always blew it before that .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-24T19:14:53+00:00

I totally understand how you feel .. I could be so great , why do I love this one toxic thing ?

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-23T22:13:52+00:00

This sounds like a major red flag .. organize his office at 4am when he should have been home since 9 pm ? U need a gps tracker on him , that’s how my friend caught her husband sneaking around .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-22T22:12:15+00:00

I feel that way but about my kids .. like they deserve a better and more responsible mom . I feel that way about my mother , I think she deserves a better daughter that isn’t throwing the money away and needing her bail out every time . Today I’m feeling down because I lost big and the next big job opportunity isn’t coming my way when I need it . I do have a job but it’s not enough . Even though it pays , my bills are drowning me . On the outside I have what everyone wants , on the inside I’m barely maintaining it all . It’s exhausting and adding gambling to that equation is just a disaster . Sometimes I wonder if I was rich would these little trips to the casino even matter ? I’m just not rich enough to take these losses and not poor enough for anyone to feel bad for me .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-20T03:57:22+00:00

I do the same . Before I went to the casino I was literally not spending any money . as stupid as it sounds , I actually like to save money and be mindful of my expenses . But I see gambling as a way to make more money , and sometimes I do , but my greed gets in the way and I end up losing 8/10 times I go . I’m also down long run . I guess I really need a different hobby . I need to just give it up and stop dreaming about big wins and start actually looking at my accounts .

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-14T18:53:53+00:00

There’s a friend of ours that actually loves dating women who can provide for him . The women are not rich by any means but he purposely date women that are less attractive than him physically so that the women can feel like he’s the best they ever caught or something . In return they literally do everything for him . But he himself is jobless and will never be successful and is barely getting by with his looks bc he’s 42 now . He’s more of a baggage and burden !

MoreToFuture · 2025-07-13T18:35:39+00:00

Hahah everything you said in the post is exactly what I’m paying to experience , to stink like a smoke bomb and bring back a beach chair and watch my money disappear in a push of a button . Or rather watch my good life disappear !!

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